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Originally Posted by RecondoJoe [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

They asked if I ever had suicidal thoughts, and I answered yes, because I genuinely did. The next thing I know the doctor leaves the room and a bunch of security guards swarmed me. Like that's not exactly going to want someone with mental health problems really want to come back for help.

Also at the time I didn't really understand what was happening with my brain and I didn't think I had PTSD, I just thought where I had been in a country where no one spoke english and people were trying to kill me had caused me to have a weird reaction when I came back to the states and that they could give me a pill for a couple of weeks and it would go away.

Like I would actually get upset when they tried to say I had PTSD and would even attack family members when I found out that they had told other people that I had it.

I had seen friends when I was deployed have complete nervous break downs so bad that they got sent home early, and seen other friends sob uncontrollably and eventually commit suicide. This was while I was still in. I saw those people as the ones who had PTSD. To me I just had a weird condition where I was super nervous and having flashbacks all of the time, I didn't think it was PTSD.

Yeah, I made that mistake once. They flew me from Colorado to Sheridan, WY VA mental health hospital for two weeks. I was just being drunk and stupid and not even suicidal but they don’t fuck around with that shit.