dang monster post it was a good read. i think avoiding alphas to stay alpha yourself is a bad decision big boi, u get sharper around the big doggs.
dang duke we astroboys. and the number of times i been called "two faced" or "phony" by smalldicks is off the chain. Big n*ggaz recognize tho that my cast of characters is the realest it can get, I wear many different faces I dont put on some fake ass character identity
"this is me". Human consciousness is very malleable think about when your driving a car and how it begins to feel like your body, your awareness of youre physical biological self becomes distant as it becomes a part of something bigger. Thats how my personality works, i move from vehicle to vehicle, pick the best one for the situation and i got a big garage. Sometimes I wear a powered suit to drive 1 of my monster trucks, it's a layered thing, the "core" self should be as small as it can possibly be. its not good for commanders and soldiers to have likes and dislikes. Nothing fake about it, which vehicle is my "real" self? The one I wear when I'm busting a nut? I think smart people can read me like a book anyway, I can't help being totally transparent, this makes lower castes uncomfortable when they see i really am a real live killer swangin dick and just can't believe ppl like me exist.
p99 meetup would read alot like your description of your college days honestly. See
Project 1999 True Life Cucking Story for what happens with a known 10/10 visible abs beast goes out on the town w/ p99 folks.