Wanting to move to Vegas

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Okay, so here's the short story. I moved back to my small county town after living in Portland OR and Tacoma WA. I knew it would be somewhat of a culture shock, but didn't anticipate the amount of hate I would get from such a small town. Besides being haunted with snarls and stares from the yokals, and im from here, It wasn't that bad. I did get into a few altercations, fights, gunplay, ext.. I found that living here for 300 bucks a month rent with water is a well deserved price. I have bad ptsd, and no Fight or Flight Syndrome really. It's terrible when your whole life you adored John McClaine as a hero for being some bad ass that didn't care if he lived or died, till you get a revolver put to your head in a fight, and your heart doesn't even race. It's actually the opposite of cool, I did 3 years in Iraq only to have fucked up my ability to have fear enough to live a productive life.

Skip ahead, That shithouse for 300 a month, burned down. The worst thing in the world, not because I lost my cpu or my clothes, my 2 babies, bengals cats, suffered death from the hands of faulty wireing from slumlords.

I'm so over this place, and giving that I don't give a shit about a "simple life" in the country where i can hunt and fish, im ready to blow this shithole.

So, heres my stats, im a extremly fast cook, and I have a 2 year cul degree from a very reputable college. I should have no problem in Vegas right? I fear though that I heard Vegas can be like a small town, that troubles me as my PTSD has made it so I can't get anywhere in my small town due to fighting and shit. You can't really keep a job if you snap off at people staring at you, but I can't help it... I feel as though my life is in danger and my heart races (surprising not from guns, but from people looking at me).

Do you guys have any advice for me? I lost my 2 cats the only thing I knew of love, and want to make this place a distant memory never to return, except my moms funeral.

I'm pretty sure I can make it in Vegas, but I don't want to struggle too hard if I don't have to. Also, im not looking for a long term job there, as im pretty sure with me starting my VA paperwork they will deem me 100 percent disabled as I'm un-hireable. I already got blacklisted from everywhere in this shitty down. I literary have to move states to get a job, but that's not a fix. They need to pay me to not flip out and hurt somebody every month IMO (VA Rating).

Any comments welcome. I don't want to come off as a crybaby, but I have a serious issue. Sorry for the book, but you knew it was long when you opened the thread.