Bonkers found FLIMSY excuse to unperson me to escape his sense of rejection when a taller man began playing video games with the two of us. He was one of my first experiences with misogyny and the various horrors men leap into doing when their egos need protecting. Die on that hill with him then; he abandoned a good friend too. You stand with fools against the only friend you've got. heh.
Seen thirsty men go that way many times in flocks. Spent a lot of my life breaking hearts whether I want to or not, I guess. Anyway, it's a harder lot than it sounds like and definitely the lonelier way than finding excuses to flee shrieking from emotional connection. You at least get the solidarity of sitting on the porch with the rest of the men shouting the N-word at passing people who are different in any way. You'll never understand I reckon, and I'm not interested in men whose love burns so shallow as that.
There *are* those who remain decent even in rejection, and funnily enough they are the ones I can't bear to see lonely. Go figure. You know, ppl who'd do something good for me out of love, instead of transmogrifying me into an object to be either seized or to avoid the sight of. Having been as a yout a butcher of ladies' feelings in a similar vein myself I hate to tell you, but -- it means you're a very selfish f@g pushing your insecurities out into real space and torturing women with them. You should be real embarrassed, like the kind that keeps you up at night with burning red face. Just realize you're a psychotic asshole and lee me alone, I am done with you pokesan.
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