I’m curious how sexual sides interact with what you get from hormones anyway. At least mine doesn’t have weight gain as a side effect. Think that and being conscious of my emotions being capped at palpable min/max always turned me off of them. I think... this is the same one I tried a decade ago and it actually did help. I just wasn’t me.
Ty about “so brave” lol. I’m absolutely terrified tbh, but I’m able to get out of the house and desensitize myself to interpersonal interaction. 50-50 on anxiety choking my voice up when I talk to strangers, but I’ve gotta do this or I’m gonna relapse to neckbeard.
I credit CBD during late 2017 and early 2018, along my canvassing job this past fall. CBD seemed to lessen my lifelong crippling social anxiety permanently and knocking on 80 stranger’s doors at day got me over the rest of it. I feel like I’m definitely below clinical threshold for it now and just deal with what I assume is normal anxiety. I can effectively kill new anxieties in the course of a week or so with 2-3 exposures. It’s fucking nice.
Just throw yourself into things - like you have been and it’s not so scary after whatever worst case scenario doesn’t happen. Your field reports and insights helped me out considerably with all this btw.
Wish I had a mind trick to make depression fuck off, but it’s wrecking my prospects atm so desperate measures in pill form for the moment.
There actually is one come to think of it. I’ve seen it suggested depresssion is due to a disregulated circadian rhythm. There’s been some success with keeping people up 48 hours at a time on lithium with estimated 5% perma success per treatment cycle. I might try to experiment on myself with it, minus lithium. Might just play nirvana’s to be safe.
I used to work graveyard shift for like 8 years so I’m sure mine got trashed in between that and video game binging during the same period.
Just considered that quitting video games might also be likely reason for the anxiety relief. Lack of gaming only correlates to positive things in my experience. EQ was the real neurotoxin.
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