.357 Magnum Ammo

[abacab-godking2]

which is the best ammo to use to kill yourself with a 357 S&W Magnum?

just curious if there is a better bullet to use that will get the job done if shooting yourself in the temple. I assume its best to shoot yourself in the temple right? don't want to shoot myself through the mouth and end up having the bullet simply turn me into a vegetable.

figured this would be the best forum to post this in because I know no one here cares about anyone but themselves and will be dismissed as "trolling"

my forum question is ignored and gives responses of people trying to help me while avoiding my genuine question on all other forums I have posted this on like random guns and ammo forums.

one of you has to be some redneck hillbilly with ammunition knowledge

[abacab-godking2]

oh and can you order the bullets online or do I have to go down to academy or something. is in the great state of texas which I don't think has ammunition shipping laws as long as its like ups ground or something.

recommend a good website please

[Aaron]

Use a .22 caliber.

The bullet likely won't pass through the skull and will instead ricochet inside the skull, causing more damage.

[this user was banned]

oh, I don't know, maybe 357 caliber ammo?

seriously though you could even put 38 cal in that for extra mess, but it doesn't fucking matter because you are shooting from point blank...

have a nice funeral, you won't be missed

[abacab-godking2]

can you be more specific?

[Cecily]

figured this would be the best forum to post this in because I know no one here cares about anyone but themselves and will be dismissed as "trolling"

I really hope you are. But if you're not, you probably have a super good reason for it right? Life can suck pretty bad, but you're just making it that much worse for the people around you if you off yourself. I got to listen a cop telling my mother they thought I was dead one night, while I was hiding in the bathroom. You think whatever pain you're going is bad, you should have heard my mother crying. Don't be an asshole.

[Malice_Mizer]

Odin frowns upon such a dishonorable death.

[abacab-godking2]

thisuserwasbanned is correct, I won't be missed.

there are so many types of bullets though for the .357 and .38 I mean like I can't figure out the difference and I've heard people shooting themselves in the head and living frequently with like blindness and being paralyzed.

i'd just rather order online than take a bus to academy sports authority or something but almost every webpage I visit says 'sold out' of damn near every bullet.

[Malice_Mizer]

Yeah, my friend shot himself in the head on accident when I was in high school.

He apparently stayed alive for about half an hour afterward screaming and eventually died a painful, horrible death.

[Vineyea]

What are you going to do when a necro summons you back? You can't escape damnation-- it's cosmic justice.

[r00t]

any caliber hollow point will liquify your brain, fmj will go straight through and you might end up a droolcup, bird shot if you want a messy clean up. make sure you do it outside or something

dont do it tho obv br o

[Lojik]

Odin frowns upon such a dishonorable death.

Are you talking about a person named Odin or the Norse god? Suicide was considered a shortcut to Valhalla. Odin even hanged himself.

[r00t]

I feel bad for helping you now, I thought it was the real Abacab trolling though not his proper vernacular

[Daldolma]

suicide is a mortal sin, pls save your soul

[Malice_Mizer]

Are you talking about a person named Odin or the Norse god? Suicide was considered a shortcut to Valhalla. Odin even hanged himself.

Huh?

Old or sick people would often kill themselves to try and trick Odin into thinking they died an honorable death on the battlefield. Odin chooses about half of the dead from a battlefield to join the Einherjar to fight alongside him during Ragnarok.

The honor and bravery and courage and fearlessness displayed during your time of death is what decides whether or not Odin chooses you. If you shoot yourself in the brain because you're depressed, that is not honorable, courageous, fearless, or brave. It's pathetic. It's a disdainful middle finger to your time on Earth and what it means.

And Odin hung himself on the World Tree for 9 days and threw his eye into Mimir's Well at the base of Yggdrasil after Baldur died as a sacrifice to himself in order to gain the knowledge of the Runes and see the future of himself the Aesir, respectively. That's how he learned of Ragnarok, his eventual death, and indeed the destruction of the current cosmic order.

[Vineyea]

Zombies are the ultimate creature of horror. The zombie is one who is recognized as once being human, once being the same kind of person we are and yet now they are in a state which is an expression of nature that we've all come to depriciate. Hunger. Hunger is the zombie's soul, it's a distilled spirit.

When a zombie looks at you, all that is looking is desire. That this reality is a potential for all of us is the true essence of horror.

[hatelore]

357 hornady +pp ammunition. But don't do it, you will regret it later.

[abacab-godking2]

so preferably I would need the hollow points? ok that helps - I just thought that was the opposite of full metal jackets since hollow points are the ones that go through bullet proof vests at close range? see very confusing

[hatelore]

I retract that post , Now I will feel very bad if you go off yourself with my suggestion. Just go rent a prostitute for an hour and drink a bunch of vodka, then end up on liveleak making a fool of yourself in the street. Its a lot more fun.

[abacab-godking2]

don't feel bad for helping me. u don't have any emotional investment in me nor does anyone else. just need to figure out this bullet thing before im homeless because then it will be harder to get a ammunition sent to my home

[hatelore]

Not confusing at all. full metal jacket is a lead bullet incased in steel. Hollow points are bullets that are designed to expand and fragment upon impact. The biggest difference between a fmj bullet and a hollowpoint is expansion. A fmj does not expand as well as a unjacketed hollowpoint. Yet at point blank range there is not as much expansion. +pp is personal protection ammunition that is grained higher then your standard target round. Each bullet has a certain amount of grain (gunpowder) , 170 grain , 240 grain etc. +pp ammo just has more gunpowder in it.

[hatelore]

All of this neat information could be found on wiki if you weren't so busy trolling, just saying. If you are serious, seek help. Life is short, and should be valued. We are very lucky creatures.

[r00t]

The majority of civilian ammo will be hollow point. This is so when Trayvon acts a fool it doesn't penetrate past his chest and go into someones house.

[hatelore]

Also, is your 357 by chance a python? Is the barrel interior in good condition with no pitting? Are the screws un-narled? Would you care to sell it if so? Just saying, I always wanted a nice python. or is it by chance a model 60? If so I want one of those too!

[r00t]

And all (most?) military ammo is fmj due to something dum with the Geneva convention. Our boys are literally just shooting pencil sized holes through the terrists

[hatelore]

I never did get that, "hey lets invade iraq and shoot terrorists with 9mm ammunition made for high velocity armor peircing, who cares if they usually just wear rags, this is one of those just in case kinda scenerios!" Instead of a nice 45 acp , slow flying hard hitting ammo such as your kimber 1911 would have. Can't beat a good 45 acp round in a pistol. That shits classic.

[Malice_Mizer]

Kind of like the roughly (conservative) 150,000 civilians we've murdered in Iraq since 2003.

For some reason, innocent men, women, and children don't wear body armor in the course of their daily lives.

[Vineyea]

I don't know why people memorize the shit they do. I heard a poem once though:

"The worldly hope men set their hearts upon turns ashes or it prospers; and anon like snow upon the deserts dusty face, lighting a little hour or two is gone."

[Malice_Mizer]

Not the mention hundreds of thousands further civilian deaths we've been directly responsible for by decimating their ability to provide basic water, electricity, and shelter.

Also: the fifteen-fold increase in cancer and birth defects among Iraqi children due to the United States testing all types of explosive devices on Iraqis -- thermobaric weapons, white phosphorus, depleted uranium...

Oh, and also the half a million people who died before the invasion because we placed such ridiculous sanctions on Iraq that the populace was unable to receive basic healthcare and other necessities.

But yeah. Terrorists. Freedom. Fuck yeah.

[r00t]

I never did get that, "hey lets invade iraq and shoot terrorists with 9mm ammunition made for high velocity armor peircing, who cares if they usually just wear rags, this is one of those just in case kinda scenerios!" Instead of a nice 45 acp , slow flying hard hitting ammo such as your kimber 1911 would have. Can't beat a good 45 acp round in a pistol. That shits classic.

Couldn't decide on a 1911 or AR build next, but you're helping me make a choice

[r00t]

Altho I was looking into the Beretta M9's too, but yea not a fan of 9mm

[Bodeanicus]

which is the best ammo to use to kill yourself with a 357 S&W Magnum?

just curious if there is a better bullet to use that will get the job done if shooting yourself in the temple. I assume its best to shoot yourself in the temple right? don't want to shoot myself through the mouth and end up having the bullet simply turn me into a vegetable.

figured this would be the best forum to post this in because I know no one here cares about anyone but themselves and will be dismissed as "trolling"

my forum question is ignored and gives responses of people trying to help me while avoiding my genuine question on all other forums I have posted this on like random guns and ammo forums.

one of you has to be some redneck hillbilly with ammunition knowledge

.357 Magnum ammo, you fucking moron. Or if you're cheap, .357's will fire .38 ammo.

[Bodeanicus]

Huh?

Old or sick people would often kill themselves to try and trick Odin into thinking they died an honorable death on the battlefield. Odin chooses about half of the dead from a battlefield to join the Einherjar to fight alongside him during Ragnarok.

The honor and bravery and courage and fearlessness displayed during your time of death is what decides whether or not Odin chooses you. If you shoot yourself in the brain because you're depressed, that is not honorable, courageous, fearless, or brave. It's pathetic. It's a disdainful middle finger to your time on Earth and what it means.

And Odin hung himself on the World Tree for 9 days and threw his eye into Mimir's Well at the base of Yggdrasil after Baldur died as a sacrifice to himself in order to gain the knowledge of the Runes and see the future of himself the Aesir, respectively. That's how he learned of Ragnarok, his eventual death, and indeed the destruction of the current cosmic order.

Odin also liked fuck himself in the ass with his spear, "Gungnir," which means "Warrior Faggot" in Old Norse. Valhalla was just a big bathhouse in the sky.

[r00t]

good ol' Smith & Wesson home security

[r00t]

.357, you're just gonna straight die you can't possibly fuck this up

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/2/23/Bullet_coming_from_S%26W.jpg/800px-Bullet_coming_from_S%26W.jpg

[Vineyea]

You make it sound like we have a choice.

[Malice_Mizer]

http://cdn.fd.uproxx.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/06/Gay-Thor.jpg

[hatelore]

Very true, 357 mag was an amazing invention for gun ammunition. Pretty much can't go wrong with it. And R00t , I would definitely go for 45 acp, its a tried and true round. But I will say, walther ppk's are fun guns, That's the james bond gun. Fits the hand perfectly , and 380 really isn't a bad round in +pp ammunition. I loved mine, still regret to this day selling it off. They are cheap guns too, can pick em up all day long for 300-400 usually.

[abacab-godking2]

thanks for help .357 hollow point it is. i'm going to be pissed if I shoot myself in the temple and live. i'm going to tell you about it and post pictures

and no life is not short and valuable and we are not luckiest creatures on earth. YOU may have a short life that you deem valuable but people with my type of life judge it is a long, grueling, cruel, punishment that never seems to end.

no I don't have a python its a s&w and it seems to be in good shape other than what looks to be specs of brown possible rust residing around the entire gun which is black... I think it might have once upon a time left outside for long periods... I wonder if it even works. i'll try to be a positive and peppy homeless person if I pull the trigger 6 times in the fully loaded rotating chamber and nothing happens.

like why the fuck would I want to value a short life while living on the streets having to beg for scraps and beat the crap out of thugs trying to beat the crap out of me. i'll just be thrown in jail to get the crap beat out of me some more just like the kid who make jokes on his facebook about schools who is getting beaten by black people just cuz

don't know how those homeless people do it and manage but fuck that

no love = no life

[abacab-godking2]

seriously nobody knows a good webpage to order ammunition? you all are only half useless so far

[abacab-godking2]

some other forum sent me this trying to cheer me up. like wtf? yeah I really want to live knowing a bunch of spoiled brat women get to live their life up because they were born into riches.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8EAgR3fQzSw

[Alawen]

Where you at, pal? I'd be happy to put two through your chest and one through your skull to make sure you depart in style. If I get caught, I'll just say that it's your gun and I felt that my life was in danger.

