[Jauna]

At first I actually had rants and flames and shit I wanted to get off my chest and soon after I fed off the attention and started making nonsensical posts just for that attention addiction that you all gave me not knowing it would corrupt me for months afterwards.

Soon afterwards I started noticing other forum names and personalities and such and kinda saw them as a threat to my attention but for so long I did not think much of it and moved on to make more attention seeking threads.

But awhile back Lulz got banned, and then banned again, and then unbanned and then that weird feeling flared up inside of me about the daily/weekly "me and yours" thread popped up again and mid-writing my reply to them it was then I realized that what I was doing to you all. Writing random shit for attention because you (more or less) a big thing in my life and I got addicted to your attention you gave me, negative or not.

After realizing I was going to complain about something that I thirsted for in the past I realize at how wrong I was then, not knowing how bad it was now.

And for that I am sorry. If I remember this after I wake up and sober I will at the very least try to not be an attention seeking cunt. Remember the word, try.