you wont understand ever, probably
 

it's when you ache to hold someone and be close to them, it's hard to explain because I never wanted this and didn't expect it. I guess sometimes you meet someone you are naturally drawn to even if you don't want to be, but I can imagine it.

at this point
i just want 2 days alone with her and thats not to try and convert her, its for personal enjoyment




as a psychopathic serial killer the cut on the neck
i will always remember you

I probably won't understand. I wanted to be with someone so bad once

Some how I blacked out. And I hope that I didn't hurt anyone 🙏

When I came too I was still alive and everyone was safe. We broke up after that. There wasn't much drama. What got me through it was knowing they would be safer and happier without me. And I was able to move on. I didn't know it at the time. I'm happier now too. And I needed the freedom. To grow and flower into the new world I'm in now ✨.

And I hope they are too.

Being able to say I love you without needing anything. And able to say I love you and let go at the same time. Is good. Don't want to hurt the people we love. When we are rejected. We should be open to the good experience we can have afterwards walking away from that with loving kindness. For ourselves and others. Sometimes people just aren't ready. Sometimes they are and the universe. Destiny just has something else in store. Attachments can be really painful.

You deserve to feel good whether you are with someone or not or your dream person or not.

As for me. I'm the long run. I've learned I'm a painful person to be with sometimes. Yet I have found absolute happiness in solitude. No need to brush my teeth everyday. Or epilate my legs. When I feel sick. No one is dependent on me. No kids are going to suffer because I couldn't get outta bed today. And I have different opportunities.

I'm talking about myself a lot cuz I can't talk shit about you. I hardly know most ppl here. And those I do I'm not putting their lives on display for others to become attached too.

I know this is terribly rambling and incoherent. Butt I really hope this helps!

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Those thumbs are fuckin with me.

What's going on with those thumbs?

It's the angle of the light like making the shadow long. Distorted.

“We’re just a couple of besties!”
“Yeah!” [giving a strained smile while mashing down a combination of discontent and repressed sexual frustration]

Not from me lol?

I do think Paisley and WokeCat have personal issues butt they aren't dumb or bad. Just ppl. At least they are striving for more and socializing.

That explanation never seemed to fly with my ma. I’d be like “get off my back, Ma! This is an MMO, and I’m on voice chat! I’ve been talking to people all day, that’s socializing!”

It’s gotta be in person or bust ;)

People with major physical disabilities get a pass

Yeah I kinda pretty much basically agree. Even ppl with physical disability benefit from face time.

Best thing to happen for me in the last few years was group therapy. Even tho it was just voip.

If I could go inperson to a temple and make food. Or carry bags of rice. And do group prayer and meditation. I'd like to do that.

I don't want to like freak out in public tho and that's also a challenge. It's v hard to remain calm around even ppl i care deeply for at times. To not get to into my personal issues.

I still try tho. Was out in the front yard with my neighbor yesterday. Giving him my best.

The nice thing about the in person requirement is it forces different potential friend groups from online

You’d hope you wouldn’t see it as much with adults as I do counseling kids but it’s still possible to lose all of your friends at once due to drama/cliques. Then it’s really handy to have a back up friend group