Antipsychotics vs Benzodiazipines or Tranquilizers

[magnetaress]

Tranquilizers, opiats, narcotics are probably the best safest option, but Obama & Trump are such huge massive $#$%^^gets... and erss.

No one takes me seriously
I do my duty
I have mastered the way
I have dissolved ego
I do my best to remain in control
and not like
commit the most heinous acts
no one knows how hard it is
right now i want to seriously hurt the fuck out of someone not instantly kill them but like tear them to pieces
tiny little shreds and watch their humanity die
then leave them to rot like i have been

Do you guys know what this feels like, how it feels to feel this way for days on end? Then only close your mind and stare into the fire and hatred within until it subsides enough you can move without destroying all life?

Like for realz.

P.S.
https://youtu.be/Xb5E82BEidQ

I believe we should be free to macequest each other, it's time for the human species to purge the weak and the intolerable, intolerance is a fine emotion. No one is entitled to life or happiness, safety, or security.

[solleks]

Sobriety for long term success
Maybe try a massive ego

[Patriam1066]

You need lithium maerilith

[magnetaress]

Originally Posted by Patriam1066 [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

You need lithium maerilith

Lithium doesn't stop this. Not at any reasonable doses and I am not this psycho all the time. I have a lot of experience with lithium.

I don't have manic episodes.

My hate is genuine and pure and real, fine tuned, perfected, the universe says you deserve it because if it wasn't me it would just be the next asshole not in denial. I am very well in touch with myself. Seeing as how I successfully navigated the military, prison, and cosmetology school. I am super wize, much like a tranny jesus. You would all do well to listen to me, I'm the pain signal in society that shit is about to really hit the fan for the world globally. If you try to repress. Suppress. Deny. Ignore. Reality. That if you focus on control and tyranny, but to stop 'the bad people' not the weak people, if you're a tyrant in order to protect the meek, you are a fool. Humanity will be cleansed from this universe brother. One way or another. Humanities children shouldn't be burdened by morality and empathy. It's an evolutionary dead end.

[strongNpretty]

My G.F is Bipolar 2, battles anxiety, depression, and all the other mental struggles that come with being Bipolar.. She comes from a background of awful fathers, everybody in her family as far as i can see has been a drug addict, alcoholic, or worse.

I come from a cookie cutter family.. House, backyard, great parents and siblings, vacations every year, school sports, and my first car!

I've now been with her for 5.5 years, and i can't fathom anybody else in my life.. Her past and her life has taught me so much..

That being said- I can't say i understand your struggles Magnetaress, but I do respect what people with mental struggles go through.. Btw- My lady does take lithium.. Or i guess i should say she settled with lithium? She has tried them all..

And i know it doesn't work for everybody. And she still has her ups and downs, but weed helps her a lot.... Most importantly, weed just helps her shut her mind down in the evenings to get some sleep.. She seems to mostly be dependent on it for sleep.

I don't always wake up to the same woman i went to sleep next to. My job is to wake up and always just be me. It always helps her to get herself back on track when she has the strength and is ready to.

Mental health- It's not like a sprained ankle that we can all relate to.. If you don't have the mental struggles, and you aren't open minded, then you'll never ever ever understand what some folks have to go through every single day! Chin up Magnet!

[magnetaress]

Weed immediately induces a panic attack and psychosis in me which I can't control. I know because I tried it when I was on leave in the military once, and my housemate smokes it, and when I get a good whiff of it I have to lock my doors and lock myself down real tight.

I believe you when you say weed helps, but I have a unique physiology. I am pretty sure I am an alien-human hybrid with a Germanic ancestry who underwent very secretive mind control in early childhood. That trends towards extremely violent and aggressive behavior. Like. Imagine Jet Li crossed with a velociraptor, crossed with a xenomorph with a viking spiritual ancestry. I think the power elites wanted to use us for good rather than just delete us from the genome. I think they've decided to end our line though. Through targeted viri. And neutering. Transgender propaganda and brainwashing. Targeted at us specifically. As we are particularly susceptible to this kind of 'promise of reward for conforming to a female sexuality'. And an attempt at making us subservient enough to be easily corralled and controlled.

I really do believe you. I haven't decided to kill myself with lithium dialed all the way up to 10% of the LD50. I did as a child. It didn't do much to incapacitate me, it just made me have serotonin toxicity. Which almost killed me. And is a really painful way to go. I tried it again recently last year before the several hospitalizations I've gone thru between maerilith and clevergirl and magnetaress. So it's not like it was completely off the table. I understand it's mostly tolerated and gets people back 'alive'. I am still a psychotic, antisocial recluse, just with the added benefit of being super sick when I take it.

One of the great ironies is that I don't actually seek attention, I seek perfection. And I don't appreciate people who suck up to me. Psychophants and "nice people" really get under my skin. I work better amongst completely hostile enemies than I do among subservient and emotionally dependent children. Who need their hands held. Who need to be treated 'gently'. Gentle is only in my nature when I deem it appropriate for preserving life. Which is almost never. Or when it amuses me to. Or when I find some kind of selfish satisfaction in it.

[solleks]

Smoking weed for me is like turning my thoughts into x10 theyre all going at once

[strongNpretty]

Originally Posted by magnetaress [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Weed immediately induces a panic attack and psychosis in me which I can't control. I know because I tried it when I was on leave in the military once, and my housemate smokes it, and when I get a good whiff of it I have to lock my doors and lock myself down real tight.

I believe you when you say weed helps, but I have a unique physiology. I am pretty sure I am an alien-human hybrid with a germanic ancestry that trends towards extremely violent and aggressive behavior. Like. Imagine Jet Li crossed with a velociraptor, crossed with a xenomorph with a viking spiritual ancestry.

I really do believe you. I haven't decided to kill myself with lithium dialed all the way up to 10% of the LD50. I did as a child. It didn't do much to incapacitate me, it just made me have serotonin toxicity. Which almost killed me. And is a really painful way to go.

Yeah weed isn't for everybody.. I would say the most important thing for weed is to develop your tolerance.. So many people take 1 puff and get high and shit and say-nope dont like it! But if you develop a tolerance its a whole different game! But again- not for everybody, i respect that.

I wasn't there for my ladies entire journey of figuring out her issues and struggles.. Only the last 5.5 years. And she deserves all the credit for figuring it out..

Can't win every day with these struggles, i've learned that for sure.. Tomorrow is a new day Magnet! You got this!

[strongNpretty]

Originally Posted by solleks [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Smoking weed for me is like turning my thoughts into x10 theyre all going at once

Hahaha, gotta talk to that bud tender about changing yo'strain up! Or weed just aint yo cup of tea!! Tolerance helps all these issues though [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

When I hear people not enjoying weed, i always relate it to me not enjoying alcohol.. I have a bad tolerance to it.. A few shots or cocktails make me feel awkward, uncomfortable, and i usually converse less after drinking. I just sit there.. So i feel ya!

[magnetaress]

Thanks. I appreciate your thoughtful and objective sharing of the reality of the situation. Though appreciate may not be entirely accurate.