My feelings are ok.
 

Emotionally I'm just tired. It's been pretty hard to really feel much and when I do it's shitty impulses to self harm. Rly.

So it's been great being really Emotionally numb most of the time even when I feel like hurting myself there's just this massive wall to climb really that is keeping me pretty safe and from doing anything really truly harmful I guess.

We started working 9-5 jobs when we started kindergarten and we've just been worn down like an old shoe.

Truth

I have recently decided some sort of primitive lifestyle would be...

thanks guys my feelings are still ok today, got the cat litter shovled and a shower and no bites today

Hey there. I know it can be rough on your psyche to play this game, especially toxic reading through the forums. Try not to let everyone’s lashing out get to you.

I don't really see many people lashing out at Starkind, but Ok. I don't really even think that tangentially applies. Anyhow

Yep. Still alive. Gwaihir is right. I'm good. Feelings are totally OK.

There was definitely a time where I was really upset and individually angry and disappointed with ppl around here. But nope. Not anymore. Not for a decent while for sure.

You are all pretty great across whatever spectrums of stuff ya'll r on.

It's been a privilege interacting with all u guys.

Here's to feeling ok tomorrow.

Cheers.

~starkind

Tomorrow I'm a be putting in 10 to 12 hours, as will I throughout the entire week along with the next several weekends till camping in September. Got two pairs of orthodontics to pay for over the next year, should be able to do it in half that if I stay diligent.

On the bright side, if I lock this orthodontic surgeon in at his agreed pricing this month, I'll save a ton of venezuelan monopoly dollars over the next 18 months of inflation-unadjusted denominated payments.

Good teeth are a great boon. It's a good reason to work and spend funny money on. One of the things I don't regret at all.