[Vineyea]

You're quite the dumb fuck, do you know that? you contemplate suicide against the possibility your life has no "real" meaning. What are you on about? You're not serious. You're a liar.

[Alawen]

I think the attempted troll is that he lost his job and is about to lose his apartment, not some cosmic existential crisis.

On the off chance this isn't the troll it obviously is, ask someone for some help. We all have setbacks in life. That's when you ask for help. Apply for food stamps, couch surf with friends and family for a while. It's summer. You're not going to die if you have to sleep in the park for a while. Make a plan and get your shit together.

Or shoot yourself, whatever.

[hatelore]

If i was ever homeless, I would get a pen and paper, make a demand letter, then rob a bank. At least then I would have some sort of chance I guess. har

[Malice_Mizer]

A bit jaded.

Some some good novels.

[Misto]

Why not just use a shotgun.

[Nastinate]

Use a tracer round.

[Vineyea]

Welcome to the bottom. And you know what? FUCK you p99! There are no rogues to help you here.

[Bodeanicus]

Why not just use a shotgun.

Bingo. Even a .410 will do the job.

But then again, he's just trolling for attention, isnt he.

[Daldolma]

good night sweet prince

[Gadwen]

Get about 200 feet of real nice sturdy rope, tie one end around your neck and the other end around something really stable, get into car and floor it.

[Vineyea]

Wilson! Wilson!

[Reapin]

Can I have your gear before you eat it? Thanks.

[Malice_Mizer]

If you've got the rope handy, pulling a full-Carradine might be the most fulfilling way to go.

[abacab-godking2]

I dun want attention. I could go to other forums that provide better attention but just come off as annoying because they are all like trying to help me. the comments here motivate me to buy my bullets.

I just don't want to end up as some paralyzed vegetable due to failed attempt

seriously every website says ammunition out of stock wtf. like everybody orders bullets online now days? why wtf. I have no means of transportation nor even a sturdy rope or cable to hang.

rich kids dunno what its like and that is what you all are, spoiled rich kids.

i'll scrounge up some money and look for hollow points at Wal-Mart or academy. don't worry my posts will soon end.

besides, what attention could possibly make any difference to one on this forum. the attention whores are all of you who continue to post on a daily basis about bullshit that doesn't mean anything and matters to no one. you don't see me making endless posts like kagotabs crying for attention with anime signatures that suggest pedophile natures.

get a clue kiddies - this is the real world where people have real problems that no one through the internet could possibly make a difference.

I found one website that sells ammunition and .357 magnum hollow points but when I register to order online they want me to send a fax of my freaking photo ID to them. wtf, as if I have a fucking fax machine.

seriously NO ONE has a website that I can simply order ammunition from?

i'm beginning to doubt any of you are the neckbeard rednecks that you all seem to portray. chances are you all are bunch of school children with no lives that have nothing better to do than to post on a forum that thankfully, in your opinion, doesn't banish you from the website due to sheer stupidity.

u all is dumb. that is a direct quote from Harrison. damn, burn. I won't miss any of you all more than you would miss me.

[Vineyea]

Nobody gives a fuck about reality. Welcome to the pale blue dot.

And, godking, if this thread is going to continue... if your inquiry into this that and the other of suicide is of particular interest to whatever the fuck it is you're doing, I'd suggest reading emile Durkheim. He wrote a book.. he titled it "suicide".

I think we've all grown up enough to understand the gravity of this discussion. It's not about your self. Rather by this time you've begun to understand that those impressions are universal-- despite the justice or injustice of your fate.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2J7wSuFRl8

[Barkingturtle]

Suicide by cop saves the cost of bullets and you get on the television.

Fuck man. Even during your final desperate act you are just a total fuck-up.

[Tiggles]

I used to work with an old lady who also worked for a suicide/biohazard cleaning company with her husband.

She said if you kill yourself you should do it in the shower so you dont fuck up your house/apartment for your loved ones

[Doors]

I'll miss you bro :(

[Tasslehofp99]

Just use a 12 gauge, go out like cobain.

[Tasslehofp99]

I used to work with an old lady who also worked for a suicide/biohazard cleaning company with her husband.

She said if you kill yourself you should do it in the shower so you dont fuck up your house/apartment for your loved ones

Yeah, do I in the shower.

And for those suggesting hanging, do you realize when you hang yourself...you still shit/piss all over the fucking place once you die?

[Sodapop]

i shit/piss all over the fucking place and I'm still alive.

[Vineyea]

Suicides have been described where the person is going about their business on a typical day, walking along, crossing a bridge, and then they jump.

Not exactly going 'nothing but net' from the three-point line.

[Reapin]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HG3UMb3uHe0

[Tiggles]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HG3UMb3uHe0

Jesus christ that was morbid.

How the fuck is that a documentary? it was just snuff.

[hatelore]

Documentary will really make you want to end it, sheesh thats a depressing piano.

[abacab-godking2]

finally found a place to order some bullets online. claims 3-5 day delivery but we'll see. only about 5-6 months till lease is terminated then i'll be relieving myself from this cosmic bullshit.

thanks again for hollow point suggestion

don't care about the "mess" just remove the body and replace the carpet. wow such a hard feat. no different then if your pet shit and pissed on the floor.

[Langrisser]

Use Helium/Nitrous ... very easy, effective, cheap, clean, etc...

Here ya go man, do it in the bathtub and before you do, send a letter in the mail stating what you have done. That way the body wont rot but you also will be done with your task before someone gets the letter.

http://www.peacefulpillhandbook.com/page/MakingtheExitBag

[Keykey]

Life is short.

It is, and it isn't. I'm sure this person has plenty of years left and I can assure you things will change. Nothing stays the same. That can be sad when things are going well, but it should also be comforting when things are crap. I can promise, it will change.

All you have to do is get through THIS day.

You're worrying. Live in the moment. If there is something you can do RIGHT NOW to make your life better, do it. If you can't, get through THIS day. Tomorrow might offer another opportunity. If you lose a place to stay, you'll figure it out when that happens. People do it all the time.

Get through THIS day.

[Clear]

only about 5-6 months till lease is terminated then i'll be relieving myself from this cosmic bullshit.

What are your reasons for not wanting to continue? If you have 5-6 months before you are homeless, what is stopping you from changing your job situation and/or develop a plan to avoid being homeless? Do you live in the US?

[Bodeanicus]

crazy website wow

What's crazy about it? If someone is an adult, and they want to go, who hell is anyone to say they can't? Some live aren't worth living. People say it's selfish to kill oneself. Is it not also selfish to force someone who doesn't want to live to live?

[abacab-godking2]

What are your reasons for not wanting to continue? If you have 5-6 months before you are homeless, what is stopping you from changing your job situation and/or develop a plan to avoid being homeless? Do you live in the US?

no money, no car, no help.

denied government housing for no clear reason other than because I do not have children to support I guess.

approved for food stamps but never got my card in mail and when I call human services they just connect me to some other 1-800 number that tells me I have to call human services and it gets no where after calling both numbers twice.

more applications than I can count I have filled out and no one calls

born into poor family of members that don't care about anyone but themselves

nothing really left and im surprised att hasn't cut off my internet yet because i haven't paid them in 2 months

couldn't pass military entrance exams because im too stupid i guess.

and i don't care to roam around the streets eating trash and getting beat up by random junkies and harassed by cops who don't care either.

doesn't matter anymore so no need to respond to this thread - just wanted advice on the ammunition for the gun my father left me after his heart killed him in mid 50's. what a lucky bastard

[Malice_Mizer]

How old are you?

[Peatree]

Hope your trolling cause suicide is not the answer. Never give up. You can change your situation, but once you kill your self you cannot change anything. Your time here is over and you could possibly end up some where else even worse.

You can find something, anything better than killing your self. Find a support group, find a fight club, find a church, find God...anything better than suicide.

[Vineyea]

Do me a favor and buy lottery tickets instead.

[Lyra]

Also, where do you live? There are cheap places to live.

I know people...so stupid - I don't know how they survive! BUT THEY DO!

Also, about the applications - I think there is help to learn how to fill these things out. The company I work for hired someone that lied on his application. Said he wasn't a felon, but he was. The company fired him. He sued. He won. I don't think I should say how much he got, but it certainly became worthwhile to lie on his application! My boss hired this "college graduate" sitting near me. After he offered the job, the company did the back ground check. No college degree. She tells him she's just one credit short and he hired her anyway.

You sound depressed, not that I am an expert. Since you probably don't have money to see anyone right now, I suggest exercise. Amazing what a regular physical workout can do for the body and the mind. I would also suggest Yoga. You could find information with google to start.

What's crazy about it? If someone is an adult, and they want to go, who hell is anyone to say they can't? Some live aren't worth living. People say it's selfish to kill oneself. Is it not also selfish to force someone who doesn't want to live to live?

Mostly, when people have these thoughts it's because they are sick.

I want to help sick people. I realize not everyone wants to help sick people. For me, it's a natural instinct. A natural instinct, just like it was to care for my children when they were born.

If there is a sick person that can not be cured, I would be in favor of assisted suicide - if it were legal. Our society has not accepted assisted suicide yet, and I do believe in following the rules of society.

Sick people may believe there is no cure, but that is part of the sickness.

Schizophrenia
Drug Addiction
Bipolar

Sometimes these diagnosis' take years to mediate properly. Even if you suffer 20 years, that's only a quarter of the average lifetime.

[Lyra]

Sometimes these diagnosis' take years to medciate properly. Even if you suffer 20 years, that's only a quarter of the average lifetime.

[Malice_Mizer]

You have to create reasons to live for yourself. Everybody does. Find a big idea, a philosophy, a big goal, a hope, or anything else to justify moving forward.

If you don't kill yourself, I guarantee you'll look back on this time and thank everything that you didn't do it. When you have a significant other, or when you have a child, or when you belong to a group of peers or feel connected to something real and meaningful, you'll realize that it is worth living.

Especially killing yourself for totally material and temporary reasons is no reason to die. All things are impermanent. You will eventually be dead-- that is the contract you entered into. Don't rush to fulfill your end of the bargain because of temporal despair. I'm not going to get into every reason why existence is a wholly magnificent and awe-inspiring thing, but know that in the grand scheme of all-encompassing, unconditional reality, you are lucky. You will be lucky in your life. And when you die, that'll be lucky, too.

I don't care if you're trolling or not, although I'm almost certain that you are in fact trolling. I've dealt with more friends and family committing suicide than I'd have cared to. Don't take things for granted. Things could always be worse-- and to be sure, people around the world have it much, much worse than you if your only real concerns are material.

[Daldolma]

let tiggles broadcast it

[this user was banned]

Suggestions for you:
1. go to jail, you will get food and housing
2. sell what you have left and walk across America, publicise it
3. check with your local church for help

What did you do for work before, what level of education do you have, and where do you live?

[Novoselic]

Be a man. Shoot some dope and use a shotgun, go out like kurt.

[Clear]

no money, no car, no help.

denied government housing for no clear reason other than because I do not have children to support I guess.

Can you work?


approved for food stamps but never got my card in mail and when I call human services they just connect me to some other 1-800 number that tells me I have to call human services and it gets no where after calling both numbers twice.

more applications than I can count I have filled out and no one calls



One thing you have to realize is that when you're dealing with government offices, you are dealing with some of the worst employees ever. Don't waste your time when you call to inquire about these things - immediately request a supervisor and take down the name of each person you speak with as soon as they answer - "Hello, what was your name again?". It may be really annoying for the first month or so to get the food stamps but once you get in their system, it won't require as much effort anymore.



born into poor family of members that don't care about anyone but themselves

couldn't pass military entrance exams because im too stupid i guess.



