A leviathan woke, and became a beautiful mer-princess.

[magnetaress]

This was the first 30 years of my life:

https://i.imgur.com/Vudt8UB.gif

Now my life be like

https://i.imgur.com/rNp1BHB.gif

and like

https://i.imgur.com/bJZBOSB.gif

I want to thank you all and tell you all how greatful I am to have u guys to shitpost @ and with. Things have changed a lot and are much better.

I have learned to both not be bullied and not be the bully. Life is fun again. And Everquest too.

Thanks for helping to ease ride back out of this frackin shithole (not p99 or everquest).

[Sibelia1]

I really feel u, and regarding myself personally, at first I was all like

https://i.imgur.com/BXR88gD.jpg

but now im all like

https://i.imgur.com/E94b7Ps.png

[magnetaress]

https://i.imgur.com/xF3DWfy.gif

[magnetaress]

https://i.imgur.com/HkdJPT6.png

https://i.imgur.com/vkD7JJQ.gif

https://youtu.be/b4h1q3cCl2w

the black figure is 'death' go figure lol also the groups name is 'run'

The ocean shore is a liminal place of change...



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I am not affiliated with these weebz just synchronicity...

doubleposting cuz i am crazy and u should ignore me but its a relevant post to this topic

[magnetaress]

btw udnerwater camera werk is hard lol appearently it takes some real talent

[Sibelia1]

haha yea 1 of tge best ever, never seen better

[magnetaress]

Feel free to shit up this thread.

anyway. IDC.

I said what I needed to say, and if I feel the need to respond, I may :D

I am in a mood. Probably cuz the black magic. TBH. I am drawn to it. As much as I love god. I also still have this... ich... and believe he wants me to do more than just love him. Or her or it. Or them.

Honestly my mind is pretty interesting place right now. The veil is ripped wide open and I believe I am dead. I am a little afraid, but I am also curious. And I am also ready to rest and return through the void into the light. Though the light pains me.

There is nothing wrong with the shadows to shadow creatures like myself. I believe the angels saw me and said "I am a gift from god" because I am a demon risen to life from death. Yet, I died, and now reside here among the dead, sometimes in heaven. Sometimes hell. And sometimes I bring serenity and peace to hell and chaos to heaven. Sometimes I flit between worlds. I travel now.

Superstition is to act on belief with only hope as a guide and no evidence or guidance to the contrary. This is, for me, I feel beyond superstition. As I have been walking this path. It is indeed scary. And that is where the leviathan lies. In fear.

[magnetaress]

BTW there is a lot of satanic or dark magic in Everquest. It is not a godly path to follow. Yet, there is a lot of God in everything if one understands God and can look for God. He is in Everquest to, though with less intention.

I feel like I am on good terms with him and he understands that I understand and he wants me to be free to come to him even through the darkness and he is there for guidance if I need it. As I walk through the valley of ... https://biblehub.com/psalms/23-4.htm

[Sibelia1]

Myself I am thinking about Schubert, killed of syphilis by 30. probably given him by an older male admirer type, and he himself prolly fain to mark its receipt upon the hour :o i know the rules for today but idk if i am supposed to be grossed out at ancient pederasty or not...what do you think?

[magnetaress]

Myself I am thinking about Schubert, killed of syphilis by 30. probably given him by an older male admirer type, and he himself prolly fain to mark its receipt upon the hour :o i know the rules for today but idk if i am supposed to be grossed out at ancient pederasty or not...what do you think?

Well.... back then the age of maturity was more like 14. And ya its creepy af and definitely wrong, but I feel like Milo Yiannopolis was right about one thing, if I had met a gentle older male at 12 or 13 who didn't exploit and abuse me, but looked after me, I probably would have wound up playing a lot less EQ and making a lot more music videos.

[magnetaress]

I am kinda greatful I did not die of syphilis (at least I don't think so). Not 100% sure on this however, I made it past 30. Maybe? I sort of feel like the matrix I am concious of? stopped recieving new information when I was very young. So like perpetual Iraq wars, everquest, and 80's, 90s memes. So maybe I died in 94? 02?

[magnetaress]

I would have to defer to the experience of others on this one, and definitely don't condone the black magic in that regard.

[magnetaress]

You should check out some of these newer disney movies lol.

[Sibelia1]

point of divergence was only like 18 months ago in my conception. i might of fell from that thing and when i hit my head suddenly it was "bernschtein bares".

[Sibelia1]

Well.... back then the age of maturity was more like 14. And ya its creepy af and definitely wrong, but I feel like Milo Yiannopolis was right about one thing, if I had met a gentle older male at 12 or 13 who didn't exploit and abuse me, but looked after me, I probably would have wound up playing a lot less EQ and making a lot more music videos.
same. it's kinda like my life didnt start until the 1st time i was preyed upon as a minor, by a Jewish woman (WHO WOULDNT EVEN PUT OUT.)
You should check out some of these newer disney movies lol.

:( nah i think probably sad

[magnetaress]

same. it's kinda like my life didnt start until the 1st time i was preyed upon as a minor, by a Jewish woman (WHO WOULDNT EVEN PUT OUT.)


:( nah i think probably sad

They are sad, it's based in old folklore and black magic superstition, and now its cabalistic, but its meant to teach kids about the horrors of reality. And adults love subjecting kids to these fairytales.

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I don't wish anyone to be exploited, abused or violated. Especially not by a really predatory creep asshole. So. Not sure if I want to live in a man made cage without any human interaction or not just to spare 15% of the population.

I wouldn't know. I suffered violence, not sex.


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when we think about free will and the garden of eden and we start hitting on some philosophical feels that i really cannot preach to because I am just an ignorant wierdo who plays a dark elf in a simulated environment

[magnetaress]

point of divergence was only like 18 months ago in my conception. i might of fell from that thing and when i hit my head suddenly it was "bernschtein bares".

that is exactly what it feels like

we are in the same matrix together and i am glad you have free will though i dont want to control u in fact i would surrender all my control to u i want to see ur matrix, mine is boring as hell

this leads me to believe that there isn't a singular thread and the universe is more of a multicored thing and parrellellism, even between time, like in the past and future to. and there is a lot more going on and we see the effects of death and our stupidity, there was a lot of 'drunk driver' news stories last time I put myself in a situation deliberately where I problably died. But it was past stuff working its way up through the cosmos. Now.

I'm not willing to experiment further as I am enjoying my EQ time and sandwich making in the present matrix.

Sometimes I think I bring you with me. And for that I feel bad.

[Bigsham]

Heres the first post in this thread by a non trans gender

Heres to succeeding in life and being mentally healthy !

[magnetaress]

Heres the first post in this thread by a non trans gender

Heres to succeeding in life and being mentally healthy !

*chomps submit button on a mer-thread on a 21 yr old elf simulator forum*