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03-12-2021, 11:40 AM
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I lived the life of a gay boi once and I didn't think I minded much that constant humor about my orientation from my more masculine guy pals. But being a gay boi is something you turn on and off, & you don't have to tell anyone you aren't comfortable with. Being an ugly or nonpassing tran is different, it's something everyone sees, more comparable with racism, except the hate is perhaps even more virulent as ppl see all kinds of sin and pedophilia and weird shit projected into there, even though in reality transition really has nothing to do with anything that harms others. And I guess there's a reason most Blacks aren't particularly cool with N word ribs even from fairly close White friends. and make no mistake, it is DEFINITELY harder by many measures to be trans than dark skinned. Everyone knows the suicide stats on trans people. Yes there are different contributing issues, but there is one thing I am POSITIVE is the biggest contributor: the isolation, the public discomfort and disdain, the judgment of others and also urself for not being pretty enough. And it is real enough shit to kill. So, the fact that you never let the trans thing go, won't just use female pronouns, even if the alternative is always "humorous", does make me want to get in your face. I don't think you understand how barbaric a thing it is to do to your friends, truly. Just a little bit of kindness there would affect the way others perceive us in this place substantially, you being an older male who the younger supercucks like filbus instinctively simp to. Of course I troll u plenty and probably deserve it to an extent, so I'm not particularly embittered toward you. But knowing there are other girls out there who haven't survived the big hurdle of getting used to their new identity makes me want to perform better than what I saw when I was really suffering through the hard part of this. When the trans girls here, with no better, more dignified example, and perhaps with no place to be themselves even at home, were cucking themselves to their knees trying to curry favor with the hostile rednecks of the board, all engaged in a desperate bottomfeeding submissiveness toward people who are bad faith actors and must be disregarded with extreme prejudice. When I saw C***ly was convinced by a Lulzsect insult to stop wearing her glasses that made her look pretty, that bugged the shit out of me. She's decided to hate me now, and I hope this won't be taken as some kind of license for any shit b/c im not throwing stones, but witnessing what appeared to me to be effective abuse made me rly angry. This shit isn't a game, it's really not. I want to protect that person and anyone else who might be targeted. So I guess I am a little aggro and in people's face now more than I used to, and happy to snitch and report, because I hate how abusive people are to the girls here. I don't feel "live and let live" toward people like mblake, who knowing me for nearly 10 years had nothing but maniacally vicious things to say about me based totally on my identity. I don't want to know people so creepy that they hang out with well-intentioned people who ought to be made honorary friends 4 years of posting ago, while hating them with a desperate passion. That's really ugly stuff I just don't care to be acquainted with. Ideally I would carve out a little niche of civility for peeps here, where women'd be treated like fkng women by the generally-civil boomers who play this old game, and the occasional humorous slur wouldn't be backed with like actual substantive psychotic hatred. I can go on 4chan or k*w*f*rms if I want to talk to murderers and ragey certifiables. And if any area of common gathering could be sane about trans women it should be this one, the community for the old game which for most of us allowed us to explore our gender identity even before we knew treatment would be an option. There's a reason for lots of us being here and I wish it were reflected in the community, & even think it can be if a certain few people move on. I know not everyone here gets to enjoy that sense of normalcy IRL in their home. I have seen some TRULY disturbing households, girls with C cups living with mom and dad still "closeted" at 30. Completely pinned by the world, unable to get a job or do anything with themself because they are stuck in identity limbo. And I just can't settle for letting a place where I exist pile on the ugliness and alienation to those people. It's a potentially lethal matter. And you know I have a sense of humor Patriam, edgy jokes aren't what I'm done with. It's the undergirding hatred, which has been festering extra strongly in our demographic between their 20s and now 30s(40s?), particularly as the trashier end of nerd media became more radical and right wing. So that's why I get in your face and basically the only trigger for me getting in anyone's face. I never used to be like that for anything, but the last few years of struggle almost killed me, and in so doing, taught me a few things. It is worth establishing mutual respect with people and delineating oneself as separate from the sick cannibal mob that is *everywhere*, although you probably don't see them yourself being a regular male. On any of those days where I was on death's door, just some developments toward the positive on this retarded silly board might have made the difference in staying my hand. So I can't just let it go, or be totally content with you as a person while you continually reinforce the alienation that drives 40% of us to suicide attempt. I hope u understand why I am so cringe now, and sometimes rather sharp with u. So tell a trans gal she's pretty some time, u dont have to have sex with her after. and you'll make her day. And the girls who witness it won't get in your face so much. I think you might actually be a pretty decent guy, but if you actually have an inflexible bone in there that prevents you from treating us with respect, couldn't meet me IRL without being impolite, etc., then you need work. (I know you were talking about a larger cultural phenomenon, but I think I exhibit what you refer to too in this particular way so I wrote this. and it got out of hand in length. [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]) | |||
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#283
03-12-2021, 11:49 AM
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03-12-2021, 11:55 AM
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03-12-2021, 12:28 PM
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If this were a Canadian-run board & project we wouldn't even be having this debate. The haters would just be banned, full stop. There wouldn't be a discussion or debate. Even our most right-wing party isn't trying to repeal trans rights (though they don't want much new ones really). When Scheer couldn't say what he really thought about LGBTs, it destroyed all electability in urban centers.