Have you tried to get into the National Guard? I'm pretty sure you can meet a recruiter who will be more than happy to help you get in - and you get the G.I. BILL too. Oh, and if/when AT&T decides to cut off your internet - don't let it crush your goals... go to the public library or friends' houses to use the internet. There is a way out of this - it just requires your dedication.

[Raavak]

Pretty much any church will help you. You don't have to believe or be a member or whatever. Just walk in the office and ask if they can help with money or food.

[Bodeanicus]

Be a man. Shoot some dope and use a shotgun, go out like kurt.

Or shoot a lot of dope, and you won't need the shotgun.

[Cecily]

^ That's actually my current escape plan.

[Cecily]

Nothing better planned for today. Where would you like to meet?

[Bodeanicus]

^ That's actually my current escape plan.

Or get your hands on some Nembutal. Drink the whole ampule, chase it with the alcoholic drink of your choice, and you're gone.

[this user was banned]

I just spoke with the OP, he's already dead. Stop posting here.

[Bodeanicus]

I just spoke with the OP, he's already dead. Stop posting here.

How did you speak to him if he's dead?

[Reapin]

Nothing better planned for today. Where would you like to meet?

Don't do it Cecily he will rape your corpse.

[r00t]

dont blow your fucking head off

[Malice_Mizer]

The FL / AL state line is like stepping from a third world country into a slightly less depressing third world country.

[abacab-godking2]

sweet my bullets came and my internet connection is still on. I am thinking about doing it in a public place so it will be all over the media

[r00t]

reporting you to dhs

[radditsu]

Al,FL stateline do it on the ocean

Dude, dont kill yourself at the flora/bama... I drink at that crappy bar sometimes. Stop ruining my life.

[taysk8]

Sick fucks

[Waedawen]

Welp, I'll have fond memories of the Cab.

Hope you don't do it

not to say "you have no balls" but I've definitely seen and befriended lots of people much more worse off than you and perfectly happy with a life without responsibility.


Go and walk before you shoot yourself. Not around the block, off into the distance. Leave and never come back to where you started. Then see if you still want to do it.

Faggot.

[Waedawen]

That was supposed to be "Faggot. Now I can't ever change my signature."

[Sidelle]

You people who are encouraging him to do it are all assholes. Even if this wasn't for real it would be a cry for help. Are you above actually caring about someone who is so distraught he is actively making plans to shoot himself? Stop being such uncaring buttholes.

I am surprised at some of you bleeding heart types who post here regularly. Don't you live for this shit? Why help him pull the trigger?

[r00t]

I reported him to dhs after he said he was gonna shoot himself in public

[r00t]

and by dhs I mean rogean #lazy I saw somethin said somethin u dig stasi snitch cuture

[abacab-godking2]

Scientist say death is like the powering off of a computer.

Some say it will be a heaven or hell depending on how and what you did with your time.

Others suggest death will be exactly what the individual strongly thinks it is. If you think it's heaven or hell it will be either heaven or hell. If you think it is the end of everything that you ever perceived it will simply be the end which brings us back to scientific perception of the shutting down of a computer.

Those that have come back from heart attacks simply say the light bulb is on and then suddenly it is simply off. Others claim outer body experiences such as watching yourself leave your body.

The most comforting I have researched would be the suggestion that death is nothing more than a waking from a dream itself. Just like the dreams we awake from when we sleep slip into the backs of our minds with no mind to them at all as if it were nothing worth remembering. A perception that, in death, we will simply wake from our dream (life itself) into another plane or reality and think nothing more of our actual current physical lives as just another dream as when we sleep, dream, and awake again.

This brings me to the thought that perhaps as incredible as lucid and surreal our dreams can be as we live our current physical lives; we can change, mold, and sculpt our physical realities just as easily as those lucid and surreal dreams that we have when we sleep. Sometimes we do not realize we are dreaming when we sleep and have no control over them as they make no sense. Sometimes we realize we are dreaming and we can do whatever we wish in those dreams.

However, science has seemed to come to the conclusion that dreams are nothing more than how our memories work in order to make those memories and experiences stick. Just like playing a video game for the first time, one would be very bad at it struggling to create the muscle memory of the hand eye coordination. Only until one sleeps and lets their brains do the dreaming memory dance would we wake, play the game again, and become better than we first were as if one would never increase in experience if they never slept. And that brings me to the conclusion that death may not be much more than the shutting down of a computer while every other possibility is nothing more than a pipe dream.

Yet, there is so much we do not understand about memory and have yet to harness into our physical world which still leads to the possibility of those pipe dreams.

[Sidelle]

Scientist say death is like the powering off of a computer.

Some say it will be a heaven or hell depending on how and what you did with your time.

Others suggest death will be exactly what the individual strongly thinks it is. If you think it's heaven or hell it will be either heaven or hell. If you think it is the end of everything that you ever perceived it will simply be the end which brings us back to scientific perception of the shutting down of a computer.

Those that have come back from heart attacks simply say the light bulb is on and then suddenly it is simply off. Others claim outer body experiences such as watching yourself leave your body.

The most comforting I have researched would be the suggestion that death is nothing more than a waking from a dream itself. Just like the dreams we awake from when we sleep slip into the backs of our minds with no mind to them at all as if it were nothing worth remembering. A perception that, in death, we will simply wake from our dream (life itself) into another plane or reality and think nothing more of our actual current physical lives as just another dream as when we sleep, dream, and awake again.

This brings me to the thought that perhaps as incredible as lucid and surreal our dreams can be as we live our current physical lives; we can change, mold, and sculpt our physical realities just as easily as those lucid and surreal dreams that we have when we sleep. Sometimes we do not realize we are dreaming when we sleep and have no control over them as they make no sense. Sometimes we realize we are dreaming and we can do whatever we wish in those dreams.

However, science has seemed to come to the conclusion that dreams are nothing more than how our memories work in order to make those memories and experiences stick. Just like playing a video game for the first time, one would be very bad at it struggling to create the muscle memory of the hand eye coordination. Only until one sleeps and lets their brains do the dreaming memory dance would we wake, play the game again, and become better than we first were as if one would never increase in experience if they never slept. And that brings me to the conclusion that death may not be much more than the shutting down of a computer while every other possibility is nothing more than a pipe dream.

Yet, there is so much we do not understand about memory and have yet to harness into our physical world which still leads to the possibility of those pipe dreams.

Obviously I don't know what exactly happens when we die. I am definitely not a religious person who believes in the biblical versions of heaven and hell, but I do think there is some kind of afterlife. If anything, maybe we are already in hell i.e. this place called earth where so many horrible things happen that it's traumatizing just to know about it all. Maybe we need to work our way through it so we can leave this hell on earth and go somewhere better that really is forever.

What if our souls have to keep coming back here to this earthly plane until we evolve spiritually? Maybe you can't move on until you have learned the lessons you're supposed to learn here. So if you decide to opt out without working your way through these things you are destined to come back and do it all over again.

That would really suck.

That is all just a theory, though. I really wonder what the truth is. I wouldn't want to find out the hard way and have to come back to this shithole called earth

[Vineyea]

I don't know how this thread got started, but I have something to say about life and death. When you live, you live now... you're alive NOW. And your death? That is eternal. Many people have told me that there is a Messiah, a God man, one who has saved humanity from their sins so that they may inherit eternal life and be witnesses to a beatific vision. What such a thing is I can't say.

Listen though. What we know is that there is, in the very constitution of reality itself, a life, awareness, a being that thinks, feels, contemplates. You may die, yes, but there's something going on here and I hope you appreciate that before your time is come.

[Daldolma]

pls give yourself to the church

[Vineyea]

fuck you and the horse you rode in on

[Sidelle]

Or maybe we're just an alien science project and any day now they're gonna swoop in and wipe us all out because human beings in general are the assholes of the universe.

[RestoreThis]

ITT - dude not listening to valid advice obv just wants attention

[Clear]

Scientist say death is like the powering off of a computer.

Some say it will be a heaven or hell depending on how and what you did with your time.

Others suggest death will be exactly what the individual strongly thinks it is. If you think it's heaven or hell it will be either heaven or hell. If you think it is the end of everything that you ever perceived it will simply be the end which brings us back to scientific perception of the shutting down of a computer.

Those that have come back from heart attacks simply say the light bulb is on and then suddenly it is simply off. Others claim outer body experiences such as watching yourself leave your body.

The most comforting I have researched would be the suggestion that death is nothing more than a waking from a dream itself. Just like the dreams we awake from when we sleep slip into the backs of our minds with no mind to them at all as if it were nothing worth remembering. A perception that, in death, we will simply wake from our dream (life itself) into another plane or reality and think nothing more of our actual current physical lives as just another dream as when we sleep, dream, and awake again.

This brings me to the thought that perhaps as incredible as lucid and surreal our dreams can be as we live our current physical lives; we can change, mold, and sculpt our physical realities just as easily as those lucid and surreal dreams that we have when we sleep. Sometimes we do not realize we are dreaming when we sleep and have no control over them as they make no sense. Sometimes we realize we are dreaming and we can do whatever we wish in those dreams.

However, science has seemed to come to the conclusion that dreams are nothing more than how our memories work in order to make those memories and experiences stick. Just like playing a video game for the first time, one would be very bad at it struggling to create the muscle memory of the hand eye coordination. Only until one sleeps and lets their brains do the dreaming memory dance would we wake, play the game again, and become better than we first were as if one would never increase in experience if they never slept. And that brings me to the conclusion that death may not be much more than the shutting down of a computer while every other possibility is nothing more than a pipe dream.

Yet, there is so much we do not understand about memory and have yet to harness into our physical world which still leads to the possibility of those pipe dreams.

I care about you! Did you contact any of the sources we have listed for you? PM me for my AIM name & phone number.

[aowen]

We'll have an open casket funeral to make sure you're dead

[abacab-godking2]

I remember my first memories being incredibly young and in the dark as I must have been shortly before put down to bed with the lights out. I must have been sitting up in my bed staring through the dark at the light that was peering through the bottom of the closed bedroom door. Walking through the house to the basement where parents were talking amongst each other with another visiting family member asking me "what are you doing up?"

A couple other memories at a very young age that stuck around probably because it was traumatic since I was throwing up in the living room from eating cookies I believe. Or at least that's what I tasted. Mother not believing I could actually remember those things since I was incredibly young as well as remembering the man with the eye patch that ended up being a visiting uncle with an eye patch. Tried to convince me someone told me those stories and that's why I was repeating them, but I remember those memories as I search for the earliest.

I am beginning to think after death this is exactly what happens. The energy that is 'us' simply searches or ends up in another vessel that may be a human being more than likely. Perhaps instantaneously being filled and thrown into another 'empty' vessel that would be an incredibly young child all over again. A theory that actually sounds pretty scary in itself because this filling of a 'vessel' could be completely random as most things tend to be in this universe. I could very well wake up just like I did in my earliest memories as an incredibly young child born into some random family.

This is a scary thought considering it could be any incredibly young child simply anywhere in the entire world that we live in. Maybe a child in a 3rd world country that is going to live the life of poverty and/or abuse throughout childhood. Then again the energy that is 'me' could fit the vessel of an incredibly rich and wealthy family that actually lives a good and decent life without having to be a slave for it. This existence could very well be a constant reincarnation that happens over and over in the 'intelligent life' that we call humans on planet earth.

I suppose it comes down to willing to live through the misery I am constantly in now only to hope and wish it gets better or be done with everything with the simple pull of a trigger and risk the complete randomness that is only to do it all over again.

