Maybe. Or maybe we're just a bunch of molecular automatons, organized chemistry, that at some point found an evolutionary advantage in calming itself with catharsis and meaning, because it became intelligent enough to recognize the existential horror of waking up in what can often seem like a nightmarish meatgrinder.

Suicide often happens with people who are in a state of defeat and/or 'arrested flight', the perception that there is no viable course of action-- like a gazelle in jaws of a lion. Usually depression is involved, not always. Either way, when we are in that state, we are spectacularly unqualified to actually objectively consider all our options. Your state of mind acts like a prism that refracts thoughts, facts, judgment-- and makes it all lead to death when it otherwise wouldn't.

Get help. Believe it or not, modern medicine does have interventions that can pull you out of this, in a way that will surprise and amaze you when you look back on it.

What? Don't give suicidal person protips on a forum that isnt 4chan? That's basic common sense. I can't fucking stand the guy, so I'm wishing him a long life. Rest of you are hurrr maybe try CO poisoning.

where do you see me doing that you self rightous retard.

Sorry I thought you were literate enough with attention span to maybe read the first page. I don't think self righteous is the right word.

I said.

Where the fuck.

Do you see me doing that.

You self righteous.

RETARD.

Lol we gonna get 2 for 1? Calm down precious. No one thinks you can't read good. Again I don't think self righteous is the right word.

Sir. Shutup.

Ma'am calm down.

For starters its a hypothetical situation. I'm not actually suicidal and am scared of going to Hell if I did something like that.

Secondly, I'm not close with any of my family, most of my friends are people I play WoW with and don't know IRL. I don't think anyone would really be that devastated if I just went missing, but co workers and what not would probably be really confused. I'm also a fan of that kind of youtube video. I think mysteries like this are fun for the community honestly.

By this same metric you could argue that anyone who speeds on the interstate, any soldier who volunteers to go to war or police officer, fire fighter, construction worker etc. who serves in a dangerous job is also a narcissist because imagine how devastating it would be for their families if they died etc.

Seems a little hyperbolic.

Edit: I am close with a single relative, who again, would prob be more devastated if they found me dead than rather if I just went missing. In the past I've gone 5 years without contacting them and they never once thought anything bad happened to me and that I was just off doing my own thing etc.