Why does God want me on anti-psychotics?

[SorenVC]

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Sketchy reviews, sketchy medicine drug. I don't really like being addicted to this or how the professionals call it, being "dependent, not addicted" to it. But what choice do I have. The more I live the more I feel like I never chose anything in life and if I had to live it again with the same feelings same situation I would do the same that I already did. But fatalism is hard to believe in and free will looks like magic too. So what's the truth?

I feel like this drug was pushed on me when I was only 16 years old and now 12 years later I can't get rid of it. What can I do really. I don't even know how much this thing impacts me. But when I tapered it off slowly, I did feel much different indeed. I wonder what it would feel like to be free from this medicine...