Even when planet earth is gone and destroyed by whatever means that accomplishes such a thing there very well might be another 'earth' somewhere else with intelligent life that is born again and again. Maybe it is only one life on this planet earth considering the 'in between' could be an absurd amount of time of years or decades or very well be an incredibly short amount of time that tosses the energy that is us into 'vessels' in a matter of seconds.

A scary thought to ponder as maybe there is another 'planet earth' out there with 'intelligent self awareness' that has a whole different set of emotions and feelings. Emotions that could be arched in one direction that is pure pain, torcher, and misery that is presently considered evil or veered off into the other direction in a dramatic sense that is pure love, happiness, and ecstasy that we consider good.

I have always figured that life would not be possible without love. Love which basically creates other beings as sex is considered 'love.' In reality it would be difficult for me to perform the sexual experience if I completely hated and loathed the person I was trying to penetrate. Then again, it could be complete and utter bull that it takes such love at all to do such a thing. We must consider however how 'mothers' are conditioned to unconditionally love their young and defend them with great ferocity just like in the animal kingdom.

And that brings me back to the whole reason I seek a way out as I do not find what is known as 'love' anywhere in my life. All the good I figured I have done for myself and others should have created the attraction that brings it all back in a full circle as some think this universe abides by only one rule which is the 'law of attraction.' Perhaps I have not done enough 'good' to attract exactly what I desire which is 'love' and more 'good' for myself. Maybe the talk of the 'law of attraction' is another pipe dream of our daily realities as the general quantum mechanics suggest complete and utter chaos in the molecular world. But even those molecules tend to follow a set of rules that they abide by.

Without love what is the point, right? Without that happiness of friendships and fun in our everyday lives, what is the reason to continue?

If you work for a living, why kill yourself working? Boy, have I worked hard and been damn good at it for dead end places that end up going out of business or not even caring about their employees in the least. Can't convince me anymore that hard work gets you anywhere but straight to the point of killing yourself working. Life is known not to be fair, but if we all stopped accepting that perhaps it could be very fair.

The closer I get to the end, the more I desire to help others. But we are always told that you cannot help others if you cannot help yourself. I am physically fit and willing to continue to work hard for myself, but 'life is not fair.' I do not see any other way in regards of hope. What could I possibly desire at this point in my life other than to hope and wish some rich folk in the world to spare a consideration and give me some sort of chance. Even in the scientific world, the spot that is designated for hope in our human brains is the size of your average thumbnail. That's not a lot of hope, is it?

I can say I love you all and that is no joke. At least it feels a lot better than saying, "I hate you all." Even typing the hate portion creates that uneasy feeling.

[Clear]

A couple other memories at a very young age that stuck around probably because it was traumatic since I was throwing up in the living room from eating cookies I believe.

I have the same memory but with sweet pickles! I threw them up all over my grandma's couch and carpeted floor after eating about 15 of them back to back.

The closer I get to the end, the more I desire to help others. But we are always told that you cannot help others if you cannot help yourself. I am physically fit and willing to continue to work hard for myself, but 'life is not fair.'

There are COUNTLESS people who will be touched by you in your lifetime... so many of these people need a part of you and I think you kind of understand that on some level. Yes, you should help yourself before you help others but that doesn't mean you can't help someone in your current state. You are needed.

I can say I love you all and that is no joke.

I love you too, good sir. I say again - please check your local resources. Places like United Way and The Salvation Army have offices that will sit you down with a counselor that will work out a financial plan, help you find a job, and even get you into a really nice house for a ridiculously low price. These places will also outright give you money to help you. In addition to those social care places - you can also go to local churches and be honest with them about your situation. People love you too and we are willing to help. PM me your zip code and I will respond with all the numbers you need. :)

[mike90]

Feel bad for you feel free to send me a pm if you like. Been depressed and suicidal many times before in life and had to drag myself out. People do care! Don't give up!

[Bodeanicus]

I thought you found someone to sell you bullets.

[abacab-godking2]

so I thought about telling my story to a charity that specializes in suicidal situations like mine considering their goal is prevention. this was their responses so far;


1st Response:

"It seems that life is very difficult for you at the moment and
you say that you have no interest in continuing your life.
When you say that every day you wake up wishing you hadn't, do
you feel that you really do want to die?"

2nd Response:

"It must indeed be very stressful, being unemployed together with the added burden of the
imminent renewal of your lease.

Being willing and capable of working hard is a positive attribute to have and hopefully in
time will enable you to obtain a satisfactory position.

Have you found writing details of your life and the situation you find yourself in of any
benefit to you? Often sharing your inner most thoughts with another may enable one to see
things more clearly.

We continue to offer you support as long as you find it helps."

my conclusion is that project1999 RNF handles this better than the "professionals."

i'm still going to shoot myself once I get my eviction notice. i'm going to open my door and make sure that when I shoot myself in the head, my brains will splatter across the eviction notice stapled to the door while my body bleeds out all over their carpet.

[Sidelle]

so I thought about telling my story to a charity that specializes in suicidal situations like mine considering their goal is prevention. this was their responses so far;


1st Response:

"It seems that life is very difficult for you at the moment and
you say that you have no interest in continuing your life.
When you say that every day you wake up wishing you hadn't, do
you feel that you really do want to die?"

2nd Response:

"It must indeed be very stressful, being unemployed together with the added burden of the
imminent renewal of your lease.

Being willing and capable of working hard is a positive attribute to have and hopefully in
time will enable you to obtain a satisfactory position.

Have you found writing details of your life and the situation you find yourself in of any
benefit to you? Often sharing your inner most thoughts with another may enable one to see
things more clearly.

We continue to offer you support as long as you find it helps."

my conclusion is that project1999 RNF handles this better than the "professionals."

i'm still going to shoot myself once I get my eviction notice. i'm going to open my door and make sure that when I shoot myself in the head, my brains will splatter across the eviction notice stapled to the door while my body bleeds out all over their carpet.

I don't know if you believe in anything after this life. Obviously it sounds like you do not. Believe me when I say I am not a believer in religion at all. Sorry, but all man-made bullshit is retarded at some point, no matter how beautiful the intent.

One thing I do believe is that we are here to learn something. Whether it's painful or joyful souls are here for a reason. Energy never dies. We, as humans living in this cesspool, may not have the answers to everything. I understand that. But consider one thing...

Maybe you need to learn something right now on a spiritual level. What do you think happens if you don't really do everything possible to fight your way through this? And have you really, really done everything possible? My version of hell is having to come back here to all the ugliness. Would you really wanna have to start all over again just to have the same kind of life?

Everything, in my opinion, is about learning and becoming a better person. Sometimes maybe my only success is that I try.

[Bodeanicus]

so I thought about telling my story to a charity that specializes in suicidal situations like mine considering their goal is prevention. this was their responses so far;


1st Response:

"It seems that life is very difficult for you at the moment and
you say that you have no interest in continuing your life.
When you say that every day you wake up wishing you hadn't, do
you feel that you really do want to die?"

2nd Response:

"It must indeed be very stressful, being unemployed together with the added burden of the
imminent renewal of your lease.

Being willing and capable of working hard is a positive attribute to have and hopefully in
time will enable you to obtain a satisfactory position.

Have you found writing details of your life and the situation you find yourself in of any
benefit to you? Often sharing your inner most thoughts with another may enable one to see
things more clearly.

We continue to offer you support as long as you find it helps."

my conclusion is that project1999 RNF handles this better than the "professionals."

i'm still going to shoot myself once I get my eviction notice. i'm going to open my door and make sure that when I shoot myself in the head, my brains will splatter across the eviction notice stapled to the door while my body bleeds out all over their carpet.

Promise?

[lawll]

Someone trace his IP and call the cops! You know they can call you crazy and hold you against you will when you say shit like this lol.

[mtb tripper]

you done fucked up now

[RestoreThis]

Promise?

edgy

[abacab-godking2]

The logic in me appreciates what clear and sidelle have to say.

Just wish it would remit the feelings of a sledgehammer tearing its way through my chest. The disappointment when waking. The distress of hopelessness. The fluttering of painful sorrow effecting the quintessence that is me. The destitution of motivation to even replenish the energy it takes to withstand.

Read a news article about how homicides have dropped while suicide has increased. More than likely due to the next or current recession and state of the economy. Jobs that are needed but continuing to be absent. Joy that is scarce while suffering is abundant.

Maybe it is one huge test or learning experience. Probably just a giant probability of energy experiencing itself in every way possible. Perhaps a huge joke of nothingness. Just the possibilities to enjoy life to the fullest through complete happiness at all costs.

But when those who are truly happy, have incredible wealth, enjoy every single days of their lives, the end must come. They grow old, become bitter, or at best appreciative. Then the fate of the happiest might even charge the burden of the greatest pain of all as they know it must end. Loved ones must die and the circle must complete. It wasn't built to last and to endure such a fate as the happiest of all must be worse.

Maybe the greatest happiness is wanting it to end as nothing will be missed for there was nothing to miss. If there was no love to lose then it must not be that painful.

[freez]

as someone who is room mates with a severly depressed friend, dont do it dude.

[Sarius]

The logic in me appreciates what clear and sidelle have to say.

Just wish it would remit the feelings of a sledgehammer tearing its way through my chest. The disappointment when waking. The distress of hopelessness. The fluttering of painful sorrow effecting the quintessence that is me. The destitution of motivation to even replenish the energy it takes to withstand.

Read a news article about how homicides have dropped while suicide has increased. More than likely due to the next or current recession and state of the economy. Jobs that are needed but continuing to be absent. Joy that is scarce while suffering is abundant.

Maybe it is one huge test or learning experience. Probably just a giant probability of energy experiencing itself in every way possible. Perhaps a huge joke of nothingness. Just the possibilities to enjoy life to the fullest through complete happiness at all costs.

But when those who are truly happy, have incredible wealth, enjoy every single days of their lives, the end must come. They grow old, become bitter, or at best appreciative. Then the fate of the happiest might even charge the burden of the greatest pain of all as they know it must end. Loved ones must die and the circle must complete. It wasn't built to last and to endure such a fate as the happiest of all must be worse.

Maybe the greatest happiness is wanting it to end as nothing will be missed for there was nothing to miss. If there was no love to lose then it must not be that painful.

Seems well written, is it original or plagiarized? If original, I doubt you're too dumb to be in the military.

[Daldolma]

way too much work going into this troll

[Ahldagor]

The logic in me appreciates what clear and sidelle have to say.

Just wish it would remit the feelings of a sledgehammer tearing its way through my chest. The disappointment when waking. The distress of hopelessness. The fluttering of painful sorrow effecting the quintessence that is me. The destitution of motivation to even replenish the energy it takes to withstand.

Read a news article about how homicides have dropped while suicide has increased. More than likely due to the next or current recession and state of the economy. Jobs that are needed but continuing to be absent. Joy that is scarce while suffering is abundant.

Maybe it is one huge test or learning experience. Probably just a giant probability of energy experiencing itself in every way possible. Perhaps a huge joke of nothingness. Just the possibilities to enjoy life to the fullest through complete happiness at all costs.

But when those who are truly happy, have incredible wealth, enjoy every single days of their lives, the end must come. They grow old, become bitter, or at best appreciative. Then the fate of the happiest might even charge the burden of the greatest pain of all as they know it must end. Loved ones must die and the circle must complete. It wasn't built to last and to endure such a fate as the happiest of all must be worse.

Maybe the greatest happiness is wanting it to end as nothing will be missed for there was nothing to miss. If there was no love to lose then it must not be that painful.

what...if it's all nothing then why is there something.

