Toxic assholes.

[magnetaress]

Before this abusive person moved in I was cooking more than half my own meals and making things from scratch using my own carefully sourced ingredients. In smaller portions. Everyone was losing weight and feeling healthier.

This person moved in and took over the kitchen and refuses to compromise or communicate. So I backed off and gave them space so they could feel safe and have the freedom to work on their own projects and issues. They treat me like shit. And everyone in the house gained 40lb and got sicker.

In America we can't defend ourselves from this behavior without going to prison anymore.

A sickness in one is a sickness in all. And we should be able to defend ourselves from disease and poison.

[imperiouskitten]

a few tweaks to the economic system would relieve this gun-to-head pressure which drives to murder fantasy. 20,000 four bedroom homes sit decaying in vegas unoccupied. do u yet concede?

[magnetaress]

a few tweaks to the economic system would relieve this gun-to-head pressure which drives to murder fantasy. 20,000 four bedroom homes sit decaying in vegas unoccupied. do u yet concede?

I certainly dont disagree. And it's a noble effort to try and work towards.

Let me tell you though, I'm a pragmatist. And realist. You are probably going to have to eventually destroy everyone like me in order for the dream to come true.

I can respect that.

Also this other person needs to go to the hospital. I went through shit and suicide on their behalf and these people think they can absolutely do no wrong.

Yes, I am stupid. Slow. And not very smart. I make mistakes. But I learn.

This person will not until they are given boundaries and limits. They won't respect me or the community. Or property that isn't there's. Hence their territorialism.

They need help I can't give. The police should lock this psychocensuring libtard the fuck up. To man the fuck up.

I'm sick and tired of passive aggressive warfare and subtle poisonings.

[magnetaress]

This person has all the resources they need. BTW. It's not like they can't go elsewhere.

They have NPD and manipulate people. Deliberately start massive projects and fail. Then blame me... because I avoided them... said absolutely nothing. They've blown at least 20k on a big project and have taken over 3 sheds and two driveways worth of space with all the useless shit They've hoarded.

If it was just me and them, it'd be a different story, but they've got two gaslit subjects in their thrall. Anything I do would hurt all three.

I don't want to hurt any of these people. I'm just frustrated and tired of silently soaking their abuse.

[imperiouskitten]

Let me tell you though, I'm a pragmatist. And realist. You are probably going to have to eventually destroy everyone like me in order for the dream to come true.

that's neither pragmatic nor realistic nor demonstrative of ability to learn. it's just stubborn meanness.

i am sorry this jerko is jerking at you tho. i'm not trying to neg just presenting your harry potter golden snitch you'll have to grab to square ur circles. it'd make this person so tiny

[magnetaress]

I've gently nudged and positively affirmed and encouraged, but then I get punished. This person throws a temper tantrum and acts like the world is ending if I ask politely if I may plz get a fresh jug of water.

[magnetaress]

that's neither pragmatic nor realistic nor demonstrative of ability to learn. it's just stubborn meanness.

i am sorry this jerko is jerking at you tho. i'm not trying to neg just presenting your harry potter golden snitch you'll have to grab to square ur circles. it'd make this person so tiny

You're right.

I'm restraining a legendary amount of meanness. Baked into me out of harsh survival conditioning. Percocets will probably just result in more self harm.

[imperiouskitten]

oxycodone is mega rage fuel lol, i would advise you hard against. mental hospital trip in a pill would be my fear for u :p

[magnetaress]

BTW this was ongoing multiple years ago I never talked about it here.

It's not a cry for help.

I'm venting.

[imperiouskitten]

just hurry up and get dicked and go make a homestead

and stop saying stuff like "im a robot blood is my electricity"

[magnetaress]

oxycodone is mega rage fuel lol, i would advise you hard against. mental hospital trip in a pill would be my fear for u :p

I clearly don't know my pills. But yeah I just want to chemically restrain myself.

I think it'd be better for everyone.

Better than suicide, multiple homicide.

I can't find an acceptable solution.

I know the least of evils still won't get anyone to heaven.

