I wonder when we're all dead and go to heaven and if God exists, will he explain that giving drugs to underage people (me 16 years) and adults and telling them that it helps them and forcing them to stay on them was WRONG and EVIL. Or will he let it slide and grant them entry to heaven because they had GOOD INTENTIONS or didn't KNOW that it was evil? Will God let this slide guys?
Guys I accepted that I'm mentally ill and have to take drugs for 50 or 60 more years until I die of old age. I will have a headache everyday and feel no joy, but this is what God wanted for me because everyone I asked, my mom and my therapist said I should be on this drug forever. So that's what I did. But the drug caused all this headaches and made my sleep terrible. The more I live the more I feel God never intervenes in life, if he exists at all, and the ark of Noah, the flood and all the stories in the Bible are literally fairy tales.
I will try cold-turkey off this awful headache inducing drug and see how I feel. If I can't sleep so be it. I'm sick of the headache. Utterly sick of it.
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