[starkind]

But other nights, especially summer nights, because kitchen gets hot I drink loads of water, in the evening and that causes some problem waking up to pee

This is less a problem and more just your body cleansing itself. Yes you can see it as a problem but, it would be worse if your body didn't experience discomfort and you didn't pee in the toilet. So the discomfort is helpful.

never have I experienced something like this, where it seemed like I physically hurt myself in my dream world and transferred that into this realm. A big bruise and muscle tension making it hard to move my entire right side.

Your mind and body is awakening pulling a neck muscle means something it is connected to your subconcious. This is partly why it happened more in your sleep. This can happen during waking hours when we are not fully with ourselves and make mistakes. It's OK to survive these and just pay attention to why it might be your neck?

Is this related to rigid and inflexible thinking? The throat chakra is in the neck, if you are expressing yourself in a harmful way this may be the bodies way of saying hey, your rage screaming, it hurts please stop hurting me with these angry words. Suppressing them isn't OK either. What are you afraid of? Are there any particular stresses with work or family? Maybe your body is simply telling you to slow down a little bit and give yourself a little more time to communicate with your co-workers. Being a Chef is important so be mindful of the compromises your willing to make. Would you cut your salary by 20% to have the help of a sue chef? Starkind doesn't know if you are a big deal chef or what you are capable of. Who knows it could be unrelated to work at all and just be something berried in your past. Some unforgiving aspect. We bow our heads in guilt or shame, maybe you are being prideful. There is no one answer and only you can find the answers to what may be holding you back here, or strangling you.

I like my esoteric explanation where life asked me to slow down, reach for things that make sense to me and not take shit for granted.

Yes. Be expressive. Write more gently. Be open to ideas and things that disgust you without a kneejerk response of 'fuck that that is so fucking stupid your a dumb #$$%%' Your body is letting you know it's time to move into a higher space of being were you can say. Shooting people is wrong for just having a warrant, why don't we try to incentivize good behavior for people living on the margins of society?

Starkind doesn't know and is just spitballing. [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

It's probably not your bed. Getting a new bed won't hurt if it is time. It's ok to give that thought attention. Maybe you feel like you're unworthy, incapable of a new bed and won't even consider it at least? When you are in bed, how does it feel. Do you feel comfortable and safe before you go to sleep? What kind of bed would you really like? That is a most primalistic, root chakra-esque basic answer.

Maybe just find a thing that needs delegation and don't micromanage something? IDK!!! you can only answer that. There are guides and healers, which Starkind is not. Though starkind like's to speculate [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]