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I was hardcore addicted to benzos from ages 18-19. My psychiatrist prescribed me 270mg alprazolam (xanax) each month. For a while it was great; my life fell to pieces around me and I wasn't even there to hurt for it. I started taking more and more at a time, until I reached a point where I was literally swallowing handfuls of those 2mg pills at a time, washed down with some vodka. When I ran out of pills, I would buy more from friends. There are entire months of my life that I don't remember. Eventually, the seizures started happening when I ran out. Every single time I suffered a seizure, my right shoulder would dislocate. The pain was excruciating and I could never get it back in without going to the ER and having them knock me out with drugs, the muscles were just too tight. At first I didn't know why I was having the seizures, but it became apparent pretty quickly. Like a true addict though, I didn't tell my psychiatrist until I absolutely had to, which was when the doctors caring for me decided that I needed surgery. My shoulder had started to dislocate just from regular movement, and whenever it did it was a huge ordeal getting it back in place. So I underwent a surgery on my shoulder, while on a plan to slowly wean myself off of the drugs. Both went well, though I lost some range of motion in that arm and was in a bit of pain during recovery. Then for reasons I don't remember, I started buying huge amounts of benzos online. The result was dozens more seizures and another surgery when I fucked the first one up. Now I have even less range of motion, and the muscles in that arm ache constantly. No more benzos, at least. A few years after all of that, I started having seizures again. My neurologist told me that I had developed epilepsy. I asked him if the benzo addiction and frequent seizures in the past could have been a contributing factor, and he said it's likely but there is no way to know for sure. So I have that to deal with for the rest of my life, now. Benzo addiction isn't all that cool, if you ask me.
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Glad you're back with us faerie!
addiction in general is horrible and theres no doubt benzo withdrawals are beyond severe. I just never got a high off of them to get addicted in the first place | ||
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Etizolam (benzo analog) though got me high as hell.
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I'm paranoid I'm trippin I'm fucking with 2 bitches, honestly people Im a different breed so that copy and paste bs doesn't work on a Jedi like myself. Die hah I'd take a shotgun to the dick before I die from benzos. Tonight I popped 2 mg bout to pop some goose and go out tonight nuga I love my life, but thank you god bless America.
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Sidelle SUNRISE - 60 Wood Elf Assassin | Zhalara BLACKTHORN - 33 Wood Elf Druid
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Wanna pump my shotty bb?
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Estolcles Guerrero: Human Paladin <Europa>
Kalila Hart: Human Druid <Europa> Lemmi Kilmaster: Halfling Warrior <Europa> Wolfang: Human Monk Estolcles: Human Paladin *Thread postings and responses are 99.9999% of the time not representing the thoughts and beliefs of Europa, including any/all of it's members and officers. "You chicken chokin' pecker puke!" ~Terry Funk | |||
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