I ate chobani yogurt and steel cut oats + a plastic packaged applesauce (in a vain attempt to ease my phyisical pain and suffering) and used a bottle of bleach to clean the counter my fam left old crusted lumps of raw beef and blood on. I used an appliance made in China from farmed Russian minerals and a lightbulb from god knows where. + power from probably the BP oil spill off the coast of FL here. + mad coal energy from the coal power, which has created massive mercury poisoning in the fish most of the NATIVE INDIGINOUS pplz ate (causing them a culturally specific diseases around murcury poisoning and lead poisoning) (all of this is actually well documented and understood and highly provable, and extremely probable)
I'm pretty sure the plastic + the bleach + my (succesfully repressed) wrathful feelings was pretty all around sinful
It is one of the main causes of ideation of the self termination
If this is the universe, does this universe deserve existence?
Purely a philosophical question m8ts
The thing is GOD says don't do it, live, and suffer the consequences of living. But god also says don't hurt ppl or endorse the hurtings of others. I feel like this is a major catch22, God will be mad if I end it. God will be mad if I keep struggling forward.
I hate myself, but not because I'm cute and have boobs.
Maybe I should have poured the bleach into my apricot flavored gruel?
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