Back in 2001 after the towers got blewn up I, homeless and retarded signed up to the military to blow shit up and be an angry fgt 1st class (not my actchual rank but close enough).
I was really dumb and flunked Jump school because I was a major fgt and retard.
Then I was asigned the USASMA as a nerd to keep the bigger idiots trained. That was pretty fun for awhile. They were really cool ass motherfuckers and I loved it, except I was still retarded and mentally ill.
I shipped out to Drum, to go hang with the 10th mountain division, but attempted suicide and they got kinda pissed at me, but were real cool dudes about it anyway, even offered to let me stay on base and work as a civvy, so I got out of the service after 4 yrs of being a loser and a failure.
I left there to go to SLC where I hooked up with this psycho girl because i was a desperate incel. Who was probably the best thing that ever happened to me, and tried to knife myself in the throat and most likely succeeded, and this is hell and my punishment. She stole all my old cameras and cool file photos of me in uniform, and my dad has all my other pictures. (we don't talk still after all these years)
But if you want to see my award from USASMA and my photoID and a few beach shots and xmas shots for u to compare you can click the spoiler below. I can't promise it will stay online for ever, i'll probalby delete it in a few days or hrs.
Yeah. I am a total and complete failure, but I got to hobnob with some incredible people in the military. Some amazing foreign dignitaries. Go fuck up but some how graduate PLDC at Fort Bliss back in like 03 or 4 or whatever. And I don't regret it a bit. They probably put all the suicide prevention stuff up there because of me.
Look. My life isn't something I'm proud of. I did what I had to do to fucking survive. And if I had it to do over again, I would have fought harder, and been more grateful for the opportunity to serve along side these incredible people and I would still be serving them today, even if it is just a warm fucking meal in the VA hospital.
Just getting to go to Ft Benning as a male, before they unisexed everything and know what it was like to go through that amazing training program with an Amazing Drill Sgt who took my crazy ass want to kill and shoot up my school, and formed it into an honorable fucking soldier. We sung songs of glorious carnage and I learned that despite all my failings and horrible circumstance, despite being locked the fuck up in the insane asylum as a little kid and tortured with psychiatric medicine. I still could make the bar, the cut.
I just wish I still could. And I'm sad that the world is so fucked up, because I really do want to fix it, no matter what it takes. And I am a lot less angry for having had the experience and privilage of being in the Army. Everyone should consider it. It will make you a better person, no matter who you are. Or what retarded shit you believe in. I just hope we don't have to send poor kids to get chopped the fuck up for some petty ass bullshit politics one day.