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Originally Posted by Cecily
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I know I lost my mind on Adderall. I sure AF wasn't getting monthly follow ups. The shitty thing is, my QoL was better even though I was getting progressively more and more paranoid and feeling palpable "darkness" internally on a daily basis. Thank fucking god I thought to myself.. I'm not really in touch with reality anymore. Is this psychosis? Was doing a lot better 3 days later.
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Bubroprion was the worst. I really did try to kill myself because of that drug and it really enabled me. Manic or not it was the purely logical course of action and Bubroprion made me fearless and help me ignore the pain. That's not even an antipsychotic.
I had been using some antipsychotics offlabel to deal with the stressful abuse and PTSD an individual was putting me through, but they just stopped working and all I was getting was the side effects and the anxiety went through the roof because I was sick, vulnerable, and helpless.
Without the support of my therapist I was on a fast track to haloperidol and a permanent in patient facility. Thankfully people backed me up, called the police, and I was able to get a grip on myself without my abuser around. So they let me go. No medication.