I do have drug problems
 

It's stupid

but yea I been goin off the deepend on opiates and benzos the past 2 months.

I get sick if I dont have some type of fuckedupness in my system. Weed cuts it but I am surrounded by *****s I shouldna hung with and goes off the deepend

how do you people survive sober. I've been perpetually fucked up from 13 on

what I mean is how i rewire my brain to accept truth and love??????

You can't. You're already broken, the day you die is a day that humanity and the world in general gets a bit better.

Your condition is simply the result of a combination of symptoms caused by your own weakness of character.

without revealing too much, im gonna say i feel for you man.

it takes a lot of time, a lot of work and a lot of pain, but you have to do it. thats no way to live, brotha, trust me.

Going to tell you what every counselor/'expert'/doctor you talk to is gonna tell you: You have to relocate, get away from those people who are bringing you down, and never talk to them again. You will not succeed if you dont do this, period.

Look into detox/outpatient/inpatient services in your area. If you're where I was, theres no other way to stop, you can't do it on your own.

If you want to talk more hit me up, but honestly you are going to have to do a lot of shit you dont want to do to get out of this. You posting here makes me think you want out badly enough to do that, but idk you or your situation, so maybe not.

good luck, dont stop, and keep your head up

you know answer to this

take heart and keep faith, spend a night with bible and u will find your peace

brain wont rewire till you get off the shit.

your neurotransmitters and receptors are TOTALLY out of balance. Those neurons they are spitting around are literally the reason why you think and feel, and yours are completely fucked up. They won't go back to normal and let you have some peace until youve been clean for 6 months - 1 year or more, but while they recover you will start to feel more and more normal as times goes on.

First week is a living, breathing, fucking nightmare. you'll actually experience wanting to die to end pain. its not a good place to be. 2nd week is hell, third week is just a regular nightmare, and from then on it starts getting better fast.

lots of <3 comin your way if you figure it out and stay away.

my vice was alcohol and i went to lesser drugs to get over it. then i realized shit was bad

need safer than weed give it assholes

HAHAHAHAHAHA terrible fucking advice. Seriously though the only thing a bible cures is my need for firewood.

i recommend talking shit to cops

use trollin hbb