I feel way too much. And my impulses are really strong and I have to expend a great deal of effort to reign them in.
I prefer being hurt though. I would rather face honest rage or anger or whatever any day. Passive cold manipulative rational behavior really trips me out especially when someone is sneakily trying to hurt me. My skin crawls. Thankfully none of u r rly like that on the forums. In person may be another matter.
Sometimes I'm afraid to say or do anything tho. Because I am not usually spoiling for a fight and I don't want to hurt any of you. So I worry a lot. Then usually end up impulsively posting.
There's no grand strategy here.
Hope you're doing well. Thanks for sharing your feelings or unfeelings.
Op isn't about any one person. It's mostly selfish and introspective.
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