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Originally Posted by shovelquest
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I just told my mom on WhatsApp what I was afraid to tell her, and she was very nice to me. It looks like I overthinked and overreacted in my mind. Guess that's that OCD that my angry father taught all my life. Looks like it really was only my father after all, and my mother is the nice one. YES, I have DADDY ISSUES confirmed. Finally I know this. I didn't expect my mother to react so calm. I thought she would be angry like my dad.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, asperger, psychosis when I was 16 and since then I am taking anti-psychotics. I'm reducing the dosage now slowly and feeling more in control and happier. I will get it down to 2.5 mg soon, it is 5 mg now. But man I do really have OCD and fear like a child. I am so nervous and fearful when I reduce the dosage. On 7.5 mg Olanzapine Zyprexa I was simply dulled and lethargic. Now I'm more in control and can feel feelings again, but they're strong. But I started to workout again and I don't have a constant headache anymore.