Of course she brought me along. I wanted to go. I want to be there for the people I care about when they need me.
All we did was sit in the lobby and wait in silence. Occasionally someone would look up when a doctor left a room, then glance into one another's eyes, then look back at the floor.
What the fuck can you even say...? What words will make any of this more bearable or less painful?
I really dont give a fuck what any of you think of me but if your mom called me and said "can you be there for my daughter/son?" I would do it. I'll weep for your death, and ill be there for your family because you're just too selfish to be there for them yourself.
It could just be that I'm a decent human being with a full range of emotions. People like that in a friend.
The asshole part stuff wasnt for you. Just kinda upset by this whole ordeal. Its not over by a long shot, either. All the clothes he wore, the sheets he slept on, his car, all that shit has to be taken care of. Having to call his work and clients to tell them that he has passed away and to please stop calling his phone. Yeah, his phone kept ringing... can you fucking imagine?
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