Project 1999 is a eugenics plot to sterilize the mentally ill

[bigjerry]

you can talk crazy just dont tell me ur cutting for me

[AzzarTheGod]

admiring the time i ran AngryJammer off the forums just by making a few posts really sent his ass packing

[maerilith]

Originally Posted by bigjerry [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

you can talk crazy just dont tell me ur cutting for me

Hmm..... I was going to say something pofound, but it's out of my mind. Why would I cut for you anyway... you are nobody.

Anyway my pain is not at all like your pain, and we have nothing in common, aside, that were both sex perverts. Or not at all, maybe your a real stand up gentleman.

I don't know. It doesn't matter, and It's a waste of time for me to come here.

I'm bored though, I've nothing better to do, I'm like a beta fish forgotten, neglected, left on the shelf in walmart, and while I don't blame the humans who bread me, I do not have the will to really care, maybe if I see movement out of the corner of my eyes, my de-oxegenated brain will respond, and I'll twitch, and some darling angelic human will give me a bigger tank, and come talk to me where I can press my head against the glass, or put me with another beta, and give me some nice fish food and a bubbly current to swim in.

I don't know... or maybe I'll just get flushed down a toilet, either way I don't have room to swim, people forget to feed me, and I'm trapped in a tiny plastic bag, yes, I don't have to worry about predators, no I don't have to worry about my pond drying up. Or freezing in the winter, however, I don't have much left of my soul. And I do not understand how a beta fish is supposed to fix it's life. I guess I can just be grateful the dreadful fluorescent lights go out at night.

No, you aren't that powerful, you aren't that person, you aren't me, and you aren't in control, you can't take responsibility for me, and don't have power over me, and won't bare responsibility for my life. If you feel guilty, it's something inside of you, if you're afraid, be afraid for yourself. Not for me. I'm nobody also. I mean nothing to you. Maybe I'm just an echo of your consciousness, maybe a regret or an anger, or something long forgotten, or long suffered lifetimes ago. However I am certainly not important, I have no bearing on your life, maybe it's all a complete coincidence. I do not know why I even care to type and why ... my emotions are suppressed, deeply, by the psychiatric drugs, I have been taking to stay alive. I don't spark life in myself anymore. So if it's you I spark life into, if it's you who feel, than it's you who is alive and I who am nobody. I'm barely keeping the death at bay.

[bigjerry]

Originally Posted by maerilith [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

No, you aren't that powerful

explain the 5 page post im quoting this from and 500 anxious shitposts 2day then hun

[maerilith]

Originally Posted by bigjerry [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

explain the 5 page post im quoting this from and 500 anxious shitposts 2day then hun

It's all in there, inside your 5 pages.

Hon.

[bigjerry]

Originally Posted by maerilith [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

It's all in there, inside your 5 pages.

Hon.

n@gg@ i aint read dat

[maerilith]

Ps I'm really unstable. But you already know this. The least I can do is some terrible shitposting.

I want to believe there was / is some hint of concern in there.

That would be ridiculous. The last thing you want to do is let me think that. I'm way to crazy.

I kinda want to right an amazing public journal entry just because I can. I don't think so though.

I post here for the same reasons you do. Read the thread title. I'm ready to die. I'm still alive though, and I've a slight confusion as to whether that's good or not. I mean. I'm ok with what inevitably will happen. I'm a bit too tired, and insane to make sense of the life I still have.

The twitch bucks thing is cute. I'm old though. I also don't really game. Idk. I'm more down for some of that irl whoring. I skyped, it was ok, the guy was sweet, I enjoyed it some, I don't think I could do that regularly enough to make a decent income. For pesonal reasons I can't get into publicly. Well. If I wasn't such an old toaster, I'd be out there frakking with other cylons.

There's nothing really to say. Forums really are drugs. Especially for shut ins with bad social anxiety and anger.

[Pokesan]

i already told u to get on twitch and make trannie bux

[AzzarTheGod]

Originally Posted by Pokesan [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

i already told u to get on twitch and make trannie bux

this. fix your public image clean up your act and make 4chan dickgirls money advertising and streaming the right games on twitch.

if i recall your voice doesn't completely suck, get a decent bra and a good wig take a bunch of glam-but-still-nerdy-dickgirl-cute pics like Linetrap and market yourself correctly.

stop wasting your time spewing garbage. oh this would involve getting out of the endless loop of emotional essay writing on p99, guess its not happening?

[Pokesan]

creepos will buy u computers and clothes etc

use ur female priviledge fam