Well...

[Gatordash]

I ran out of space to write stuff on my "to do" whiteboard. Not great.

[starkind]

I decided a few years ago to stop seeking medical treatment for my severe illness because the chances that I will get better and contribute to society don't justify it. It was the main factor in my last major suicide attempt.

I'm not encouraging others to feel the same. And out of respect for my loved ones I've decided to stay the course even if that means spending 19hrs a day in bed at home a virtual cripple.

The only things that keep me going are small and trivial, yet I focus on the little good and try to troll my way towards a better tomorrow.

I can't find my dumb cat this morning. He's being a real shithead unintentionally. It hurts so much to crawl around looking for him. He needs his dumb shot.

He's been doing really well. The only reason he's being a pain in the ass is because he's been rehabilitated enough to be able to be a damn jerk.

It's ok to be restarted. Once everyone is perfect and acting perfectly all u get left is stepford abusive toxicity and conformity.

So I lay myself down and pray to God not for me. I can read his words and have faith that in the end I'll be at peace.

I pray for all of you mother Fulkersons.

Love yall.

[Gravydoo II]

Originally Posted by starkind [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

I decided a few years ago to stop seeking medical treatment for my severe illness because the chances that I will get better and contribute to society don't justify it. It was the main factor in my last major suicide attempt.

We left afghanistan, we can afford it now. Run that tab, Starkind. This is your one life man. If they had to spend a million a day on you, its nothing to this nation. Run the tab man. Get yourself feeling better.

[starkind]

Originally Posted by Gravydoo II [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

We left afghanistan, we can afford it now. Run that tab, Starkind. This is your one life man. If they had to spend a million a day on you, its nothing to this nation. Run the tab man. Get yourself feeling better.

I opened a can of tuna walking around the whole house with the smelly tuna on the plate. All the other cats came and meowd for it.

Still no sign of the cat that needs his shot [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Chest hurts.

Laying down.

I'm not worth millions. Costed you all too much anyway. And so have my dumb cats.

Even if I love them.

Going to have to wait for family to get home to do anything else.

He's literally not under anything. And not sitting at the doors screaming to come in. I'm to scared to even tell you all his name because my family is evil and I don't want to be doxed.

Not going to the hospital when the time comes it comes. Give someone else an ICU bed.

[pink grapefruit]

Originally Posted by starkind [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

I'm too weak to post cat memes right now.

Hope everyone else is doing ok.

wym weak??

Originally Posted by imperiouskitten [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

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what medication would instantly cure you? most of this sounds very not great but it's good you're feeling stronger today.

Originally Posted by Cecily [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Got 82.5% on an exam I didn't study enough for and was sure I bombed. Clinicals were canceled today so slept till 1045 instead of waking up at 0500. Needed the extra sleep. Guardian angel still watching over me.

nice cecily!! you're really doing it lol.

Originally Posted by starkind [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

I decided a few years ago to stop seeking medical treatment for my severe illness because the chances that I will get better and contribute to society don't justify it. It was the main factor in my last major suicide attempt.

I'm not encouraging others to feel the same. And out of respect for my loved ones I've decided to stay the course even if that means spending 19hrs a day in bed at home a virtual cripple.

Love yall.

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Well I feel fucking fantastic, except the doordash lady gave me the wrong food this morning. I'm eating it bc hungry but idk why anyone would order this junk. I wanted my oatmeal, salad, and bagel but instead I got greasy breakfast sandwiches. Ice cream coffee with whipped cream instead of my normal coffee w normal cream.

Gonna play barbells and cardio and then hopefully spend the day studying, bleh :P

I got 7 pullups in a single set yesterday! Maybe not a huge accomplishment to most but I remember when I bought my little doorframe pullup bar and could only hang on it and do negatives lol.

[Gravydoo II]

Originally Posted by pink grapefruit [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

wym weak??



what medication would instantly cure you? most of this sounds very not great but it's good you're feeling stronger today.



nice cecily!! you're really doing it lol.



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Well I feel fucking fantastic, except the doordash lady gave me the wrong food this morning. I'm eating it bc hungry but idk why anyone would order this junk. I wanted my oatmeal, salad, and bagel but instead I got greasy breakfast sandwiches. Ice cream coffee with whipped cream instead of my normal coffee w normal cream.

Gonna play barbells and cardio and then hopefully spend the day studying, bleh :P

I got 7 pullups in a single set yesterday! Maybe not a huge accomplishment to most but I remember when I bought my little doorframe pullup bar and could only hang on it and do negatives lol.

Like 50% of the people in my division couldnt do five in boot camp.

[pink grapefruit]

Originally Posted by Gravydoo II [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Like 50% of the people in my division couldnt do five in boot camp.

Yeah they're tough. Chin ups are a lot more fun tbh.

A few months ago I could do 4 max. Currently upper body is only pulls/chins/bench to save time, so I've done a ton of them! [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

[Gravydoo II]

Jesus..

Count your blessings, people.

I got humbled this morning, too.

If you dont live in some god forsaken desert, you got power, your health for the most part, and the will to keep going, you're one of the lucky ones.

[starkind]

Originally Posted by Gravydoo II [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Jesus..

Count your blessings, people.

I got humbled this morning, too.

If you dont live in some god forsaken desert, you got power, your health for the most part, and the will to keep going, you're one of the lucky ones.

100%

[Mesocyclone]

Why doesn't the Staff of Dreaded Gaze show on the mob? Every other good rare weapon is visible.