A dark truth.

[Skarne]

Originally Posted by magnetaress [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Lithium was when I experienced Seritonen Toxicity as a kid. They pumped me with crazy amounts of it when I was only like eight. I puked all over tremors, fever. Was absolutely disgusting until they switched meds and changed doses. I remember my mom and dad yelling and fighting with each other that insurance didn't cover the right brand and I was stuck with a generic that was absolutely dangerous. It's amazing I survived. Yes, that's the wonderful childhood that led to a suicide attempt at like 10.

I'm not making this up. The psychiatric industry is absolutely abhorrent. Yes, I was also a childhood risk. They had me fantasizing about real dumb fucking stuff.

Drugs that fuck with serotonin are absolutely just "best practice mkultracraft".

YOU just don't know the history of psychiatry, I do. There is no such thing as a chemical imbalance in the body. Psychiatry is a pseudoscience. Magnetaress Magnetaress, you don't even- you're glib. You don't even know what Ritalin is. If you start talking about chemical imbalance, you have to evaluate and read the research papers on how they came up with these theories, Magnetaress, OK. That's what I've done.

[magnetaress]

Originally Posted by Skarne [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

YOU just don't know the history of psychiatry, I do. There is no such thing as a chemical imbalance in the body. Psychiatry is a pseudoscience. Magnetaress Magnetaress, you don't even- you're glib. You don't even know what Ritalin is. If you start talking about chemical imbalance, you have to evaluate and read the research papers on how they came up with these theories, Magnetaress, OK. That's what I've done.

Those imbalances aren't necessarily genetic or essential or innate. If you don't remove the stress or organism from the stress. Pumping them with drugs can help, sometimes the organism can react in a positive way. But when a child is being assaulted and abused. No amount of medication is enough and can kill them. The side effects of every drug get severe and just add to the suffering and loss of self worth abused people suffer.

In a lot of cases healthy food and environment is sufficient. When I went to all children's the doctors said that I honeymooned. Miraculously got better.

Thats because the abuse stopped. For the first time in my life I wasn't getting sat on and screamed at and cornered, and beaten by a 250lb crazy person. So they pumped me with meds until I couldn't tolerate the side effects, adjusted them and sent me home, an innocent fucking child. A sweet sensitive caring child. Home to my abuser sick on drugs. The rest is hell. Until I got away and escaped into the military.

God damn. I am so incredibly fucking lucky and resilient and because of my female brain. I survived what was impossible and became a force of wisdom and spiritual growth.

Drugs can help. But they are virtually useless when prescribed in a profit motivated spiritual and moral vacuum to cure symptoms instead of the stress and poison and helplessness and manipulation causing the illnesses and imbalances.

People are resilient. They can heal. But not if you shove a jar of Seroquel or Lithium at them and put them back at the mercy of someone else's psychotic behavior.

One of the major side effects of Lithium is thyroid dysfunction. That is an absolute death sentence in our modern world. It's a slow horrific death of ridicule that leads to worse diseases. Especially for females.

Psychiatry has helped me some. On the whole it's caused some severe damage and trauma. Some of which I'm still healing. Wellbutrin lead directly to suicide. Other drugs, horrific hallucinations as a child. And we aren't letting science and medicine do the psychiatry. No, now proceeded, laws, liability, and statistics driven by sales and side effects do the psychiatry.

[Nexii]

Originally Posted by Skarne [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

YOU just don't know the history of psychiatry, I do. There is no such thing as a chemical imbalance in the body. Psychiatry is a pseudoscience. Magnetaress Magnetaress, you don't even- you're glib. You don't even know what Ritalin is. If you start talking about chemical imbalance, you have to evaluate and read the research papers on how they came up with these theories, Magnetaress, OK. That's what I've done.

Yea for all modern psychology/psychiatry proclaims to be and do, the suicide rate has actually increased slightly compared to historic values.

The sad reality is that while a lot of valid disorders have been identified there isn't a good cure for the vast majority.

[Cecily]

Originally Posted by Nexii [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Yea for all modern psychology/psychiatry proclaims to be and do, the suicide rate has actually increased slightly compared to historic values.

The sad reality is that while a lot of valid disorders have been identified there isn't a good cure for the vast majority.

Which disorders do you think are valid?

[Nexii]

Originally Posted by Cecily [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Which disorders do you think are valid?

I mean the classification of disorders. In that they exist as described.

[magnetaress]

Anyway I developed an intense resistance to drug induced mania, thats how I tolerated really high doses of buproprion in 2018-19. When I went through my Irulan, Clevergirl phase here.

I'm really self aware and sensitive to those effects. Like I know when my Seritonen is edging towards that really awful childhood moment of Lithium poisoning.

[magnetaress]

I know I talked a ton of shit about the wellbutrin, buproprion, but I was on a furious mission to get fit and was preparing for war. So I focused all that insane mania into fixing myself and cleaning house, running, and juicing up my glutes and squats. It was unsustainable though, once I hit my goals I ended up right back in the ANXIETY trap. Pretty much experienced what was quoted with that derealization, complete psychotic break when I had to chose to go through with my plans.

Ended up in pure animalistic survival mode.

[Cecily]

Yep... I'm so fucking thrilled to be headed towards psych nursing. Bad feeling about pushing this shit on people. Antipsychotic side effects are scary AF and I cannot believe they give that shit to human beings.

[magnetaress]

Originally Posted by Cecily [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Yep... I'm so fucking thrilled to be headed towards psych nursing. Bad feeling about pushing this shit on people. Antipsychotic side effects are scary AF and I cannot believe they give that shit to human beings.

The few really kind and wise humans who cared for me, even during my last horrific stay at the ward, got me to stop trying to kill myself and start facing all this from a more holistic and less drug centric viewpoint.

The Seroquel let me sleep some my first few months out, and that isolation gave me time to think. I'm one of the really lucky ones though and I have the power to recognize and stop the self harm.

IF I can talk about it and find ways to calm down without being fighty or "upset".

Having really cool headed peeps around who listen and understand is the best medicine. Take heart in that at least. I hope.

[imperiouskitten]

i still like lexapro tho ! lifesaver and i never even did a big dose.