[freez]

just realized godking is that loser jibekn



nvm any bullet will do

[Novoselic]

Or shoot a lot of dope, and you won't need the shotgun.

Dope won't work if you got that tolerance, which is why the shotgun is added into the equation.

[Sidelle]

I had a good friend irl 4 yrs ago who killed himself. He was a young, talented, funny, smart, good-looking person who had lots to live for - wife, kids, good job... but suffered from depression and money problems. We worked together for 3 years and shared lots of laughs. He seemed fine to me at the time, but in retrospect it wasn't fine.

I don't think these are troll posts at all. And even if they are I don't care. Would rather be trolled and laughed at for caring than see anyone feeling like this and do nothing. If you aren't fucking made of wood remember what it feels like to be hopeless and/or alone at some point in your life.

Anyone encouraging a person to just go for it and off themselves are fucked up in the head, probably from never having a real friend in their lives. I feel bad for you but it's no fucking excuse. Grow up.

[Daldolma]

I had a good friend irl 4 yrs ago who killed himself. He was a young, talented, funny, smart, good-looking person who had lots to live for - wife, kids, good job... but suffered from depression and money problems. We worked together for 3 years and shared lots of laughs. He seemed fine to me at the time, but in retrospect it wasn't fine.

I don't think these are troll posts at all. And even if they are I don't care. Would rather be trolled and laughed at for caring than see anyone feeling like this and do nothing. If you aren't fucking made of wood remember what it feels like to be hopeless and/or alone at some point in your life.

Anyone encouraging a person to just go for it and off themselves are fucked up in the head, probably from never having a real friend in their lives. I feel bad for you but it's no fucking excuse. Grow up.

doubtful

[Novoselic]

I had a good friend irl 4 yrs ago who killed himself. He was a young, talented, funny, smart, good-looking person who had lots to live for - wife, kids, good job... but suffered from depression and money problems. We worked together for 3 years and shared lots of laughs. He seemed fine to me at the time, but in retrospect it wasn't fine.

I don't think these are troll posts at all. And even if they are I don't care. Would rather be trolled and laughed at for caring than see anyone feeling like this and do nothing. If you aren't fucking made of wood remember what it feels like to be hopeless and/or alone at some point in your life.

Anyone encouraging a person to just go for it and off themselves are fucked up in the head, probably from never having a real friend in their lives. I feel bad for you but it's no fucking excuse. Grow up.
Sometimes suicide is the only way out. There are people out there who just can't win the battle against their personal demons. Emotional suffering can be extremely tough.

[Lyra]

I doubt you're too dumb to be in the military.

I've thought this since I first read that comment and the single thing that makes me hope this is a troll. I know people in the military...

Sometimes suicide is the only way out. There are people out there who just can't win the battle against their personal demons. Emotional suffering can be extremely tough.

When you say sometimes, it's more like extremely rarely. Like I said previously, often a diagnosis and treatment take a long time before successful. We are chemical beings and sometimes the chemicals get out of whack. Think about a huge part of what makes men different from woman and just how different we really are: Testosterone and Estrogen Very powerful chemicals.

I saw an accidental inducement of psychosis. A woman going through menopause was wrongly prescribed hormone replacement therapy. It was a scary thing to witness someone perfectly sane turn into a nut job practically overnight. She ended up having shock therapy and eventually "recovered".

I'm not an expert in suicide prevention, but I wish I was. :(

[Barkingturtle]

As an expert in suicide provocation, let me assure you folks this is a troll. Truly suicidal people don't spend this much time dicking around. They are some of the bravest, most dedicated and decisive folks among us. The most honorable exodus: suicide. Just do it.

[Nuk3Afr1ca]

I really doubt there would be much difference between a full metal jacket and hollow tip (black talon). Using an inert gas, like sitting in a car in a garage would probably be far more effective and less error prone.

[abacab-godking2]

don't have a car or a garage.

You think everyone is a spoiled rich kid who has a car and lives in a house? You have no idea.

But even if I did mess up with the bullets, I'm sure I'll bleed out and pass on considering the disconnected type of society that wouldn't even call the police or really care if they heard a gun shot in a apartment.

Besides response time of police in this city is horrible. First one on the scene would probably be a cop and he couldn't do much to stop the bleeding of a head shot.

I figure the gun is powerful enough to get the job done in a painless fashion.

I'm comforted by my future fate as there's nothing else I can do anyway. I won't be missed. No one will care. only like 6 more months i'll hold out for some hope.

sent a few resumes out and filled out some menial job applications. maybe i'll get a call but considering the 10 applications I've filled out last month resulted in no response, I doubt my luck will change.

[Autotune]

I'd wager any .357 bullet from any direction to the skull will kill you. Even if you are incredibly lucky and live through the shot, unless someone finds you immediately after, you'll still bleed out and die.

A quick google search could give you all the information you would need on the best angle to pull the trigger to your dome and what ammo to use.

There are plenty of other, more effective and certain, ways to kill yourself though. Guessing you are choosing a gun because you're actually afraid to follow through with suicide. Most people choose guns because you can hype yourself up to pull the trigger and possibly die in an instance, where as other means take planning and causes people to back out who really don't want to die.

Either way, good luck living or killing yourself... not everyone is cut out to live through this shitty world.

[r00t]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GTFvDqBVNBI

[abacab-godking2]

There are plenty of other, more effective and certain, ways to kill yourself though. Guessing you are choosing a gun because you're actually afraid to follow through with suicide.

Considering I am too stupid to even join the military, according to them, I find myself confused by the afraid statement.

I imagine if I climbed a high building and decided to jump off, yes, I'd probably back off and think of something else. I honestly don't even have the motivation to exercise anymore much less go out of my way looking for something really high to jump off of.

The gun is just there as now are the bullets. All it would really take is a twitch of the finger once I pull back the hair trigger. So, in my opinion, that's the most surefire way in regards to "too afraid to follow through." Just get really drunk, wait till I'm incredibly sleepy, and follow through without hesitation as it wouldn't take much energy or thought.

Much more afraid of living on the streets and suffering through hunger pains and the elements effecting me while developing bacterial disturbances throughout my body as I'd struggle to find a place to bathe on the streets. Now that's scary. Or even being constantly mugged, harassed, and beaten by people I'd run into on the streets is far more something to be afraid of. Even going to jail to be shanked, cut, and stabbed while probably living through it as prison doctors patch me up is much more terrifying.

But ultimately, death is something to be naturally afraid of thus waiting these next 6 months holding out for some hope that someone would respond to my resumes and applications. I'm afraid to be born again into some shitty 3rd world country where I grow up abused by parents or strangers, however; at least I wouldn't remember my past life and perhaps it would be some manifestation of acceptance as others that are worse off seem to have the ability to endure it.

Continuing to live on in the homeless life is something much greater to fear. That's why I'd rather blow my brains out.

Crying everyday is something I don't care to continue to do anyway. Not many spoiled and rich privileged kids, that most of you all probably are, would understand that type of stress anyway. If anything be thankful that you all were born into families that care and can support you. I wasn't. And with everything that I did earn on my own including this shitty apartment, fate caused the business I worked for to go into the hole and forced to shut down. Such a shame.

[hatelore]

Considering I am too stupid to even join the military, according to them, I find myself confused by the afraid statement.

I imagine if I climbed a high building and decided to jump off, yes, I'd probably back off and think of something else. I honestly don't even have the motivation to exercise anymore much less go out of my way looking for something really high to jump off of.

The gun is just there as now are the bullets. All it would really take is a twitch of the finger once I pull back the hair trigger. So, in my opinion, that's the most surefire way in regards to "too afraid to follow through." Just get really drunk, wait till I'm incredibly sleepy, and follow through without hesitation as it wouldn't take much energy or thought.

Much more afraid of living on the streets and suffering through hunger pains and the elements effecting me while developing bacterial disturbances throughout my body as I'd struggle to find a place to bathe on the streets. Now that's scary. Or even being constantly mugged, harassed, and beaten by people I'd run into on the streets is far more something to be afraid of. Even going to jail to be shanked, cut, and stabbed while probably living through it as prison doctors patch me up is much more terrifying.

But ultimately, death is something to be naturally afraid of thus waiting these next 6 months holding out for some hope that someone would respond to my resumes and applications. I'm afraid to be born again into some shitty 3rd world country where I grow up abused by parents or strangers, however; at least I wouldn't remember my past life and perhaps it would be some manifestation of acceptance as others that are worse off seem to have the ability to endure it.

Continuing to live on in the homeless life is something much greater to fear. That's why I'd rather blow my brains out.

Crying everyday is something I don't care to continue to do anyway. Not many spoiled and rich privileged kids, that most of you all probably are, would understand that type of stress anyway. If anything be thankful that you all were born into families that care and can support you. I wasn't. And with everything that I did earn on my own including this shitty apartment, fate caused the business I worked for to go into the hole and forced to shut down. Such a shame.

Bro you are full of shit, and a person who obviously enjoys belittling yourself. I have a suggestion though for you if you want it : Man the fuck up, get a job, get a life and make a difference in the world. Or at least live the good life you deserve. Can't find a job? Boo fucking hoo, work harder, you can do anything if you try hard enough.

One job of mine when I was around 19 and had a new wife and apartment went like this : Me calling them every single day until they knew me by name and realized I was not giving up until I got the job. And guess what homie? I got it, and I worked at that company for about 6 years and am also very grateful for the knowledge I got from them.. But as I was saying, you are full of shit. And if you are not, you need to man the fuck up and quit being a wimp. Life is tough, fight back, and it will still be tough, but its possible to be a very happy person even in a TOUGH world.


tl;dr? I will shorten it for you,


Man up and quit being a quitter.

[Daldolma]

how did this turn into a successful troll

[Sloth]

Much more afraid of living on the streets and suffering through hunger pains and the elements effecting me while developing bacterial disturbances throughout my body as I'd struggle to find a place to bathe on the streets. Now that's scary. Or even being constantly mugged, harassed, and beaten by people I'd run into on the streets is far more something to be afraid of. Even going to jail to be shanked, cut, and stabbed while probably living through it as prison doctors patch me up is much more terrifying.
lol wtf?
this is one epic troll!

[hatelore]

I don't think you guys get it, he is going to kill himself. He is just making sure he gets it right.

It has been statistically proven many many times that most people that want to kill themselves do a certain number of things before doing the actual act. Those things include but are not limited to:

1.Waiting months to make sure you really wanna do it

2. doing extensive research on the bullet you will use, you know, no one wants to botch it and become a gimp or a " Ruuuth , Ruuuth, Baby! Ruuuth!" kinda guy.

3.Get on a gaming forum in the rants & flames section and post it so everyone can flame you/assist you.

4. Explain about your fear of becoming homeless and catching any scary disease you can think of, as one of the reason's for commiting said act.

These are facts proven by extensive research. Do not doubt this guy.

[abacab-godking2]

Bro you are full of shit, and a person who obviously enjoys belittling yourself. I have a suggestion though for you if you want it : Man the fuck up, get a job, get a life and make a difference in the world. Or at least live the good life you deserve. Can't find a job? Boo fucking hoo, work harder, you can do anything if you try hard enough.

One job of mine when I was around 19 and had a new wife and apartment went like this : Me calling them every single day until they knew me by name and realized I was not giving up until I got the job. And guess what homie? I got it, and I worked at that company for about 6 years and am also very grateful for the knowledge I got from them.. But as I was saying, you are full of shit. And if you are not, you need to man the fuck up and quit being a wimp. Life is tough, fight back, and it will still be tough, but its possible to be a very happy person even in a TOUGH world.


tl;dr? I will shorten it for you,


Man up and quit being a quitter.

