Ps I'm really unstable. But you already know this. The least I can do is some terrible shitposting.
I want to believe there was / is some hint of concern in there.
That would be ridiculous. The last thing you want to do is let me think that. I'm way to crazy.
I kinda want to right an amazing public journal entry just because I can. I don't think so though.
I post here for the same reasons you do. Read the thread title. I'm ready to die. I'm still alive though, and I've a slight confusion as to whether that's good or not. I mean. I'm ok with what inevitably will happen. I'm a bit too tired, and insane to make sense of the life I still have.
The twitch bucks thing is cute. I'm old though. I also don't really game. Idk. I'm more down for some of that irl whoring. I skyped, it was ok, the guy was sweet, I enjoyed it some, I don't think I could do that regularly enough to make a decent income. For pesonal reasons I can't get into publicly. Well. If I wasn't such an old toaster, I'd be out there frakking with other cylons.
There's nothing really to say. Forums really are drugs. Especially for shut ins with bad social anxiety and anger.
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