It's a bit sad America is about 20 years behind the rest of the Western world dealing with diversity. Well perhaps not in the big cities but you get the point. This isn't some sort of superiority take, but more one of disappointment. And while RnF is just RnF, it's doubly disappointing that it's so rife in the playerbase in a way it wasn't a few years ago. Mods should grow a set and just put it all down. Bigotry/hate isn't discourse. And it's a bad look for the project when it resembles 4chan more than a friendly social group.
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03-12-2021, 01:01 PM
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Having had the opposite happen and being literally welcomed into the ladies room by a woman holding the door, I personally can dismiss your shenanigans and grumpy bullying. I honestly have no idea were it comes from. You think you're being funny maybe, but you are kinda just punching sideways and down. I honestly don't understand what really motivates you here, with this kind of post. Quote:
I did develop somewhat by climbing the broken shores of this forum. As a pastor would say, why walk over broken glass if I had a choice? No. I don't think I will again. This forum isn't important in the grand scheme of things and there's plenty, been plenty, TRANNYQUEST. It's not like I have been silenced for being "trans". The U.S. let's people bully. Can't say it's healthy, but we aren't the most collective bunch. It was good to vent when I needed to. However, almost certainly if I was doxed I would never hold office or be well trusted by a cool and normal institution with any authority. And I'm not even really transphobic or straightphobic or whatever the alternatives are. I wish America could move on from its prejudices too. We need leaders who care about people being able to feed, house, and care for themselves. Not leaders worried about whether people have vaginas. I guess I have just matured and don't really expect the rest of the forum to mature. | |||||||
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03-12-2021, 02:05 PM
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Despite all this, some people have been really kind here and elsewhere. There's nothing wrong with pointing out cruelty though. I'm not the only lonely person here, and you don't need to protect me. I do feel like the forums would be a happier place without people bullying. I used to come here to fight. It used to reaffirm my hatred. I don't know what changed, but even Kaveh calling me crazy and off my meds. For me. Doesn't really bother me anymore. It's where Kaveh is. I'm not going to engage him in mind breaking emotional abuse. Forum meta. Even though I could. I've a lot of self restraint. Even my recent IRL abuser was given months of leeway and in the end I protected them from my anger and put myself at risk and hardship for them and our family. I don't feel like getting into details, I don't expect people to take stuff like that at face value. But, yeah. It's nice to be nice, and not just an angry, fearful, hurt, animal, growling in pain. Humans need hierarchy and most permission. And males particularly struggle with freedom and power. There is an in born need for the male homosapien to loudly proclaim their dominance and authority. In the modern age It's been stripped from the Arena and transplanted to the forum or the commentary at the bottom of opinion pieces. Trans people commit suicide because they don't have the experience to transcend this while simultaneously being considered problems, blamed, and being cruelly mistreated and dismissed by people who are unhappy and need something to blame or attack or worry about or, at the most basic level draw attention away from themselves. | |||
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#289
03-12-2021, 02:14 PM
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Most people commit sumocide. Super fat obese namsayun
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03-12-2021, 02:24 PM
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Fat build up helps protect people from toxins, inflammation. And is a direct result of stress. Nutrition is counted in calories, not nutrients, quality, or purity. A lot of people cannot think for themselves or manage their own nutrition. So they eat whatever gives them the most immediate gratification, and quantity, even if in the long run it will lead to horrific suffering. When I was chugging my Seroquel I would go to sleep, then wake up and chug food for comfort and sleep until I could dose my next Seroquel. I snapped out of it and my self discipline and desire to be physically healthy has reaserted itself. I am facing life, death in a lean body, eyes open, mind open. Thoughtful and sharing in my wisdom. | |||
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