[Azure]

Originally Posted by Softcore PK [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Azure, are you seeing a gender therapist? You need one of those before they start handing out hormones, right?

Yes, I've seen several phsychologists, doctors, and a psychiatrist now.

Be very careful with what you do to yourself. You may be transgendered, but it seems sort of obvious that you have some other issues regardless. Maybe you should work those out some before committing to anything. Not hating, but this is a huge life decision and it might be a bad idea to jump right in with the body-altering drugs.

I've done a lot of work on those issues and put a lot of thought into transitioning. I personally deem it worth the risk.

In everyone that takes hormones (especially when they're taking it for something like this, which requires large doses and big changes) it tends to throw their endocrine system out of homeostasis and this can cause a lot of problems even as it resolves the gender thing. Mental problems, physical problems.

I have a lot of weird medical ... anomalies. On the other hand some of the physiologic and metabolic weirdness I go through might be helped by having an endocrinologist work on things. Like I said, my hormones in the past have been outside of the norm to begin with.

Just be careful.

Thanks [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.] I will be and am. I could be self medicated. But I'd much prefer medical help.

Originally Posted by stonez138 [You must be logged in to view images. Log in or Register.]

Nobody is going to hire you.



You are seriously deluded if you think anyone believes your a woman, except maybe Mr. Magoo.

You would be surprised, the girl at walmart I were I bought some boyshorts today (oh boy I was tucked all day) and it felt nice ... (IKR, shouldn't it have been painful?) It was nice to have that junk all tucked up and not hanging around down there... like holy shit I could stand with m y legs closed. It felt almost more normal/right. Weird, but that's how this seems to work...

Well, she said my boyshorts (a type of girl panty) were cute, and looked comfy. I had to pay with cash and, I smiled and nodded and she said I was fine when I mentioned the price was unexpected.

Sure, maybe she saw a dude in a dress. But I'm not tormented for being me.

My biggest fear. The thing that held me back was being tortured mercilessly like when I was a kid for being different. I was really afraid of how I would be treated in society.

Shit is not as bad as one may think. Do I think I'll be more accepted? No, do I think the grass is greener on the other side? It has it's ups and downs.

Which side do I identify with, I'm a woman. I feel comfortable living my life as a woman. I deserve all the rights and privileges a woman has. And I'll take all the bullshit that comes with being a woman. I'll not let other peoples convictions dictate what kind of woman I am.

This is probably a story not told that often. You have people like katrik and you have people in full stealth. And I know many of you don't care to know anything or think I'm crazy for sharing anything so personal and important with the public. Why not make a blog about it?

Well, I have lived a long time in the EQ community. To be honest it's time to let go if it a lot more.

But, ain't worried about any bigots not giving me a job or killing me for my personal choices. I could die from Elliot Rodgers mentality any day. U don't have to be a trannie to catch the golden bb.