The western model of health isn’t about healing. That being said, I’m doing better, yes. I was reading last night about estrogen modulating nMDA receptors in the brain, which are associated with depersonalization, basically a semi-solipsistic state where you feel disconnected from your body and the world doesn’t feel quite real. Estrogen cures that for transwomen and brings us back to our bodies.
It’s strange that I never conceptualized my experience like that, but I think that’s how I drifted through life for my first few decades. I thought I was just a nihilist.
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