yeah, cringy, i would never want someone to hear my voice but a las some people arent as willing or able to blend/stealth and thats were genderqueer expression and most non-binary people either settle for that and sort of move on with life, or whatever.
I'd say that if I had to rate myself on a scale of 1-10 dysphoria/not able to function/live as a man wise i'd be close to 8 somewhere. That motivates me to be as binary and "cisnormative" as possible. It's been really really rough on me, and in fact this is the last place were I really care to even be "openly trans".
Some trans people can't cope, can't deal with it, no amount of transition can help them, due to circumstances and the world in general or their own in-ability to acheive what they want, set realistic goals.
It hurts pretty bad sometimes when people tear me down, don't care to understand were I'm coming from, or can't and kneejerk reaction back in a mean and cruel way.
At least I have the ability to IDGAF and to for the most part isolate myself from other peoples judgement. Otherwise I would have never made it this far, male, or female.
Sadly not a lot of trans people have the same fortune as me, or others, and the jury is still out there's a lot I still struggle with as a woman and as a human being suffering dysphoria and having a body that doesn't match my own internal mental scape.
On the bright side, I do pass well enough, and have some cis female privilage which, while not in the least the goal of transition, gives me hope, and helps me face the things I can't fix or change or overcome right now.
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