Why does God want me on anti-psychotics?

[SorenVC]

I tried 4 times to get rid of Olanzapine/Zyprexa cold-turkey and one time with slow taper and it just doesn't work. I will have to be on them for life like my therapist suggested when I asked her how to get rid of them. I just can not sleep without them anymore and it never gets better. And while I'm on them I'm not sure what it does to me but I feel slow and tired. Who cares I guess. Big pharma doesn't. I guess I'll have to take these damn pills and be content. I wonder why God put me on this drug. What was the reason for that...