This was kind of motivating. Last couple places I did call as a follow up to my application simply told me the positions are filled but they keep applications on file for a few months afterwards incase anything opens up. I doubt they'd appreciate that I call them back on a constant basis. More than likely come off as an unstable person.

But to constantly bother a company like that wouldn't be wise in any way. We actually experienced someone doing that with my previous employment and the human resources mentioned how it ruined their possible future chances during the 'water cooler' talk around the business.

Most menial places have on their applications, 'Do not call in regards to your application' on the bottom of the page.

But you can't just "get a job" magically like some spoiled and rich privileged kids like yourselves think you can. Doesn't really work like that in the real world and I think the increase in suicides as reported in a few news articles speak for themselves as the economy seems to be bad. Maybe a drastic over population occurring.

Wish I could fight for it and just walk into a business and demand them to give me a job. I'm sure they'd shortly call security afterwards and during completely blemishing any future chances to be hired.

Top it all off it's not like I have a educational background to back it up. A lot of places that pay decent wages require experience in the field and some sort of college. I was too busy working 60 hours a week most of the year to even attempt at some sort of college life, even off of loans and grants. The 35 dollar a month bus passes didn't make it any easier with rent, utilities, and food to pay for.

But I understand your frustrations as you care enough to type that all out. I also had a friend born into pretty good wealth that had a free ride through life acting like he earned it all. Parents paid for his apartment, bought him a paid off car, sent him to college on his own dime and never had a job in his life as he still currently doesn't. He had the same mentality when it came to people struggling in this world as if "being tough" and "just go and get a job" was a viable option.

I understand that most don't and will never endure the type of stress of being on your own and completely alone in this world. I am extremely jealous of you all. Just don't forget to be thankful for it all as you spend majority of your time playing emulated everquest on a consistent and constant basis. I played it back in 1999 too and I know just how much time you all have to put into this game to achieve what has been achieved.

Some people just aren't born lucky enough regardless of a working mentality and the ability of being able to work even in a physical labor environment. So far every retail corporation I've sent applications to just simply don't respond. Couple places I called and asked to speak to human resources, once again, just say positions are filled. Usually these corporations don't put up a now hiring sign unless it's temp seasonal work. Even that fills up fast for the privileged kids with vehicles and educations to have.

I am at least grateful for achieving what little I did achieve on my own. Even without a car through my entire life I nailed my own apartment, as crappy as it is, and was able to feed and clothe myself. But damn, even taxes have risen as of lately. It's such a shame. Even two part time jobs wouldn't help to even be able to hold a lease. If I had family to stay with it would be a joy as perhaps I could save up money and use the extra time to find full time work.

I suppose I had a good run and a attempt to try to make it in such a society.

I don't hold it against any of you for your misguided comments towards me, I understand most of this forum are the privileged that will never endure such stress in life. I am ultimately jealous of you all.

I either need more time or need to find someone to lend a helping hand. At least I will have these next 6 months to hold onto some hope. Sort of like that shawshank redemption movie, "Remember. Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies."

I do look forward and take comfort in my bullets. At least it is a way out of this hell. Unless there's going to be another one.

Wouldn't it be something if time didn't exist and my next life was the same exact world but in the past. Too bad no one would ever know if it worked like that. What a interesting thought.

[r00t]

credit for persistent troll

[Langrisser]

i already linked the "exit bag" helium method so yea epic troll, he could be done by now.. no muss no fuss.

psssh

[Autotune]

I can see he is definitely afraid to commit suicide, just another failure added to his long list of things he will never complete.

[abacab-godking2]

Trying to bait me into an argument isn't going to work. You can't make me feel any worse than my life already is, kids.

I am jealous of all of you.

[Langrisser]

awwwwww you have a chemical imbalance then, cause its all in your head. life is beautiful. now DIE!1

[abacab-godking2]

Doubt it's a chemical imbalance. Didn't think about this while I actually had employment.

I do feel bad for those that actually have good lives that do such things. Those are the ones that probably could have used some sort of pills to balance out their brains.

Life can be beautiful. But try to tell it to the homeless starving in the streets and the children in 3rd world countries who don't experience a soft bed, comforting clothing, and a supple meal to feed themselves.

I can be thankful for at least those things that I did earn on my own. Is that where the frustrations spawn from that make of the essence of the average P99 mentality? Is it the fact that without the privileged lives, you realize that you wouldn't make it on your own either? Probably.

I forgive all of your misguided frustrations though. I can still love you even though I'm incredibly jealous of your lives.

Sometimes I think about how many rooms that are not being used in your big houses that could be helping others that need it. Even a extra large closet that could be used as a room for someone who has nothing. I even have or had a friend that lives in a big house with giant rooms that just sit there collecting dust.

I think someone once posted how there are more empty homes in America than there are homeless in the street. That's astonishing and quite sad.

I noticed recently that peoples pets eat better than human beings sometimes. Have you seen the variety in the stores? Damn, I wish I was a cat being cuddled by a fat woman.

[abacab-godking2]

I am afraid of the afterlife. What if there is a heaven and hell, a devil and a god. Just seems too far fetched as all the revisions of religion throughout history.

[Langrisser]

thinking about pain and having it get you down to the point of inaction IS a chemical imbalance.

get generic Zoloft to start, it works. Smart people often have this "problem"... but the pills will take away the veil, it wont make you artificially compliant... it takes away something that shouldnt be there so you can help change the world.

Sertraline 100mg. stick with it.

[Langrisser]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I3x5iaA9JjY - david cross will explain it to you quite clearly

if you listen to this as well at time 22:09 (i put in link to right index, listen he starts talking) , Sour Shoes says EXACTLY what you say. See??
http://youtu.be/U6X7JwupxhI?t=22m9s

almost verbatim the empathy that grounds you to a halt is not abnormal. other people recognize this shit about the world... but you have to fix yourself FIRST.

Please consider how close to you they sound, and then realize people have been working to HELP people like you so you can live and help others or do whatever you wish, but with a "clear" mind.

its not weakness its illness.

godspeed little guy.

[Langrisser]

i am on this medication and it helps. i use 150mg. i dont wake up feeling sad, i try to do what i can to help myself and others. its a simple plan, but imagine that globally instead.

most of the world needs this help. Cannabis would be useful in this regard, and we are denied it.

an oversimplification is that the population of prisons and mental hospitals is inversely related. think about it.

the war on drugs is a war on the very freedom to be happy. sickening. i believe you are serious.

[Langrisser]

true true its actually quite neutral and painless to not exist... remember before you were born? same thing.

your chemistry reverts to simpler forms and is reused, so reincarnation is almost right. human pride and greed make us want to persist as this form. life is more interesting knowing you get to be done at some point, and to make the most of it doing what you feel like.

sometimes that is kindness, sometimes its playing eq and trolling. religion is to blame for overpopulation, mostly. GET ON TEH PILL AND ABORT BABIES.

we decide who gets to be a player in the game. once they are here, we are stuck.

9/11 truth

[hatelore]

Doubt it's a chemical imbalance. Didn't think about this while I actually had employment.

I do feel bad for those that actually have good lives that do such things. Those are the ones that probably could have used some sort of pills to balance out their brains.

Life can be beautiful. But try to tell it to the homeless starving in the streets and the children in 3rd world countries who don't experience a soft bed, comforting clothing, and a supple meal to feed themselves.

I can be thankful for at least those things that I did earn on my own. Is that where the frustrations spawn from that make of the essence of the average P99 mentality? Is it the fact that without the privileged lives, you realize that you wouldn't make it on your own either? Probably.

I forgive all of your misguided frustrations though. I can still love you even though I'm incredibly jealous of your lives.

Sometimes I think about how many rooms that are not being used in your big houses that could be helping others that need it. Even a extra large closet that could be used as a room for someone who has nothing. I even have or had a friend that lives in a big house with giant rooms that just sit there collecting dust.

I think someone once posted how there are more empty homes in America than there are homeless in the street. That's astonishing and quite sad.

I noticed recently that peoples pets eat better than human beings sometimes. Have you seen the variety in the stores? Damn, I wish I was a cat being cuddled by a fat woman.

Man, I am starting to feel bad for you. As a rich priveledged kid I do realize that you are right. For now on when I throw large portions of food away made by my chef and delivered by my butler to my golden rimmed table, I will no longer think of those poor kids in Africa with flys flying into there eyes... I will think of you. I sure hope and pray you get this all worked out.

Do you have a PayPal account. I have a little extra money I want to send you. No poor soul deserves to live on the street and be beaten every night like you surely will.

[Lyra]

[QUOTE=hatelore;1061281calling them every single day until they knew me by name and realized I was not giving up until I got the job[/QUOTE]

Be polite of course, but this works. I've hired people that wouldn't give up just to end the calls. Persistence is a desirable trait.

[Sidelle]

I forgive all of your misguided frustrations though. I can still love you even though I'm incredibly jealous of your lives.

I think more people than you realize have fucked up, stressful lives. What makes you think everyone here is a spoiled rich kid? I'm sure there are a few but I believe the majority of folks here are not rich and super happy about their lives.

I don't think you would be jealous of me for sure. My little boy is autistic and likely will never be able to live on his own. We struggle financially because I have had serious health issues and multiple surgeries. I will likely be in physical pain the rest of my life, all while caring for an autistic kid who will never be "normal".

I guess if you decide to go through with it I suppose it's a good thing you don't have anyone depending on you. In that regard, maybe I am just a little jealous of you.

Btw, life fucking sucks for everyone sometimes, whether you're rich or not.

[Nuk3Afr1ca]

We struggle financially because I have had serious health issues and multiple surgeries.

Which begs the question, why would you have kids when you have no money and are cruising around in a wheelchair...

[Malice_Mizer]

That's your problem: you judge everything in your life and the lives of others, even to the extent of defining happiness and fullness of life, as material success and "those things that I did earn on my own."

The happiness of those in rural India is about the same as happiness of an average American household. Your annual salary and standards of living, up to a certain point, do not guarantee you anything regarding the fullness of life.

[Sidelle]

Which begs the question, why would you have kids when you have no money and are cruising around in a wheelchair...

I was healthy when I had him. Hs is 11. I didn't start having health issues until he was 5. By the way, I'm not in a wheelchair. Not sure where you got that idea.

[Langrisser]

it is chemical. get more exercise, go to free clinic. i get my meds for about 10$ a pop at the college. i didnt diagnosed until 26 and im 30 now. its not been easy but its better then going postal which i almost did one day and my brother talked me down and got me to the clinic.

i went in and told them i felt strange. that was all i had to say. i went home, saw a psychiatrist once for a prescription, and began the tedium of dosing and shitting water (serotonin is named thus because it is in Blood Serum and affects Muscle tissue TONE so your guts will be bubbly).

its not a big deal after you do it. before, i felt like you and wanted to suicide bomb the next asshole who looked at me sideways. no one would fight me, i think i looked crazy that day.

i appreciate C-lo's "crazy" in a new way. GET HELP BRO.

try ordering some 5f-AKB48 offline its like pot but a full agonist and it will get you eating and sleeping and basically in zombie mode until you can get real meds. its $60 for 5 grams and that much lasts three fuckin months, cheaper than weed. im off it now, withdrawals not so good but only lasts three days of like weed withdrawals... even with weed around. im a new man today. literally almost this last two weeks, after 30 years of struggling to comprehend why anyone would choose to stay alive.

[Langrisser]

i hope you find your path to resolution, it never ends.. you start a new beginning. talk to people, even on this message boards, and you will feel better.

i mean, i dont do that cognitive therapy gay shit but... oh wait i kinda am right now :)

[abacab-godking2]

I appreciate the kind words and notions of hope. I'm just not convinced any pill or substance is going to make a difference when it comes down to being evicted. I'm not joking when I tell you there is no one to turn to. I don't even know how to contact my own mother at this point and she's probably well into her 70's by now if not passed on.

