You told me to seek help. I have.

[magnetaress]

I am still seeking help.

I thought I found God. I am not a believer though. I use faith like a tool. It isn't superstition. I know some scripture and I follow it. I have faith in this faith and the intent and guidance of the word.

I can't get enough of this game. Whether it be blue, red, or takp. Or even live. I got my heart set on a final sprint to GoD on Aradune as well. Maybe I can rest peacefully afterwards.

To digress feels selfish. And I don't understand this emotion or EQs hold on my consciousness? As barely as it is there...?

How do others feel? I feel like I am already dead and I fell, but I am told "she's sent to us for a reason". I don't know if it's the angels or the devils who have received my soul. I feel like God wants my love, he would never demand or force it though. Satan will trade and promise favors. Sometimes I feel like I can spot the angels and devils.

What I do know is that this game and I. We are here for a reason. Even if we are already just dying memories and dreams in a child's suffering mind.

[Bodybagger]

That sounds like a thrilling journey and I wish I had the playtime to join you and relive that experience one last time myself, unfortunately I have responsibilities and barely the time to enjoy an overpop green server these days lol

You should do it, and make a youtube channel or something for folks to follow along as a veteran goes from day 1 to GoD content. I'd check it out.

[Jauna]

So this is what its like on the other side of the fence. Not reading, just recognizing the name and moving the fuck on until the next post.

Sorry everyone for the past 7 or 8 years, wont happen again.

Until I get drunk and get into p99 again anyways

[Sethius Marlowe]

I’m just curious what kind of drugs you’re doing?

[magnetaress]

I’m just curious what kind of drugs you’re doing?

This is what happens when I get super clean and shut off any and all exogenous chemicals from entering my blood stream.
.
Recently it's been ensure. Bran. And 4mg of [redacted]. Tbh I don't believe everything should be privy.

[sydbarrett25]

Move this to off-topic and try out some SSRIs, go see a doctor/telehealth during this pandemic . It will do wonders for you.

[Baler]

I’m just curious what kind of drugs you’re doing?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=73&v=a8pG2RNoBfM

[magnetaress]

I got a drawer full of different SSRIs to pick and choose from.

I don't endorse drug use or abuse. It's always better to weave in as many nonpharmacalogic options as possible, simultaneously. Along with healthy eating. Spiritual and intellectual growth. Acceptance. Gratitude and love. For all of God's creation.

[magnetaress]

One thing SSRIs can do for me is to allow me to stay up and put long sleepless hours in front of EQ. I never thought of it this way.

I have pretty severe PTSD and anxiety disorder which the SSRIs do not jive with. I should probably acknowledge that I need to be able to face those issues rather than just ameliorating myself with heavy sedation.

[solleks]

God makes the path of challenges and learning , satan will hold your hand and take u to where masterbating netflix watching catwalkers live

[solleks]

From what i can tell

[magnetaress]

I guess this is not really a rant or flame. I feel it is an EQ topic. I have a particular end point in mind with Aradune. However there is no set path for the journey.

I will say this. I feel lost. I have a vision of the end. I don't know how to get there. Murder, is sin whether it is ourselves or another. I am beginning to believe harming NPCs in persuit of a dream, while not obviously murder, it feels like a little death, like rage. Like thinking of killing. It's still harmful.

That said. I love EQ. It's wear my mind and heart dwell. It's my chosen world. Therefore it really isn't God's world, though it is born of our minds, or beliefs, our hopes, in this way, even the temple of the Lord exists within EQ.

[magnetaress]

God makes the path of challenges and learning , satan will hold your hand and take u to where masterbating netflix watching catwalkers live

From what i can tell

I see. I will definitely contemplate this.

[magnetaress]

Thank you for your serious consideration.

[solleks]

I men aradune is going to have to kill stuff, maybe stick to annimals

[Woke Locc]

I looked through some memes to help you and the consensus was you need pickles.

https://i.imgur.com/rsTpxPT.jpg

I don't know why. But if that's what the experts say, c'est la vie.

[Jimjam]

Gates
Of
Discord

[sydbarrett25]

Cool, dont really know what this thread is about, but good for you. I would play Aradune if I had the time. Play some holy class or only level off of undead and evil gods. Go spread the righteous deity and curse all who praise the evil in Norrath.

[jackd104]

Seek help, my friend. And whatever you do, seek it not here.

[Phaezed-Reality]

Lol. A 9 to 5 will do wonders. Gl pal

[Secrets]

Bob Saget is God. (http://web.archive.org/web/20060204105153/http://www.bobsagetisgod.com/)

[magnetaress]

Bob Saget is God. (http://web.archive.org/web/20060204105153/http://www.bobsagetisgod.com/)

https://i.imgur.com/HzRK4xw.gif

[Yumyums Inmahtumtums]

how do you square your mental health improvements with the fact that you’re still the same attention-seeking tranny that’s been flooding these forums with useless posts for the last 8 years? so much so that no one even needs to look up who you are they just know you’re maerilth

[magnetaress]

how do you square your mental health improvements with the fact that you’re still the same attention-seeking tranny that’s been flooding these forums with useless posts for the last 8 years? so much so that no one even needs to look up who you are they just know you’re maerilth

Where did I claim I was mentally sane or sound? Or even superior?

https://i.imgur.com/Bh6NIhj.gif

No where.

Jesus suffered on the cross, and it wasn't fun my friend. Contemplate that for a minute.

But in the end, I can still smile and laugh. I am not Jesus, though I have had others accuse me of it. I am but a lost soul, who is still journeying towards their destination and contemplating their own divinity.

Please feel free to judge, but I want you to know what you speak is and feel is not the truth. It is but a response to the truth, the mirror to which you are not willing to reflect. ;)

[shuklak]

To be, or not to be [a rogue].

[Evets]

I’m just curious what kind of drugs you’re doing?

LOL

[magnetaress]

To be fair the drugs I am on were legally proscribed to me by doctors with a similar belief structure and are legally provided by the sweet ass government and military industrial complex of the US of A, doing gods werkz.