What am I doing. Can I/we be helped? What class should I roll on blue?

[runlvlzero]

So I am at specs soloing and I don't even wanna pvp I just want to get to 46 so I can heal heartbrands new PUG guild <Red Dawn> on his new adventures.

I'm grinding and LFG. I like full groups in good xp spots, guk, ya'know.

But theres none to be had and I woke up at 3am, so figured would be a great time to grind out 39-41 at the spectres. I need dem levels to have fun with pals in fear right? or whatever.

Also being 49 to heal/ch/rez in guk would be nice during downtimes.

So I'm soloin specs and theres the 2 spawns at the back. (Fraid of the pvp noaws) cause fuckin ballstomper couldn't even kill me with HT after I let my guard down and grouped with him...

So I have been soloing these 2 back specs for like 3 hrs (its now six am).

And I finally am like a yellow into 40.

And the roamer repops at a bad time, and the feared spec happens to run all the fuckin way to it... normally pathing doesnt let it go that far and normally the roamers down. But i've been AFK forumquesting not staying on top of spawns.

And so I get 2 specs agrod and die.

I run back and try to kill the spectre naked at the entrance, get it to 4% and its running and a fucking GREEEN CON LIZARDMAN WARRIOR jumps on me.....

WHAT THE FUCK, so i root it and med, i realize i'm out of water cause of CR and now not regenning mana at 2%, i try to summon abundant drink, insufficient mana.

THIS IS THE REAL KILLER HERE FOLKS.... I fucking load summon 1 reg as single fucking water and it FUCKING FIZZLES. I'm now OOM and cant med, the other spec finally paths into the spec at the tree... so i hope run/strafe my ass to the zone line.

Finally med come back.

Instead of fucking with IVU (it sees invis) I just fuckin lull it, fucking resist... lull lands... omfg i can finally cr and spend 20 mins rezzing and medding again in a pvp zone, time is getting busy again and server pop is going up.

I don't mind me a little pvp, but its annoying as fuck when you want to have a life outside of this game and can't even get a reg exp group because server is toxic and jaded as fuck and you just happen to be in the only clean whistle guild of legit pvpers on the box.. (Flowers)...

What the fuck am I to do, I mean yeah I could grind out these levels to 46 and raid with heartbrand. I really kinda want to. Would be fun for 1 last bit of raid/mass pvp before server dies and teams comes out....

Or I could find a nice relaxed group to grind with on blue, were I imagine I would actually get an exp group on the reg even if it would take me 6 months to hit 50+ and I would have to play EC for plats and lewtz.

Also why the fuck people 51-59 arent leveling, I know all u 60's in the RMT business and aint got no time to help bring any of us pals up.... but shit server fucked.