If a pill was going to get me a job that would be awesome, but in the real world it doesn't work that way. Poverty is real. And that is basically what I was born into regardless of all the hope and positivity I did indeed once upon a time have in order to obtain what I have even though it is so little.

I understand life sucks regardless of material possessions and quality of living for a lot of people. Those type of people who feel hopeless and depressed while living comfortably with full time jobs and a roof over their head are more than likely the ones who truly need some type of pill or therapy.

When one is uneducated and inexperienced with no where to turn, I just don't see the point in living on the streets while carrying some type of misguided hope and positivity thinking all the time, "It could be worse." Sure, I could be armless and legless. Even with the physical ability to work and mental work ethic, it doesn't seem to be making much of a difference.

Life doesn't have too much meaning anyway. The species will continue on in existence for as long as the planet allows. Positivity and happiness is reserved for those privileged enough to experience it. It's really a misguided delusion for someone in such a situation as myself to have.

I could be the happiest person on the planet with all the hope in the world, yet no one will call for an interview. No job that can provide a manageable living will come my way. For it hasn't yet. There's still a little time.

I am at peace with this all now. I'm sure death really isn't the end. I doubt it's just one life. One life that we can experience and remember at a time sure.

Maybe there's another planet out there where people actually care to help each other. Actually value every living thing as something special and worthy of having around. Sometimes I take comfort in others thoughts of this life is actually hell. Maybe it is. Specially if those in such decent living conditions and situations find it just as hopeless and meaningless.

That linked you tube video was funny. A wealthy comedian talking about depression. All he needed was some pills and that's good that he found it. Lets take away his money and home and see what good his pills do then.

Lets drop the privileged kids off in some random city with nothing but their positive outlooks and see where that gets them. I bet most wouldn't even make it through the first night of being homeless without breaking down and trying to call their families for help. We all need someone and that's what it comes down to.

It's all comforting now. Not much for me to miss and no one to miss me. I can be thankful for that.

I agree with smitez too. It is a overpopulated world and wouldn't I be the selfish one if I decided to stick around it when there's nothing worthy to stick around for.

[Langrisser]

yea dunno what to do about lack of services... pick a nice destination and hitch hike or craigslist your way there.

perhaps start a blog and a kickstarter campaign and use this internet to help yourself. lots of people would be willing to help, its just a matter of making the need known.

the pill doesnt make things better. it lets you prioritize the pain and removes the inability to act because of the oppressing feelings. it is not a euphoriant or artificial high. it simply puts your brain more on a steady wavelength instead of dipping and staying so low. i think Unipolar vs Bipolar is the new realization.

So final advice: Do like the guy who started with a paperclip and ended up with a house.... be honest like you are, state your desires and problems, and spread the word online... start a blog and a get donations, and post updates. use craigslist and find "free" stuff you can sell. thats what i would do to start from scratch (which isnt really scratch, you dont need to invent a wheel... just realize the tools you have and use them)

no one deserves to have this feeling, no one deserves anything. but you can, and it is what it is. dont overthink it anymore, the pills help that as well.

[Langrisser]

you can value yourself and still blame the worlds problems on yourself. quitting means you're not really serious about changing things and you need help to see more light.

if you have strength of body, help someone who only has strength of mind. clean dirty things. wander around and see if you can help someone, anyone, with anything.

[Langrisser]

This will be my last post but not because I dont care. I just realized how foolish it was of me to try and give you advice when you need professional help, but its like I'm talking to myself 4 years ago and I can't let it go.

You need professional help, I'll say it again. Tell someone at a hospital or clinic you think you have depression and are considering suicide. They are obligated to help you, and the costs will be written off. Do not think about the money.

I hope people see the devastation of not having access to affordable healthcare. Everything else aside, including politics, this is the real consequences. Someone is hurting and cannot see how to get help due to money. Thats fucked up. Any other modern country and this man would have the help he deserves.

We can do better. The medication is cheap and effective. Please seek it out and stick with it, because the effects are not immediate.

I would even advise committing a petty crime and going to jail at this point, because you will be given help at the intake. What a fucked up country.

I'm hoping for you. Good luck and know that if I could do more I would. Not all humans are scum given half a chance.

[Malice_Mizer]

Maybe you should consider joining the military.

It's been the sure-fire (see: predatory) path toward financial normalcy for millions of the helpless American poor.

[ncapatina]

Epic troll is epic.

[Langrisser]

you cant fake the kind of shit he is saying, not even sarcastically. good for you that you think he's kidding.

[ncapatina]

That's why this is an epic troll, his dedication to the cause is admirable.

[Langrisser]

i suppose theres a possibility in which case yes, how epic.

[Langrisser]

aaaaaand... its saskrotch posting as abacab. just talked to ab on webcam. he has a room, internet, and blue, blue eyes.


fuck you guys :) everything i said stands though.

now die.

[abacab-godking2]

I have been looking up the most effective way to shoot yourself in the head lately. I come across lots of stories of people living through a bullet to the brain. Most of them seem to be 22 caliber bullets though. I suppose that isn't a very powerful caliber, I'm not educated in terms of guns and ammo though.

So the temple shot is a little sketchy for the possible impulse to flinch and just end up blowing half your face off and your eyeballs out. And sometimes through the mouth isn't exactly a surefire way of going about it either depending on the angle.

From what I can research the goal is to hit the actual brain stem which is where consciousness, heart, and breathing 'stem' from. I believe that is the base of the skull from what I can tell.

A passage suggests putting the barrel end against the back of your mouth while clinching down with your teeth will directly point it at the brain stem at a slight upward angle that will just instantly turn the lights out. Basically the point where executions are generally aimed for and the area swat members are trained to shoot in order to prevent last minute twitching of the suspect to actually get their shot off.

Just a little scary that there are stories of people surviving a shotgun through the mouth. Although probably just rumors and nonsense considering the power of a shotgun.

I am hoping a 357 hollow point anywhere to the skull will be sufficient enough. Now i'm considering through the mouth at this point trying to aim at that brain stem as opposed as through the temple. I figured the temple would have been best as one grows up to understand it is very sensitive area of the brain, maybe that is wrong though considering most of the frontal portion of the brain is for thinking as opposed to bodily function.

I'm sure the blood loss would end me in a timely fashion anyway. Doubt the strength of a magnum caliber would cause minimal blood loss only to be saved by paramedics hours later some how regardless to the area of the head.

I am glad that one of you received the help you needed through pills and professional help. Regardless of the abnormal condition of your brain, at least you had family and a place to stay with food to eat even if you didn't get your pills. Just like I said before, pills and professional help won't put a roof over my head and food on the table.

With that mentality, all we would really need to do is feed the homeless pills and they wouldn't be homeless anymore.

[ncapatina]

Actually I am checking this thread like 5x a day now to see how long he can keep it going. This is one of the finest trolls I've ever had the pleasure of reading. The research, the dedication to stay in character...it's like if Daniel Day Lewis decided to troll a gaming forum.

[Langrisser]

like my grandma used to say

simple pleasures for simple minds

[ncapatina]

Your grandma sounds retarded.

[abacab-godking2]

So I got a call from an old friend of mine and we decided to hang out. Someone I suppose I consider a best friend since we used to hang out a lot. After hearing about how happy he was in life, bragging about video games he's playing, girls he's dating, and all the other friends in his life he hangs out with, I ended up tell him my story.

Considering his parents have given him everything he has, apartment, car, schooling, bank account full of money and he doesn't even have a job, he was pretty apathetic to my situation. Basically said, "At least it's a way out" in regards to deciding to shoot myself in the brain.

I suppose that's what being spoiled in life makes of you. Someone completely careless even in regards to those that are supposed to be your friends. But with so many friends I guess losing just one doesn't matter. We are all just replaceable as all the wealth from his parents will bring him more happiness and attract more friends.

What else could he do though anyway. Not like he can get me a job, but I was surprised that he just generally didn't care. I guess when it comes down to it there's no one that's going to help you even when you're facing living on the streets with no money, no care, no shelter, and no food.

Officially I guess there are no such things as real friends. Anyone that genuinely loves one another unless you are doing something for them. And if you're not, you don't matter regardless of anything else. It's such a disconnected society that's all about what you can do for someone else.

Even lately as "the land of the free" goes into these so called "recessions" the divorce rate sky rocketed to 50% as the financially stable have lost their jobs in order to supply their loved ones with what they are used to. True love is non-existent and really is just a modern form of prostitution. As long as you buy your loved one a big house, expensive gifts, a car, and plenty of spending money, they'll give you children, loyalty, and sex in return while disguising it all with this aspect of "love."

It's a shame really to only realize once and for all that we are all alone. I guess it's evident as even charities are probably just really in it for the tax break as opposed to genuinely helping others by doing good. I suppose the proof there was how many children were reported sexually harassed even under "the house of god."

They say that if you only give a infant what it needs to survive and neglect it of genuine love it will simply die.

I see now that the meaning of life isn't happiness. Happiness is the result of love. Love is actually the meaning of life as everything that is born needs some sort of nurturing love. Even in the animal kingdom those cubs needs the love and protection of their mothers, and without they would simply die. Schools of fish are probably just as much of an example of love.

Without love and friendship which results in the product of happiness, what exactly is the point.

I think project1999 RNF is a good example of the result when love and friendship are completely absent. Nothing but a spiraling vortex of pure hatred towards one another due to the simple fact that most everyone is neglected of the most important things in life which is love and friendship. I suppose this is why the majority of the world is so cruel to one another completely consumed in greed and apathy.

With all that I understand now, why in the world wouldn't I shoot myself in the head.

[Bodeanicus]

Why haven't you? Stop trolling a nerd forum, and get on with it. Or check yourself into a psych ward. Either way, shut the fuck up. Thank you.

[hatelore]

I have been looking up the most effective way to shoot yourself in the head lately. I come across lots of stories of people living through a bullet to the brain. Most of them seem to be 22 caliber bullets though. I suppose that isn't a very powerful caliber, I'm not educated in terms of guns and ammo though.

So the temple shot is a little sketchy for the possible impulse to flinch and just end up blowing half your face off and your eyeballs out. And sometimes through the mouth isn't exactly a surefire way of going about it either depending on the angle.

From what I can research the goal is to hit the actual brain stem which is where consciousness, heart, and breathing 'stem' from. I believe that is the base of the skull from what I can tell.

A passage suggests putting the barrel end against the back of your mouth while clinching down with your teeth will directly point it at the brain stem at a slight upward angle that will just instantly turn the lights out. Basically the point where executions are generally aimed for and the area swat members are trained to shoot in order to prevent last minute twitching of the suspect to actually get their shot off.

Just a little scary that there are stories of people surviving a shotgun through the mouth. Although probably just rumors and nonsense considering the power of a shotgun.

I am hoping a 357 hollow point anywhere to the skull will be sufficient enough. Now i'm considering through the mouth at this point trying to aim at that brain stem as opposed as through the temple. I figured the temple would have been best as one grows up to understand it is very sensitive area of the brain, maybe that is wrong though considering most of the frontal portion of the brain is for thinking as opposed to bodily function.

I'm sure the blood loss would end me in a timely fashion anyway. Doubt the strength of a magnum caliber would cause minimal blood loss only to be saved by paramedics hours later some how regardless to the area of the head.

I am glad that one of you received the help you needed through pills and professional help. Regardless of the abnormal condition of your brain, at least you had family and a place to stay with food to eat even if you didn't get your pills. Just like I said before, pills and professional help won't put a roof over my head and food on the table.

With that mentality, all we would really need to do is feed the homeless pills and they wouldn't be homeless anymore.


Can I have your gun when you quit?

