[magnetaress]

didn't read OP, but it's just best to ignore things you can't change, here's a flow chart:

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There are some things in my life right now and I

am having a very hard time. The main reason is my own father. I never had a good

relationship with him.

I joined the military and got strong enough to kill him. When the time came, I stood in front of his car and told him to run me the fuck down like the coward he is. He backed off, called the police (they had a good heartwarming talk with me as it was my driveway and asked if I wanted to press charges, I didn't) and he disappeared from my life essentially at that point. I'm sort of glad I didn't just walk up behind him and crush the rest of his spine. He is a victim of circumstances far beyond his control. Killing him would have been cowardly, effortless, and meaningless. I still get anxiety about interacting with him, but thankfully, I have the freedom and boundaries developed to finally not be forced into another confrontation. Regardless, I have forgiven him for his mistakes, though those mistakes still torment me. And I know he is far from able to correct his flaws. I wish there was a good way to let him know I don't want him to suffer and be able to find peace on earth while he is still living and in fact do care about him, that's why I was so upset. But it's not safe, and I haven't figured that part out.

Hope this helps.

P.S. Tunabros you are not wrong and in some ways you're right, I don't mind if you consider me CAP. I am not a female. In fact right now I am in a barely passable trash spiral, I don't go out in public and everyone is right about me. *only if you want consensual online E-hugs and kisses* also I don't think you were ever like mean or e---fensive to me or /w/e at least your not spamming my threads with silly youtubeman videos afaik.

For what it's worth it doesn't sound like your dad hates you, but he is eternally a fuckup and your mom is enabling him, and he needs more help than you or she can give, and going to prison will be just as likely a death sentence for him, or he'll be recruited into some hardcore gang that enables his drug problem and strips whatever is left of his humanity.

SOrry I don't have really good advice, just stick with the picture I posted, its the only advice anyone else has given me that has mattered in my brief time here. Maybe don't join any militaries, you seem innocent and sweet at heart. Stay that way if you can.

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I tell my friends I have like 20 transgender friends thanks to these forums and I like, lord it over their democrat asses and use it to win arguments with them all the time.

Thanks gals!

Tell them most of them aren't democrats that will really rustle their jimmies.

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Get a ho pregnant to satisfy ur biological imperative

Only then can you quest in peace ✌️

Please don't.

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Work hard at improving yourself, not necessarily for others although money is a gateway to services that you can use for self improvement, and gaining knowledge and health while you still can. The rest will come naturally. When you hit 40, if you make it that far, the inevitable decline will happen and you will suffer greatly if you are already obese, addicted to substances, and sick and confused by the simplest things in nature.

Where there is a will there is a way, and the time will come that you can express yourself in better, more meaningful ways. You may not bear fruit immediately, although some circumstances allow this, but there are many paths, and truths. Be disciplined, you can while still being spontaneous and exploring what life has to offer. Impulsivity has harmed me a lot. Be patient, it is a very strong virtue.