[imperiouskitten]

know what's healthy intoxicating? getting dicked .

you could sleep over and make him healthy eats, it'd ensnare him fast. just don't say anything around him like "all i see is murder" and you might forget you used to say it all the time, liek biting your nails. Boom bam, I fixed ur life go forth & conquer

[Snortles Chortles]

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[imperiouskitten]

he blockeded me just to take a special SS haha

[magnetaress]

just hurry up and get dicked and go make a homestead

and stop saying stuff like "im a robot blood is my electricity"

I made a mistake and have to self mutilate to be acceptably dickable.

I can't in the state I am in. I would be no better than this other asshole as a partner. I do deserve to die. I am probably more broken than my nemesis.

The difference is they love being that way and think they deserve for it.

Like I said. If my sacrifice leads to a better world for everyone.

I'll volunteer for the FEMA trip.

[magnetaress]

he blockeded me just to take a special SS haha

He's the most thirsty poster here.

[imperiouskitten]

why u gotta self mutilate? dieting no?

just poast you'll find a guy fr.

[magnetaress]

know what's healthy intoxicating? getting dicked .

you could sleep over and make him healthy eats, it'd ensnare him fast. just don't say anything around him like "all i see is murder" and you might forget you used to say it all the time, liek biting your nails. Boom bam, I fixed ur life go forth & conquer

Reasonable advice. I generally agree.

[imperiouskitten]

I'll volunteer for the FEMA trip.

ur doing it again

[magnetaress]

why u gotta self mutilate? dieting no?

just poast you'll find a guy fr.

I'll take this to pms if u want. But I got a problem thats personal BTW. Maybe God wants me chaste. I don't want to subject myself to anymore ridicule.

I think I'm going to already get the peanut gallery for this post.

Btw. I'm down 14lb.

[imperiouskitten]

ill bug you later, i gotta go do stuff. hope you feel better, sorry for being insensitive btw

[magnetaress]

ill bug you later, i gotta go do stuff. hope you feel better, sorry for being insensitive btw

You've been a super sensitive friend.

Thanks for listening and offering advice.

Take care and don't worry about me.

[Snortles Chortles]

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[Gravydoo II]

This person has all the resources they need. BTW. It's not like they can't go elsewhere.

They have NPD and manipulate people. Deliberately start massive projects and fail. Then blame me... because I avoided them... said absolutely nothing. They've blown at least 20k on a big project and have taken over 3 sheds and two driveways worth of space with all the useless shit They've hoarded.

If it was just me and them, it'd be a different story, but they've got two gaslit subjects in their thrall. Anything I do would hurt all three.

I don't want to hurt any of these people. I'm just frustrated and tired of silently soaking their abuse.

If you ALWAYS spare their feelings, what does that do to you?? What you're doing now.. Pretty obvious you resent them, now.

[magnetaress]

If you ALWAYS spare their feelings, what does that do to you?? What you're doing now.. Pretty obvious you resent them, now.

Yeah. It makes me angry, resentful anxious and sick. And I'm constantly looking over my shoulder with distrust.

It's fucking me up.

I'm not Jesus and I don't want to be.

But I lived with an angry shameful asshole. So I absolutely refuse to pursue this. I can't handle escalation. When I tried just a tiny bit. It escalated.

I'm back to locking my doors and being 90% avoident. Fuck it.

Like I said I really needed to vent. I can't safely do anything.

I snuck out and made a meal and snuck back. No one ever knew I was there, and I cleaned shit. That's the only good thing I can do.

[imperiouskitten]

ahhh, there's nothing to be done about wicked housemates. it just sucks, perma.

can't beat a person whose life is constant hell and wild emotion without joining them there. And I think everyone but the Buddha be susceptible to suppressive theta waves in their domicile. Sometimes all you can do is appease appease and "submit your dignity" to them, trying hard to stay knowing you are figuratively trying to keep a homeless man from knifing you in a stuck elevator. (This also applies to asylum forum boards btw). But even that is a major drag. And sometimes the elevator psycho knifes even that Buddha. That's why I don't leave the house without a 6'4" hunk and I only rent an apartment if it's soundproof poured concrete.

[magnetaress]

ahhh, there's nothing to be done about wicked housemates. it just sucks, perma.

can't beat a person whose life is constant hell and wild emotion without joining them there. And I think everyone but the Buddha be susceptible to suppressive theta waves in their domicile. Sometimes all you can do is appease appease and "submit your dignity" to them, trying hard to stay knowing you are figuratively trying to keep a homeless man from knifing you in a stuck elevator. (This also applies to asylum forum boards btw). But even that is a major drag. And sometimes the elevator psycho knifes even that Buddha. That's why I don't leave the house without a 6'4" hunk and I only rent an apartment if it's soundproof poured concrete.

