A dark truth.

[magnetaress]

Originally Posted by imperiouskitten [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

honestly don't think so. it always comes back to hatred with you. anyway, if you gave people on the economic low end the possibility of free time to cook for themselves, it is entirely possible and indeed likely that they would do so.

I know you haven't worked in a long time / ever but trust me, it's the long-hour grind that forces many conscientious ppl into the fast food line. Also UBI in my mind rolls along roughly at the same time with health care availability for ppl in that income bracket outside of the northwest, so spending all money on street drugs becomes less of a thing as the pressure of literally having a gun to your head to work a rigidly defined 40 hour job dissipates and one can treat their acktchyual issues.

Nexii also alludes to the major deal, maybe the main everyday problem which generates the greatest total psychic turmoil, the petty tyrannies that the militant starvation employment enforcement system inflict at every single level of hierarchy. the abuse, the rape, the years spent listening to screaming. the insane busybody landlady. the 16yo queer hottie who winds up HIV+ after parental ejection. all violence abstracted through pure capitalism's perfidiously restrictive mechanisms of resource distribution, which are themselves a very obvious abstraction of the law of the jungle including good old slavery.

All the worst of our economic system is very obviously mitigated dramatically if it becomes possible to eat and shelter without assimilating to a post-industry 40-hr coffee stand job where you sell coffee to the other coffee stand workers on their break in a big old soviet-style make-work resource shuffle, except the overseer is constantly threatening to ship you to siberia to starve for long bathroom breaks.

I over came hatred. You don't see it yet. But it's not about fear/hatred. It's about healing, curing, nurturing, protection.

All authority, discipline, order, doesn't stem from control fear or hatred.

Otherwise I pretty much agree. I'm sorry you think I am hateful and dismiss me out of hand for that.

How many tears do I need to shed and how many times must I sacrifice die, or kill myself and pass through the eye of the needle weaving the tapestry of time to prove this? You haven't been here with me. Stop judging me by the screams of 2010.

It seems like you're afraid to take action against an abuser. Not even through the state. I am not saying to torment them. God have mercy on their souls. I don't think people can survive alone. Or heal alone. We aren't creatures born fully formed and programmed. We are all forcefully bound in eachother collectively through nature. Mothers milk. Our childhood firends. The immaterial nature of our spirits. Discussed in detail in another thread. Abusers must be cared for like children and sick lions. Not out of fear, but because we don't let our babies rot in lesions and rabies. And live a life of terror, inflicting terror on others. This is what has been brainwashed into us by Satanists and the occult and moraly bankrupt. We need to face our imperfection and treat ourselves and our children collectively with care and compassion. Not apathy and not wash our hands of responsibility and duty. We cannot hand babies sugary money snacks and then expect and demand they do better. Only by caring for them individually and collectively and teaching them and growing them into responsibility and love can someone like me or my father be healed.

Look. I am healed, spiritually. My heart is pure. Don't put me down because my experiences and words, and feelings make you uncomfortable. Please think about it. You say you were never abused. You are judging me by that measure and the last thing I want is for you or anyone to suffer like I have. You have absolutely no idea if the situation and person I'm talking about and how to handle it humanly.

You said a mate abused you. But you got away. I helped you. You may not realize it, but I helped you become aware, and my compassion and strength was given to you. I remember talking to you. I gave you some really good advice that helped take you where you are now. Not once did I say to fight him. Or engage him. Or submit to him. You needed more help than I could give.

I lived that before learning how to talk, count, or think for myself. My first memories are of abuse that would have destroyed you. And that did destroy me.

To say and do nothing and to give no future generations any forewarning or wisdom would be horrific. Yet I opened myself to the hatred of others. To ridicule. To be dismissed out of hand. Out of love and caring and a desire to be nothing like my abuser and his enablers.

I would hope without me you would have had a good life. That you wouldn't need to stare into this mirror. However this is who and wear we are. And I am comically bound in that. I'm a part of you. You're here with me, and I here with you.

You've helped. Your criticism helps. Your judgment helps. This post I feel good about. Is it enough? I hope so. I don't want to be in charge. My suggestions are simply that. I believe that what I've shared is important and in some small way. Changes us. For the better. Headed. Ignored. Accepted. Rejected.

It's time for me to step back now.