[Raavak]

Money doesn't make you happy, accomplishing things does. Sometimes money can help you get there though...

A .22 won't exit your skull so it will bounce around inside scrambling things til you die. A .357 will take your head clean off. Both rely on you aiming it right.

[Peatree]

Why kill yourself if you can still masturbate?

[ncapatina]

Thread died down for a few days I thought the troll might have ended, but boy was I wrong! Another epic post. The friend visiting and agreeing with his decision to blow his head off may be the highlight of the thread so far. Bravo!

[abacab-godking2]

I'm thinking about hanging myself instead. Seems like a better way to go. Probably wouldn't be as painful as cutting off oxygen to the brain just seems to cause darkness to slip over the eyes until one passes out and goes to sleep.

Kids seem to do that for fun as the rush of oxygen back to the brain is euphoric for some people. Weird, I never tried it. Almost as if these kids never tried drugs.

What a pointless life to be born into, growing up into a broke family that could barely support themselves without the help of their own parents as well.

All through my childhood my parents basically lived off of their parents well into their 40's. I'm only 31 and I haven't had the support of my parents since the age of 17. They didn't even have the decency to teach me to drive and help buy me a car. I guess that's what you call a tax refund baby.

What a sweet release death will be in the end anyway.

We all have to die and at least I won't be missing out on anything as I couldn't achieve much anyway.

[Gaffin Deeppockets]

Worst Naez troll ever. If you were gonna do it you woulda done it pussy. Death isnt something to think about if you stoop to its level of depression.

[Gaffin Deeppockets]

Btw this is a elf emu forum. Seek help.

[Langrisser]

yo we just gave 'em some help... bet he wont disrespect the couch again charlie murphy

[abacab-godking2]

This life has become a generally unbearable existence now. It is a disconnected careless society that allows such corruption to prosper by controlling our everyday lives while stealing personal property at an ever increasing rate. I see that I am not completely alone in the matter as the work week in the 'land of the free' has been diminished to a much more unreasonable 'full time' employment. This change has hurt and will continue to be the demise of good hardworking people who are just trying to get by as those that have the ability to help simply choose not to.

It's very closely related to how this project has become. Nothing short of a mirror image of modern day society here in the real world. A disconnected and careless community that has neglected the very most important thing in the entire existence of humanity; integrity by the service to others. Without this type of integrity to uphold the continual prospering of the individual itself, there will be a constant degrading that poisons the very society or community we inhabit. Eventually the world as we know it, in every aspect including online gaming communities, will be compromised with the infestation of individualistic greed. A type of problem that there seems to be absolutely no cure for.

Everyone depends on someone or something else. This is a fact of life that cannot be disputed. There is no clear cut example otherwise. Without the help that we all have received in society and in this projects community, there would not be anything to inhabit and enjoy. Most would like to think that they have earned everything on their own, but the truth is that it did not work that way, nor could it have ever been that simple. Everything you have gained in society and in this very gaming community was achieved through a service to others regardless of the egotistical stance you may believe.

As time grows closer to the end, I have generally become numb. Numb in the exact sense of this community project game. A numbness that overwhelms every individual like a plague. The individual is comforted by this numbness which makes it easier to become jaded and overwhelmed by apathy. It all becomes a mockery of empty laughter to cherish the pain of others in order to help the numbness subside for just a second in order to feel a superiority. But in the end, we are all numb which makes it easier to not care.

As I have experienced isolation and desperation first hand in both worlds, it becomes easier to understand the true nature of the individual and what it has become. A stature of desolation not worth experiencing and living for. For what would it be worth to continue such an existence. Only to evolve into an even more apathetic zombie who contributes to the very destruction of all by only self service. The highest purpose to achieve in this world will always be a service to others. That service to others can only lead to the positive which derives what we like to call happiness. Without it, everything will fall, will decay, will become disconnected and careless without fail.

I will soon be putting a bullet through my head as I have myself become completely numb as I cannot even find a way to survive in order to service others. The worlds we live and play in have become so far from saving, it is no longer even possible to provide such service to others without expecting the immediate gratification of something in return.

The journey is the only place that true happiness survives. The destination is ultimately meaningless in the end as there is no where else to go from there.

My journey has come to an end.

[Barkingturtle]

You're in their world now.

[gotrocks]

You're in their world now.

[Reapin]

This life has become a generally unbearable existence now. It is a disconnected careless society that allows such corruption to prosper by controlling our everyday lives while stealing personal property at an ever increasing rate. I see that I am not completely alone in the matter as the work week in the 'land of the free' has been diminished to a much more unreasonable 'full time' employment. This change has hurt and will continue to be the demise of good hardworking people who are just trying to get by as those that have the ability to help simply choose not to.

It's very closely related to how this project has become. Nothing short of a mirror image of modern day society here in the real world. A disconnected and careless community that has neglected the very most important thing in the entire existence of humanity; integrity by the service to others. Without this type of integrity to uphold the continual prospering of the individual itself, there will be a constant degrading that poisons the very society or community we inhabit. Eventually the world as we know it, in every aspect including online gaming communities, will be compromised with the infestation of individualistic greed. A type of problem that there seems to be absolutely no cure for.

Everyone depends on someone or something else. This is a fact of life that cannot be disputed. There is no clear cut example otherwise. Without the help that we all have received in society and in this projects community, there would not be anything to inhabit and enjoy. Most would like to think that they have earned everything on their own, but the truth is that it did not work that way, nor could it have ever been that simple. Everything you have gained in society and in this very gaming community was achieved through a service to others regardless of the egotistical stance you may believe.

As time grows closer to the end, I have generally become numb. Numb in the exact sense of this community project game. A numbness that overwhelms every individual like a plague. The individual is comforted by this numbness which makes it easier to become jaded and overwhelmed by apathy. It all becomes a mockery of empty laughter to cherish the pain of others in order to help the numbness subside for just a second in order to feel a superiority. But in the end, we are all numb which makes it easier to not care.

As I have experienced isolation and desperation first hand in both worlds, it becomes easier to understand the true nature of the individual and what it has become. A stature of desolation not worth experiencing and living for. For what would it be worth to continue such an existence. Only to evolve into an even more apathetic zombie who contributes to the very destruction of all by only self service. The highest purpose to achieve in this world will always be a service to others. That service to others can only lead to the positive which derives what we like to call happiness. Without it, everything will fall, will decay, will become disconnected and careless without fail.

I will soon be putting a bullet through my head as I have myself become completely numb as I cannot even find a way to survive in order to service others. The worlds we live and play in have become so far from saving, it is no longer even possible to provide such service to others without expecting the immediate gratification of something in return.

The journey is the only place that true happiness survives. The destination is ultimately meaningless in the end as there is no where else to go from there.

My journey has come to an end.

Can I have your shit?

[Hasbinbad]

if you want to kill yourself with a gun, shoot yourself in the femoral artery near your groin. 100% guaranteed to not turn you into a vegetable.

[Langrisser]

go sit on a wolfs face, either way works

[radditsu]

Gaysgaysgaysgaysgaysgaysgaysgays

[ncapatina]

This life has become a generally unbearable existence now. It is a disconnected careless society that allows such corruption to prosper by controlling our everyday lives while stealing personal property at an ever increasing rate. I see that I am not completely alone in the matter as the work week in the 'land of the free' has been diminished to a much more unreasonable 'full time' employment. This change has hurt and will continue to be the demise of good hardworking people who are just trying to get by as those that have the ability to help simply choose not to.

It's very closely related to how this project has become. Nothing short of a mirror image of modern day society here in the real world. A disconnected and careless community that has neglected the very most important thing in the entire existence of humanity; integrity by the service to others. Without this type of integrity to uphold the continual prospering of the individual itself, there will be a constant degrading that poisons the very society or community we inhabit. Eventually the world as we know it, in every aspect including online gaming communities, will be compromised with the infestation of individualistic greed. A type of problem that there seems to be absolutely no cure for.

Everyone depends on someone or something else. This is a fact of life that cannot be disputed. There is no clear cut example otherwise. Without the help that we all have received in society and in this projects community, there would not be anything to inhabit and enjoy. Most would like to think that they have earned everything on their own, but the truth is that it did not work that way, nor could it have ever been that simple. Everything you have gained in society and in this very gaming community was achieved through a service to others regardless of the egotistical stance you may believe.

As time grows closer to the end, I have generally become numb. Numb in the exact sense of this community project game. A numbness that overwhelms every individual like a plague. The individual is comforted by this numbness which makes it easier to become jaded and overwhelmed by apathy. It all becomes a mockery of empty laughter to cherish the pain of others in order to help the numbness subside for just a second in order to feel a superiority. But in the end, we are all numb which makes it easier to not care.

As I have experienced isolation and desperation first hand in both worlds, it becomes easier to understand the true nature of the individual and what it has become. A stature of desolation not worth experiencing and living for. For what would it be worth to continue such an existence. Only to evolve into an even more apathetic zombie who contributes to the very destruction of all by only self service. The highest purpose to achieve in this world will always be a service to others. That service to others can only lead to the positive which derives what we like to call happiness. Without it, everything will fall, will decay, will become disconnected and careless without fail.

I will soon be putting a bullet through my head as I have myself become completely numb as I cannot even find a way to survive in order to service others. The worlds we live and play in have become so far from saving, it is no longer even possible to provide such service to others without expecting the immediate gratification of something in return.

The journey is the only place that true happiness survives. The destination is ultimately meaningless in the end as there is no where else to go from there.

My journey has come to an end.


TLDR

[radditsu]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_of_Brandon_Vedas

[Ahldagor]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_of_Brandon_Vedas

sounds like psylocybin-madness

[Rellapse21]

been gone for a couple weeks this ***** kill himself yet?

[Sidelle]

I bet his internet finally got shut off for being past due so we may never find out, unless someone knows him irl. Even if he was just trolling I still wish him well. Depression is a bitch and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

[Lyra]

Seraching abacab-godking2 and the word “love” showed 7 posts.

A total of 25 times.

Once here:
http://www.project1999.org/forums/showpost.php?p=1036802&postcount=39

10 times here:
http://www.project1999.org/forums/showpost.php?p=1052146&postcount=113

Once here:
http://www.project1999.org/forums/showpost.php?p=1057527&postcount=123

Once here:
http://www.project1999.org/forums/showpost.php?p=1061372&postcount=150

In this post he used the word love 11 times: http://www.project1999.org/forums/showpost.php?p=1067095&postcount=184

The last capture was quoting someone’s love of Everquest.

http://usnews.nbcnews.com/_news/2013/08/21/20118311-authorities-georgia-shooting-suspect-had-nearly-500-rounds-of-ammunition?lite

In an interview with ABC News, Tuff said she tried to convince the gunman to put down his guns. She said the gunman told her he had no reason to live because nobody loved him.
"And I just explained to him that I loved him," Tuff told ABC News. "I didn't know much about him. I didn't know his name but I did love him and it was scary because I knew at that moment he was ready to take my life along with his, and if I didn't say the right thing, then we all would be dead."
Tuff also said the suspect told her he hadn't taken his medication.
In an effort to calm him down, she told him about her own troubles: how her marriage fell apart and about her struggles with opening her own business.
"I told him, 'OK, we all have situations in our lives," she said. "It was going to be OK. If I could recover, he could, too."

u don't have any emotional investment in me nor does anyone else.

people with my type of life judge it is a long, grueling, cruel, punishment that never seems to end.

Doubt it's a chemical imbalance.
I have zero doubt. You have a chemical imbalance and you CAN feel better. SEEK HELP!! You are wasting time, time when you will feel better.

NOTE TO A POSSIBLE TROLL - FUCK YOU. How DARE you manipulate my feelings of humanity and compassion. FUCK YOU!