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Originally Posted by susvain0362
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I dont know exactly why i still do it. But the first time i took pain pills was so i could fuck for 3hours straight. My friend told me how it was making him last for hours with his girl, and after you give a girl solid dick for hours you dont wanna go back to doing it sober and not be able to give her the same satisfaction. Then my group of best friends 3-4 of us all got introduced to the needle by my friend i made at college who was a normal good kid at the time who just took percs but was curious about needle. So we all did it and id do it once a month or so the first year (2010) and then come 2011 ita become more important [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]
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If you are on Subs then why do you need to do anything and get high? Be thankful that you have a doctor treating you and don't abuse it as you will be regretting it when you get kicked off. I can't stand it because it's so hard to see a doctor for help like that and there could be many people trying to see them that actually want help and wont be getting high during the week while seeing treatment. You need to not be hanging out with that person because they ARE NOT your true friend if they know you are in treatment and still giving you drugs.
It's a tough road and it sucks having to ditch some people, but one of the first steps you need to make is get rid of all bad influences and only keep true friends around that actually care about your progress and want to see you go places. And anyways it's such a pain in the ass to use drugs while on Subs as you need to go without for at the very least 24 hours or so in order to feel any effects of anything else and you have to be sick again in order to start taking the medication. Is all that worth it in itself for a half way high?
But anyways, I always get screwed over for trying to help people as it's useless until they first want to help themselves. I am pretty over going out of my way to do shit for people, but I will still offer advice. And yeah it is very frustrating because people don't understand what it's like struggling with addiction and drug dependence and you really have to have gone through it to really understand it. It's frustrating when people are like, "come on dude why don't you just stop, it's so stupid." etc etc
I hope the best and hope you come to terms with the things you need to do to stay clean. It's worth it man. You need to move out of this whole drug centered life. Be strong and grab life by the balls and make it your bitch. You got this.
Sorry for the long winded reply, but I wanted to show some support for a brotha.