I was a GM on a popular NWN server like 15 years ago. It was a server I started on not knowing a single person but I was active in the community, became friends with the admins and was eventually given a position of power. There is a very real temptation to abuse your powers especially when you have no way of being caught. I failed to resist it and gave in to my desires to summon items and gold for my characters and for a few other people. During this time I ran fun GM events and helped out a lot of people and went on being the best GM I could be despite doing a lot of shady shit.
After several months I started to feel really guilty for betraying the admins/communities trust behind the scene and turned myself in. I sent the admins a message detailing everything I had done, logged off from the forums, uninstalled the game and never looked back. In the end it felt bad to live a double life and be a hypocrite suspending/banning people for breaking the rules while at the same time doing things much worse.
I only had a few interactions with Sirken and he was always good by me. My situation and whatever his situation is are slightly different but I empathize with him. It isn't as easy as people think to resist the urge to abuse power whether its in an Elfsim or IRL. Best of luck to you Sirken wherever the future takes you.
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