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I'm a bit confused at wut your trying 2 illustrate. abstract this..
I was sad depressed suicidal in my own pity pool
I sought enlightenment and help and love my life sucked... but I kept trying to find good and be good
I kept an open mind and learned a ton of cool metaphysical shit I allowed myself to start believe ing in a better future and I started to havev gratitude for what I was left with.
well that freed me up to crawl out of bed and go outside.
that freed me up to go to the beach
that gave me motivation to keep living etc
then I find myself in school and then working...none of which are goals in and of themselves but stepping stones... but I'm finding I want to be there because I want to be there...
not because I'm supposed to be or have 2 be or should or need.. but because that's where I am being me now...
k this is hard to stream of consciousness mode over the cellphone txt.
but the correlation of the two aren't a causation.
I just had to figure out were I wanted to be and believe it was possible then so easy to just step towards that state and be
there's some gr8 books on this (thoughb I am infurnced by esoteric stuff)