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Originally Posted by Gravydoo II
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If you ALWAYS spare their feelings, what does that do to you?? What you're doing now.. Pretty obvious you resent them, now.
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Yeah. It makes me angry, resentful anxious and sick. And I'm constantly looking over my shoulder with distrust.
It's fucking me up.
I'm not Jesus and I don't want to be.
But I lived with an angry shameful asshole. So I absolutely refuse to pursue this. I can't handle escalation. When I tried just a tiny bit. It escalated.
I'm back to locking my doors and being 90% avoident. Fuck it.
Like I said I really needed to vent. I can't safely do anything.
I snuck out and made a meal and snuck back. No one ever knew I was there, and I cleaned shit. That's the only good thing I can do.