ive got demons in my head that tell me to do bad things and they bite me until i do

[Black Jesus]

so recently i started having these demons haunt me it was scary at first but once you get the schizophrenia diagnosis its not so bad but the pills dont help they make it worse. they dont tell me to kill or nothing and most the time I cant even understand them

one of them is called hook he looks like a shadow ghost but he doesn't need to bite because i am under his total control from all the recent abuse he might get mad at me for writing this i swear he's behind me right now invisible. I don't see him very often like maybe 1 night a week and he'll sit in the corner looking at me and he paralyzes me from moving but honestly he is the only 1 that really scares me. he has the ability to make me do things and then clear my memory of them and then i get told later what happened

then there's chleo who is a cat that doesnt really float but is just kind of perched on my shoulder but not really she doesn't bite or anything but she will scratch at my eyes and tell me to attack people if she feels threatened by them and then she wants to go to new places everyday and gets bored easily and always tells me ways to win arguments in debates and such. overall shes not really bad like hook just misunderstood

then theres oaf who is like idk kind of an ogre or something. i cant even describe any features because he doesn't have a face it looks like it was burnt he is kind of dumb and very brutish i met him at school and people were wondering why i was talking to myself in the middle of the library and that's when i realized he was just one of the delusions. he is actually my friend though and not a burden like chleo but him and chleo dont get along so when chleo is around he goes away

theres a couple more but i dont see them quite so much. theres also just voices that scream inside my head when i am trying to go to sleep and then i wake up to the screaming

[Black Jesus]

my main concern is that under obamacare nad his recent slew of tyrannical presidential directives they will be able to find my medical diagnosis and use it to confiscate firearms under the gun control act of 1968

[Hitchens]

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[Black Jesus]

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the pills dont help they make it worse

Seroquel and I don't like to take it because it makes me think more violent thoughts I will sit on imgur/r/gore for hours i think its because the drug is 94% fluoride its kind of like how when a sperm fusions with the egg its like nuclear fusion and the 2 atoms tie together into 1 and release energy and that is the mind being flooded with dopamine causing more manic behaviour

[fohkure]

naez plz stop posting

[Black Jesus]

1st amendment the constitution trumps rules of forum