Fair enough.

Redoubling Bhuddismo and appeasement and submission. It's probably a dharmic lesson. The dark reflexion of my prime. Suppressed and dismissed.

Your post is most thoughtful and helpful.

[hobart]

OP, log out and don't log back in.

Use that time to get a job, your own place, and control of your life. Or don't and we'll just pretend you did.

Whatever you do, whenever you think of something random, assume no one cares and keep it to yourself. Compartmentalization is healthy.

[Tunabros]

another thread of 2 people talking to each other

p99 forums is such a diverse place

[imperiouskitten]

OP, log out and don't log back in.

Use that time to get a job, your own place, and control of your life. Or don't and we'll just pretend you did.

Whatever you do, whenever you think of something random, assume no one cares and keep it to yourself. Compartmentalization is healthy.

you should do therapy very excellent

another thread of 2 people talking to each other

p99 forums is such a diverse place

its pretty ez to scan not like another thread was invaded. i had higher hopes for you than peanut gallery spazmo

[magnetaress]

Thread was for educational purposes as well as advice. I appreciate all of it.

I agree with having my own job. And place. I would miss posting here though.

I'm an expert at compartmentalizng. You guys don't know me that well. So I will forgive the rude assumptions.

I'm super chill, low key, and gentle and easy to get along with. It takes a lot of hurting and pain for me to make a post like this. It's not just crappy shit on a whim.

Notice how I've gone out of my way to protect the identity of my abuser and avoid gossiping and just running through a giant list of "bad things about them". I really care about this person and I am more upset I couldn't help them. I simply addressed the severity of the situation. I care for my family. I would never do anything to hurt them.

I know forums are useless for this stuff.

I've been in and out of the hospital and seeing psychiatry and psychology regularly. The VA sucks. They can't really do anything.

I am a Jedi master of Dialectic and Cognitive behavioral therapy.

https://i.imgur.com/CzOV9jE.jpg

I've mastered several books on yoga and pilates. Barefoot trail running.. I read the Bible. Study bhudism and Hinduism. I'm clean and drug free. I was 5'8'', skinny and gorgeous.

I got sick around covid time, abused, sicker, it's put me in a vulnerable position. And my family is severely dysfunctional. I poured my heart and soul into freeing them and empowering them by cooking, cleaning, gardening, caring, and being there for them. With absolutely no demands in return.

It's not my fault so don't go blaming me. I did more than 90% of people could dream of doing. Yet still got fucked by civilizations mighty big dirty fist.

Like I said I just wanted to vent. It's not a cry for help. I'm coping.

[magnetaress]

Still doing better than 90% of people would in my circumstances.

[Tunabros]

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[Cen]

Sorry to use this opportunity to hock my YouTube channel, but I do make relaxation videos on my channel if you want to feel special or important. Try this: https://youtu.be/kBx1YRcLH5M

I know it's not a replacement for a drug or a hike tho feel better magnatress

[magnetaress]

Sorry to use this opportunity to hock my YouTube channel, but I do make relaxation videos on my channel if you want to feel special or important. Try this: https://youtu.be/kBx1YRcLH5M

I know it's not a replacement for a drug or a hike tho feel better magnatress

Plz don't apologize. Sorry I gaslighted you into apolozing for trying to help.

You are like one of the bestest posters.

Going to check out your vids. I coped better watching peoples lets plays before. Super sound advice. Maybe I just need to mix it up more.

That's actually pretty cool :thumbs up:

[imperiouskitten]

Sorry to use this opportunity to hock my YouTube channel, but I do make relaxation videos on my channel if you want to feel special or important. Try this: https://youtu.be/kBx1YRcLH5M

I know it's not a replacement for a drug or a hike tho feel better magnatress

awesome

[imperiouskitten]

omg just saw cen in his underwear.

stunner.

edit: ya im a big cen simp now

[magnetaress]

Yeah. Cen is like the best. Ever :p

P.s. doing real well despite continuing shenanigans. Got most of my Zen back.

Everyone here has been a great help. Even you Chortles for occasionally triggering masochistic Chorties.

Imperiouskitten a very wise forum spirit.