Dude, there are what, 7 billion people on this planet? That means there are tons of assholes. But by and large, they are still a vast minority to all the cool as fuck people you can and should be interacting with every day.
Avoiding real therapy is "macho 101" for most guys, but fuck that shit. Get yourself to a therapist, and work on some of this stuff. Don't say you'll do it tomorrow, or on Monday. Call someone right now, get started RIGHT NOW.
Self-loathing is a somewhat natural part of everyone's makeup in my opinion. But when it becomes what defines you, rather than just that small piece of doubt in your mind, you have to clean that shit up.
Ultimately, you are transposing your dislike of yourself onto the people in the world around you - most of whom either don't give two squirts of moose piss about you, or might find you to be a pretty fucking cool dude. And if they really do hate you because of what they see on the outside...well, they are in the minority and easily dismissed.
Forgive yourself for your shortcomings, don't assume what anyone else thinks of you, and get that therapy brother.
You're only 24 for god's sake, you could be the person you WANT to be by the time you turn 25...no doubt about it.
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