To respond specifically to BlackBellamy and any of those who don't have my point of view.
While I appreciate your advice and attempt at getting my head in the right place, unfortunately for some people like myself games like EverQuest are one of my only sources of happiness and motivation in my life due to the situation I am in.
I brought up my physical health specifically for one reason and that was to clarify why I didn't just chalk this up as an unlucky experience and just hold out a couple of years for the next server. Unfortunately due to my disease, my chances at getting to see the launch of Green 2.0 are not very good. I didn't post this solely to cry and get sympathy tears believe it or not. In fact, even with my circumstances, I rarely get truly depressed lately. Call it what you like, but not getting a Guise before Legacy item removal is one of the rare occurrences that really knocked the wind out of me.
I had my warrior epic pre-Luclin on live. The whole reason I am depressed about the mask is because the item has been discontinued. Like I pointed out previously, a lot of this pixel obsession is in our head and is linked in large part to how we perceive it.
I understand getting an epic on this server is something not everyone is going to experience, but the fact that the item is "still obtainable" lets my brain stop obsessing over obtaining it. Precisely why I was not obsessed with a manastone, because I know that obtaining one is at the very least possible even after legacy item removal.
I know GM events are a long shot for anyone involved, but just knowing that there could be a possibility of GM events happening throughout the year, no matter how slim the chance, helps to allow my brain to focus on other things.
So at this point, the best I can do if I want to hold onto this dream of mine, while also not focusing on it so much that it takes away from my ability to enjoy the game with friends and family, is to campaign for GM events.
I still stand by the idea, being that this is a free to play project, maybe the reason why there has not been GM events recently is because the administration for any myriad of reasons lacks the desire or motivation to interact with and reward the players. Personally, rather than just give up and assume it may never happen, I would rather try to work with the powers that be to see what we have to do as players to increase GM interaction and special events by showing them that we are invested in the server and the community.
We don't know Project 1999's situation. We don't know how well donations are doing. For all we know there is a possibility that a lot of the infrastructure for this server may still come out of pocket. Regardless, I am doing my best to stay positive, move forward with the game as best I can while also not completely giving up on my basically lifelong EverQuest goals.
TL;DR: I am too sick to go "get a life". EverQuest is one of, if not my favorite game of all time. One of the only things I always wanted to do on this game was to have a Guise of the Deceiver on my warrior. It is the main reason I decided to come back and play the Classic era on Green. I understand and apologize if the thought of a grown man having obtaining a cosmetic item from a 21 year old game on his bucket list makes you cringe, but as they say, it is what it is.
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