I just spent a week on a liveaboard dive boat in the maldives, and in two weeks i'm taking a month long sabbatical from work to go stay with some friends in a cabin in Nagano Japan.
I also sometimes play a bard on Project 99 because I enjoyed everquest when I was a teenager and it's fun and nostalgic.
Sounds like you're projecting some repressed feelings, OP? I suggest trying to start a meditation routine. Maybe even some yoga. It will help you deal with some of these emotions and become happier with yourself. Look into the app Insight Timer. It's free.
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