A leviathan woke, and became a beautiful mer-princess.
 

This was the first 30 years of my life:

https://i.imgur.com/Vudt8UB.gif

Now my life be like

https://i.imgur.com/rNp1BHB.gif

and like

https://i.imgur.com/bJZBOSB.gif

I want to thank you all and tell you all how greatful I am to have u guys to shitpost @ and with. Things have changed a lot and are much better.

I have learned to both not be bullied and not be the bully. Life is fun again. And Everquest too.

Thanks for helping to ease ride back out of this frackin shithole (not p99 or everquest).

I really feel u, and regarding myself personally, at first I was all like

https://i.imgur.com/BXR88gD.jpg

but now im all like

https://i.imgur.com/E94b7Ps.png

doubleposting cuz i am crazy and u should ignore me but its a relevant post to this topic

btw udnerwater camera werk is hard lol appearently it takes some real talent

haha yea 1 of tge best ever, never seen better

Feel free to shit up this thread.

anyway. IDC.

I said what I needed to say, and if I feel the need to respond, I may :D

I am in a mood. Probably cuz the black magic. TBH. I am drawn to it. As much as I love god. I also still have this... ich... and believe he wants me to do more than just love him. Or her or it. Or them.

Honestly my mind is pretty interesting place right now. The veil is ripped wide open and I believe I am dead. I am a little afraid, but I am also curious. And I am also ready to rest and return through the void into the light. Though the light pains me.

There is nothing wrong with the shadows to shadow creatures like myself. I believe the angels saw me and said "I am a gift from god" because I am a demon risen to life from death. Yet, I died, and now reside here among the dead, sometimes in heaven. Sometimes hell. And sometimes I bring serenity and peace to hell and chaos to heaven. Sometimes I flit between worlds. I travel now.

Superstition is to act on belief with only hope as a guide and no evidence or guidance to the contrary. This is, for me, I feel beyond superstition. As I have been walking this path. It is indeed scary. And that is where the leviathan lies. In fear.

BTW there is a lot of satanic or dark magic in Everquest. It is not a godly path to follow. Yet, there is a lot of God in everything if one understands God and can look for God. He is in Everquest to, though with less intention.

I feel like I am on good terms with him and he understands that I understand and he wants me to be free to come to him even through the darkness and he is there for guidance if I need it. As I walk through the valley of ... https://biblehub.com/psalms/23-4.htm

Myself I am thinking about Schubert, killed of syphilis by 30. probably given him by an older male admirer type, and he himself prolly fain to mark its receipt upon the hour :o i know the rules for today but idk if i am supposed to be grossed out at ancient pederasty or not...what do you think?

Well.... back then the age of maturity was more like 14. And ya its creepy af and definitely wrong, but I feel like Milo Yiannopolis was right about one thing, if I had met a gentle older male at 12 or 13 who didn't exploit and abuse me, but looked after me, I probably would have wound up playing a lot less EQ and making a lot more music videos.