This is more for me to say out loud
Especially due to theory, (Which I believe at this point, due to witnessing parts of my brain shut down and I still feel like I am really there.) that our brain has evolved to primarily be focused on consciousness. Which make sense because our brain probably wanted to survive getting hit in the head by a lion more than anything. I think the brain may just be more complicated than we think and often we think we thought a thought and its not real. Thus the illusion of character.
Which is annoying because then I may feel guilty for not doing something because I feel I could have when I could not have, and horrible people may hold it against me. Especially because my character and mind may be that of a child, where I have died inside along time ago but I am in denial, so my brain may tell me things are ok when they are not. Thus the ability to create motivation is long dead but I believe everything is fine, thus leading to the illusion that I may have been "Lazy".
I also think there is a thing called male depression. (Must I say its a theory? No more thinking or correcting typing please.) Where my male brain may be designed to be a warrior and not feel suffering in which others would suffer immensely.
Edit: i already have to edit because the phrase character in the first and second paragraph are from different subjects. or so my short term memory tells me, as I dont want want to reread it. so maybe it wasn't
my brain needs to veg out.
The wash machine, close in. soaped. Need to store because potatoes. *Brain off for 1,000 years*
especially because I think antifa is on the wrong part of my brain. so learning my lesson from playing natural selection two. if you cant hit the skulks by aiming at them, then try not aiming. thus the theory of not real "force" (star wars) in combat, and then using the force to try to listen to the wrong (other/dead) brain department, which i guessed was my subconcious organizer, and then trying to communicate back, because they are on the wrong brain channel
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